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Mental health

Driving away

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Pumble · 28/12/2012 00:52

I don't know where to post this and don't know what to do. I'm sitting here crying again with my 5 week old dd2 and just know that the best thing I could do for both of my girls is to get in the car and drive. If dd2 ever goes to sleep that is what I must do. I won't be leaving them alone and it will break my heart but it's what will be best for them. They deserve so much better than the useless failure of a mother they have.

I don't know why I'm posting this. I guess to feel less alone

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MrsHelsBels74 · 09/07/2013 07:15

I know how you feel, DS2 hates the heat, plus has chickenpox and is teething. It's hard to stay upbeat when you've been up every 2 hours.

magimedi · 09/07/2013 08:28

4am is the pits. Lack of sleep really makes you feel shitty. Hope you can get some naps in during the day - even just 15 minutes or so.

Pumble · 09/07/2013 08:41

Feeling crap and want to curl in a ball and cry. Shouted at pumblettes and pumblette 1 told me I needed a hug to feel better.

Chicken pox and teething and heat-poor all of you. Hope you get some better sleep soon.

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Pumble · 09/07/2013 10:39

Right-one pumblette asleep, one amused by sunshine and bubble machine and one cup of tea finally drunk. This day WILL improve....

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Wylye · 09/07/2013 11:23

This day WILL improve! A good motto to live by - worth writing on the back of your hand before you go to bed so you are reminded in the bleak hours.

How were you over the weekend? Has this come on suddenly, or have you been feeling this low for a few days?

We're around today and tomorrow if you fancy another meet up! xx

MrsHelsBels74 · 09/07/2013 15:33

I lost it earlier with DS1, he wouldn't get out of the car on the right side so in the end I basically dragged him out & up to the front door

Pumble · 09/07/2013 17:58

helsbels I'm sure the weather is not helping ours or the DC's temperaments..... How are you (when not hot, coping with teething and chicken pox?!)?

I think I was feeling low today anyway as came back from my parents yesterday which always makes me a bit low that we don't live nearer if that makes sense.

Next week wylye as can't do tomorrow and couldn't do today?

Had lunch with a friend in the end-pumblette 1 was great, pumblette 2 screamed but at least I wasn't alone dealing with it.

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MrsHelsBels74 · 09/07/2013 20:02

I'm kind of up & down. My mental health worker wants to get my meds increased as I've kind of plateaued at a lower mood level than ideal. Hoping it works. Have also discussed going to Relate or similar with my DH as we're not getting on too well.

Pumble · 09/07/2013 20:56

Fingers crossed the increased meds work mrshelsbels . Its good that they're supporting you though. Sorry things aren't great with your DH and hope Relate helps if thats where you go. I find it's such a bugger as you think that you are having a better run and then something brings you back down with an enormous bump - the ups and downs are a bit pants to say the least. Really hope that DS2 is feeling much better tomorrow too and you get a lot more sleep tonight.

I can't work out if my snapping (and general difficult moments) at DH is because of the PND or us - does that make any sense at all?

wylye - have text you about tomorrow

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magimedi · 09/07/2013 22:11

I can't work out if my snapping (and general difficult moments) at DH is because of the PND or us - does that make any sense at all?

Yes, that makes perfect sense to me - it can be really hard to see what is going on from the inside where you are.

It's the most difficult thing of all to take a (figurative) step back & see your relationship from an outside perspective.

I hope that ^^ make sense - & I hope you have a better day tomorrow.

Wylye · 09/07/2013 23:17

MrsHB I'm sorry you're feeling shit too, I definitely think Relate is worth a go, as Magi says, another perspective is very valuable. DH and I ended up just having a series of massive blazing rows, which worked in that at least some issues got out in the open, but it was not a healthy process. He won't go to Relate, so well done if you both manage to go! DH and I have reached a sort of peace, but we haven't fixed our issues.

I've been off my ADs for a couple of months, but still occasionally get that 'freewheeling down a hill out of control' feeling when I feel totally out of my depth. I'm a great believer in adjusting your meds until you get the right type/dose, and then adjusting again if they stop doing their job - they're a tool to help us get better, and you have to use the right sized tool for the job. Hope they get sorted for you soon. Xx

Pumble · 10/07/2013 04:56

Plumblette 2 has been awake since midnight....I'm really losing the will.....

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MrsHelsBels74 · 10/07/2013 05:15

Hang in there Pumble x

Pumble · 10/07/2013 06:01

She's still going. I guess we will get up properly soon. How was your night mrshb

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MrsHelsBels74 · 10/07/2013 07:06

Not too bad thankfully. DS2 was up at 5 but that was it, so relatively quiet. Still knackered though & wondering how to keep 2 energetic boys amused today.

magimedi · 10/07/2013 07:58

Oh you poor loves - I so remember the lack of sleep - it's a bitch.

Hope you get a chance for a nap today.

Pumble · 10/07/2013 08:43

Glad you had a better night despite the early start. Can they run around the garden to wear themselves out today?

Pumblette 2 has been crashed out on me since 7:15. Why she couldn't do it overnight is anyone's guess.

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MrsHelsBels74 · 10/07/2013 08:51

Well am hoping DS1 can but DS2 is only 9 months so not running yet, although he's doing a lot of cruising which tires him out.

Pumble · 10/07/2013 21:25

Poor pumblette 2 has been really poorly all day, which explains our bad night. I don't think that I have had that many cuddles from her since she was a newborn - she was sleeping on me at every opportunity (which was lovely in some ways as I feel I didn't appreciate them when they were bountiful when she was tiny if that makes sense). Thankfully we finally got some water into her this afternoon which was a relief given it was all she had had all day. She was so lethargic this morning, it was rather unnerving. I really hope that we all get more sleep tonight! Pumblette 1 was a star but definitely needing lots of hugs from me by bedtime - I think it was hard on her having pumblette 2 getting so many hugs all day. Thank goodness for the good weather so she could be in and out of the paddling pool.

I hope that you had a good day MRSHB Did you manage to tire out the boys?

I just also wanted to say thanks for still being here to you all

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MrsHelsBels74 · 10/07/2013 22:10

Yes both boys are fast asleep so fingers crossed for a good night tonight.

magimedi · 10/07/2013 22:18

I just also wanted to say thanks for still being here to you all

We ain't going to leave you!

Hope everyone posting here has a decent sleep tonight.

Pumble · 11/07/2013 16:27

In hospital with a poorly pumblette 2 and gradually falling apart. Need to pull myself together for the pumblettes.

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Wylye · 11/07/2013 20:51

Oh no - how's she doing?? And how're you doing now? Hope you've had some answers about what's wrong. Keep going lovey, keep going.
I'm here on text if you need. xxxx + extra hugs

LittleBearPad · 11/07/2013 20:55

Hey Pumble. I'm sorry pumblette2 isn't well and is in hospital. I hope she's getting better. Hang in there. Big hug.

magimedi · 11/07/2013 22:21

Oh I am so sad to read this news - I so hope Pumblette 2 is OK by now & am so hoping it is something simple & not too serious. Poor wee girl.

You will not fall apart - you really won't - you will be OK - you are a wonderful mother.

You have come through all of this & you will be fine & so will Pumblette 2.

But please update in the morning - I am off to bed now but will be logging in to this thread as soon as I wake tomorrow.

Keep strong, remember to drink water & eat, if you can.

Huge hugs to you & the Pumblettes.

(((xxx)))

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