It's my fault that the NHS is too expensive

[snowmash]

and I can't do anything about it :(

No. Very real f/bs about clothes pulld up over my head trapping my arms andcovering my face. stupid couldnt find anything to sleep that didnt feel like clothes. very scared failure need to give away gowns and today over

Mornin' all.

Snowmash, so sorry you've had a rotten night. Nothing to feel a failure about, but absolutely no fun at all, poor you.

Is your room nice and warm?

Morning everyone, and a belated Happy Chinese New Year (seems it was yesterday, so I'm still behind).
Snowmash, I don't know what f/bs is but it sounds horrible and hope it's now definitely over. Please don't be afraid, and please think twice about giving away gowns.

Have you eaten today, and as Cage asked, is your room nice and warm? (Both important if not feeling good)

I like to curl up not have a warm room. need sleep but every time i curl up flashbacks come - very stupid as can't sleep without touching soft. want to go for rlonrg walk instead but wchair hugs me too. just messed up ohone call ot rang :( stupid stupid stupid bad waste of money shouldnt be allowed

sleep

Hope you get a good nap, snowmash.

Have a nice sleep - hope you wake up refreshed.
It's a beautiful day here, just very windy, although it felt good being out in it.
Do I understand you're in a wheelchair? (Nosey again) I have one too, but am usually
OK without it in the mornings.
If I,m being too personal on here, feel free to PM me,( or just ignore altogether)

Hi snowmash, I think we might be neighbours - would you like me to do anything like get some shopping in for you?

I've not read all of the thread yet btw, just been told about it by someone else who noticed we both live in the same area.

Snowmash going to be blunt now but if you don't seek a bit of help now you will totally crash and need a lot more help. Which will make you worry about costs more.

I understand about wanting to get away from things touching you. I have the opposite, when I have flashbacks I don't know where my skin ends and the world begins. I'm connected to nothing and I hate it.

If curling up brings flashbacks can you sleep in a different position? I guess you are limited due to your back?

Hi Madmouse, I think maybe snowmash is napping at present, also think it's just possible her GP has been in contact (someone phoned her recently, a 2-letter name) so maybe not too urgent at the moment?
Agree, what a good thought LittleRedDragon, I do hope you are neighbours and snowmash contacts you when she's back

snow, I'm hoping you're snuggled up asleep right now. If when you wake up you'd fancy a grocery drop, just let me know. Or if you'd like me to nip round to the Jericho Health Centre for you and pass a message to your GP or one of the other doctors?

FWIW, they are absolutely lovely there and have told me before that nothing is a waste of their time at all - I called in when I thought I'd got carbon monoxide poisoning and they were so nice and didn't mind taking the time at all. I am sure they'd want you to get in touch.

shodatin ot = occupational therapist

Snow - hope you ok and try to take LittleRed Dragon up on her offer. Don't feel guilty - people DO like to help others.

Regarding money - don't feel guilty for the reasons many of the others have said.

My young son currently costs just over £10.00 a day just for his prescriptive special milk. Over £300 a month that the NHS pays for. I used to feel guilty but if we can get this sorted and under control now it will save the NHS alot of money in future years of tests/ seeing consultants etc....

So get the help you need now.. Take care

madmouse:
Thankyou for enlightenment - am an idiot. Have just worked out that fb = flashbacks
You could well be right to urge snowmash to get help now, its just that I do believe her GP will be aware of the situation, and also knows her patients much better than I do

I slept for anhour, been trying to think.

madmouse you are maybe right, but don't know where from.

Think GPs today are all men (one of BS practices LRD, not JHC - I should have registered at JHC, not a student practice). Wouldn't know what to say, and couldn't handle the 'why are you seeing me and not Dr X?' - just freeze.
Only know the psychiatrist from CMHT so no contact details. I should have said help to the ot (might have scared her though - not her thing :( ).

LRD thnk you very much for the shopping offer, but I need to be by myself, really I do.

maybe shodatin is right too - shouldn't waste peoples time/moeny.

I think I need to say all fine here, being good, not upset other people.

Everything's fine.

Hi snow.

I understand about you wanting to be by yourself, but if you change your mind just let me know. You sound much calmer now you've slept, I hope you're feeling it too.

Btw, I would be quite happy just to buy you some supplies and leave them on the doorstep for you if you're feeling really low. I've been depressed myself and I do understand how it feels when you just don't want to move out of the house or see anyone. It would be no trouble at all to me as I'm pretty sure I must go past your house most days.

Take care.

So glad you got a bit of sleep, snowmash.

I wonder if we could help you access the GP or CMHT?

GP
I really understand the difficulties with a strange GP. Perhaps you could let LRD help with the admin - she could make the appointment, and explain why you need it today and aren't waiting for your usual doctor (because you're in hospital next week so it's now or 11 days' time). Then you can print out this thread so that when you're in front of the doctor you don't have to explain anything.

She could go with you to the surgery or you could just PM her and she can sort an appointment out from that.

CMHT
Maybe we can help you access CMHT. I'm very happy to try to track down your CMHT team or psychiatrist, and make the calls.

I know you just want to curl up and be alone, but tomorrow's the weekend and some things may close. So it's better to do stuff today.

Am I right in thinking that, until your GP opens that email, no one on your medical team knows you're this ill right now?

Time for another cuppa, I reckon. Anyone got any of those biccies left?

I'm confused. I'm feeling rubbish, but eating, drinking, taking meds, not hurting anyone.

Course you're not hurting anyone!

We're all a bit worried because you're hurting, that's all.

So glad to hear you're managing to eat, take meds, etc.

It's not surprising you're feeling confused! Cage is right - we are all concerned about you, because you seem to think you shouldn't be having any more help from the NHS, and yet we all think you do need it.
Am glad to hear you're eating by the way, and drinking is important too, otherwise body stops working, and you're absolutely right you're not hurting anyone But, what can we do to help, particularly to make you feel better and to know that you are just as worthwhile as any one of us, like pancakeflipper's little boy?
What would make you feel better right now?

I'm glad you've got food and drink - I was worried from what you were saying that you were getting a bit low on supplies.

So sorry you still feel bad. Will try to keep checking back in case you want a hand.

I got bread and milk wednesday evening, I don't need to eat much because I'm not doing much.

Talking is worrying me, so I think I should stop. Thank you everyone for all your time.

Snowmash please don't disappear. If you can't talk please stay here and read what we write so you don't lose touch even more. Worried about you hun.