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Driving away

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Pumble · 28/12/2012 00:52

I don't know where to post this and don't know what to do. I'm sitting here crying again with my 5 week old dd2 and just know that the best thing I could do for both of my girls is to get in the car and drive. If dd2 ever goes to sleep that is what I must do. I won't be leaving them alone and it will break my heart but it's what will be best for them. They deserve so much better than the useless failure of a mother they have.

I don't know why I'm posting this. I guess to feel less alone

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TanteRose · 07/01/2013 05:46

{{{Pumble}}}

there IS a point to going to the GP - you most probably have post-traumatic stress from DD2's birth.

They will listen to you - you must be totally honest with them. They will have seen it before, and will have the best course of action for you

Your girls are very lucky to have you as their mum.

Your Dh will understand and support you, I'm sure.
Ask him to make an appointment for the doctor's later this morning.

don't leave your beautiful DDs, they need you, really they do. But they need you to be well, and that is something that the doctor can help with.

don't be sad Sad

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Pumble · 07/01/2013 05:55

I've just let everyone down

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LoopsInHoops · 07/01/2013 05:55

Right.

Show this thread to your husband RIGHT NOW.

Sorry to be bossy but do it. Now. Wake him if needed. Now.

TanteRose · 07/01/2013 05:59

Pumble, no you have not

we said we'd be here for you and we are

but Loops is right - you need to get this sorted very quickly

is your DH there with you now?

if not, can you contact him? or a friend?

Greenkit · 07/01/2013 06:02

How Puffle, how have you let your Dh down??

You have two beautiful children, you ARE a good mum, I promise you

Sunnywithshowers · 07/01/2013 06:02

Pumble, you haven't let anyone down. Not one tiny wee bit.

More hugs xxx

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Pumble · 07/01/2013 06:05

He's just gone to work.

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Sunnywithshowers · 07/01/2013 06:06

Can you text him, Pumble? Let him know how you're feeling? xxx

TanteRose · 07/01/2013 06:08

call him - tell him to come back

seriously, this is more important than his work

don't worry, it will be sorted out, but I don't think you can do it on your own

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Pumble · 07/01/2013 06:08

If I text him he'll come back and I don't think he should have anymore time off work having just had time off for Christmas etc

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GrannyRatOnAScooter · 07/01/2013 06:08

Pumble

GrannyRatOnAScooter · 07/01/2013 06:10

Text him now. Don't think about it, just do it. Sod work. You need him. Now, please.

I'm here so keep talking.

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Pumble · 07/01/2013 06:12

The worst thing is I feel like I don't love dd2 enough and that's why this is happening. I feel I was coping with dd1 and I'm just a failure for not coping with both girls and it's because I don't love dd2 enough. But I love her so much and am sitting here with my arms around her just saying sorry.

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Pumble · 07/01/2013 06:13

I sent him an email with a link to the thread.

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GrannyRatOnAScooter · 07/01/2013 06:18

Well done Thanks That was a really brave thing to do. I am very proud of you.

That was a huge step in attempting to help yourself out of this misery.

It certainly sounds to me like you love both DDs more than words can say. I truly feel with the right support, you will be the happy Mummy you want and can be.

Keep talking, I'm here.

Sunnywithshowers · 07/01/2013 06:18

Well done Pumble, that's a really good idea.

You are a good mummy xxx

fiverabbits · 07/01/2013 06:22

WELL DONE

If you can't go to the GP ask your DH to arrange a home visit.

That's what I did and my DC'S were 8 & 9.

The GP was really good and realised how ill I was by the fact that I didn't go to the surgery.

Hugs to you.

TanteRose · 07/01/2013 06:22

so you DO love her - you love her so much. She will know that. Because you are there for her, holding her tight

have you had a cup of tea this morning?

if not, off you go - go and make yourself a cuppa Brew

can you bring your 6 week appointment forward to today? phone the receptionist and see if you can do that?

TanteRose · 07/01/2013 06:24

Good that you sent him a link - he will understand

LoopsInHoops · 07/01/2013 06:24

Well done! What fantastic news, that has really made my day! :)

You have just taken such a big step towards everything going really well for your family. Your beautiful daughters already have a lovely Mummy and Daddy who love them, but now their Mummy will get the help that she needs to clear her head and see how well she is doing.

So many people suffer from either PND or PTSD. I know of quite a few close friends (all sane, together, normal and respectable people) who have really struggled with it before asking and receiving help. Every single one of them (myself included, PTSD not PND) are now happy, confident people.

You have done brilliantly. Well done. Do let us know when your DH responds, I for one will be worrying about you until I know that he has come home and taken you to the GP.

:) :) :) :) :)

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Pumble · 07/01/2013 06:24

I can't stop the tears. Dd2 is asleep but getting wet hair from my tears as I daren't put her down because she's finally quiet and because I don't want to. I need to be holding her. If Dd1 wasn't asleep I would be grabbing her and holding her as tightly as I could too.

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LoopsInHoops · 07/01/2013 06:26

You know that you have just taken the most positive step you will ever take in making sure that you are always their for your girls? I hope you are proud of yourself, you are a star. :)

LoopsInHoops · 07/01/2013 06:26

*there

TanteRose · 07/01/2013 06:27

OK then hold her tight

you're doing fine, sweetheart

Mr Pumble, if you are reading this, please get home as quick as you can

LoopsInHoops · 07/01/2013 06:28

When will DH get to work? Is he likely to read his email straight away? I bet you are feeling a bit anxious but a bit relieved now. Sit tight. xxx