It's my fault that the NHS is too expensive

[snowmash]

and I can't do anything about it :(

Snowmash, didn't you buy anything more interesting to eat than that packet of Hovis biscuits? Nice as a snack with cheese now and again, but not surprised you're not tempted . Please eat something today, and buy yourself something nice tomorrow.

I can see that paying for the prescriptions is becoming a problem, but as the GP spent so long today talking to you, I rather think she wants you to get the drugs and take them.
I realise you don't want free treatment, but the system's not been set up for you, so why not just co-operate with the doctor over this, and think of some other way of making a donation to the NHS at a later date? Please?

I'm trying to get my head round it. Not quite sure how prescription charges work, but if it's one per item rather than per script then it might be that I pay enough. Because the scripts are only for seven days worth (don't think she trusts me with more, but I haven't done anything to make her think that).

You might be on short-term dosage while they're monitoring the effects, don't know, and as I don't pay for my prescriptions now well, I don't know how the charging system works either.

There are many things I don't know or don't understand, but sometimes I'm just relieved that I don't need to! Actually, you might feel more relaxed and happy if you were not worrying about this, because I honestly don't know of anyone else who does.

And have you eaten anything yet? Other people do eat some interesting things - I just do a home-made soup at night, nothing heavy.

I have got a miso cup-a-soup from the cupboard which I forgot I had and are nice (waitrose).

She took some of the strips of pills out of my two packets so I only had a few of each - the ones that I'm supposed to keep taking because she said she didn't want me to be tempted, but I wouldn't do that to my carers - I'd go somewhere else and I've told her that, which is why I don't understand.

:( how do I not feel guilty about talking to GP?

Hi Snowmash , ive been reading your thread i hope you dont mind. You seem such a nice person :) i just wanted to say hello and attempt some advice.
About not feeling guilty can you think of it a bit like this ?
I think most of the people on this site pay into the system at some point in their lives so that when we or other people need treatment they can have it. (god i hope i dont sound patronising im not trying to be, i know you know all this.)So if you were to ask them if they minded paying into the system so you could feel better im pretty sure all of them would say "ofcourse we dont. We want snowmash to feel better !". I know i dont mind paying in if it helps other people. It might help me one day (more than it does already i should say being as im taking a lot of medication and have been in hospital and under many many doctors in the past). Does that help at all ?

Snowmash my little ds (3) has started his life with a massive debt to the NHS that he can probably never repay (instrumental delivery, a week in intensive care, two weeks in special care, consultnat, weekly physio and speech therapy, occupational therapy, chair, walking frame....

shit happens - he didn't ask for it and neither did you!

Thanks everyone - I'm going to think this over vernight and tomorrow.

I hope everyone sleeps well.

Goodnight snowmash, hope you sleep well.
And everyone else.

Night night all, and sleep well.

Morning snowmash, hope you get the prescriptions sorted today, and greetings to TIANC, hoping this will be a good day for you too.

Have to go out for a few hours, so will look in again this afternoon (and hope the sun's out by then, it's horrible here)

Good morning everyone.

shodatin , I hope the weather gets better for you.

TIANC , I hope today is a better/good day for you.

Everyone else, I hope you have good/productive days.

I'm feeling a bit concerned about my GP - worried the way she was thinking yesterday means that she is suffering from stress/something.

Morning all, hope everyone rested.

Thanks - I'm much better, just a whinger at heart. Weather here just as grey, hope it picks up for us all.

Sorry you're worried about the GP. Maybe you could mention it in passing when you see the psych on Fri - I'm sure they try to look out for one another.

You could explain what part of the GP's thinking is worrying you - maybe it'll turn out you just have different opinions.

Feeling bad and talking about it doesn't make you a whinger... xxx

It's grey here too, staying at home today as it's cold.

That's an idea TIANC - and that's probably a reason to go...

TIANC and Pixie - if I'm brave enough to ask her I will, because that is a good reason to see her. I don't know her (psych) awfully well, as I've only met her twice and she seemed quite commanding (but that might be because I'm slow and not good at talking to people I don't know about intimate stuff).

Maybe I can ask her about private prescriptions too (if she doesn't get too cross that I stopped taking the anti-depressants).

Aw, sweet of you to say that, snowmash, thank you. It's actually been a big relief for DP that I've found MN - poor lamb used to get a Force 9 Whinge over the phone every evening, when he'd just staggered in from a 14 hour day and hadn't even eaten.

He was very good about it, but it's made a real difference to our relationship that you brave MNers help us spread the load a little...

Oh, just seen what you say about the anti-depressants.

I guess she'd be pleased if you were taking them again by the time you see her. Would it be helpful to ask her about possible side effects, to be prepared?

I say this because a RL friend made her one and only suicide attempt when they changed her anti-depressants. Once the drugs had bedded in, she found them useful, but in the adjustment period they very seriously disturbed her thought patterns. I don't think there's a way round this, other than to resolve in advance not to take big decisions or drastic actions during that period, no matter how horrid things are. I guess if one does have interesting thoughts, one could write them down and review them after one month. If they are useful thoughts, they'll last a month; if they're just artefacts of the drugs, no harm done.

All easier said than done, I know.

Hello again and thanks for good wishes, but weather here is still awful..
TIANC, have only recently realised you're not well yourself, so you must be doing very well indeed, and I hope today continues good.
Snowmash, you're right to stay at home today, but I hope someone is getting you the prescriptions you need. I also hope you're taking the anti-depressants again, as one can feel really horrible coming off them, plus I think they're really worthwhile.
Pixie has good ideas for Friday and seeing psych (as always!)
Personally, I'd take the ads (which would please the psych, I'm sure) and also mention the prescriptions problem because she might have come across this before, and it would be best to get it sorted if possible.