Insomnia friends - I will sleep well tonight because I have told my unconscious I will- Part II

[madmouse]

Help we left it too late the old thread is full!!! Hope we all find this one!!!

Anticipation is often much worse than the reality I find. I think part of the battle is expecting the worst, and the reality won't be that bad, if that makes sense. I hope you'll be ok orangflutie (btw I went to University in Exeter - lovely town!).

Well we've had a hectic first day back. DS1 at Beavers, DS2 watching Ivor the Engine DVD, DS3 pulling the kitchen apart...

GetDown you can see my paintings on facebook (look in my photos). I just love to paint when I get the chance, I did A level art but nothing since then. I wish I'd pursued art further but my dad told me there was no future in art so I went the academic route instead. I remember him saying 'you can always have it as a hobby' and I really regret listening to him now :( Ah well.

your paintings are beautiful becky - you could definitely sell them. Second job?

Hope you got through the hectic day ok.

Becky - ive had a look at your paintings - they are fantastic. I have absolutely no talent like that - so very envious.

Getdown- really glad the CPN appointment went ok x

Becky Parents eh? I wanted to go to art school, but got told I wasn't 'the arty type'! What's that? I think they were worried about drugs but ironically I've taken quite a few legal ones recently:)

They F* You Up Your Mum and Dad (a fascinating book - and so true!). I will never, ever tell my DSs they can't do something that they want to do.

Thanks for the nice comments about my paintings :) I wish someone would pay me to paint pictures. I can dream :)

Good morning all!

GetDown thinking of you xxx hope you are ok.

DH has gone money spending mad! We've spent lots of money doing up the bathroom (not yet started - next week) and insulating the top floor of the house, and all this worries me enough as it is costing 000s. And now this morning he's sent me an email saying 'next year we should all go to where we had our honeymoon for our holiday - Cape Cod!' It would cost a fortune to fly all five of us to Boston and then rent a car, book the accomodation, etc never mind spending money. Does he want me to be working every spare second of the day??? He's on cloud cookoo land!!!! I told him 'no, it's going to be Borth in my dad's carvan again!'

Morning Becky

Oh dear at your DH's being in Cloud Cuckoo Land. Is there a compromise between the caravan and Cape Cod that it is worth aiming for? (Unless you really enjoy the caravan of course..)

I had a great day yesterday - we took ds to the Science Museum in Birmingham and he loved it (shame it is too expensive to go often) and then we met close friends at the local Chinese buffet restaurant at 6 and didn't leave until 8.30 - ds was tired but got so much attention that he was still at full pelt (they have daughters 10 and 13 that he adores).

My naughty friend then whisked away the bill saying happy anniversary (12 years today!!)and refused to talk about it, bless.

I was just so tired that there was a slight 'film' over the whole thing. And I had a broken night again, sigh. Actually feel a bit anxious this morning for no reason.

Oh well, Getdown tell us how your night went xx

Madmouse perhaps Devon! I'll suggest it :)

Happy anniversay to you and your DH! Sorry you had a broken night and that you're feeling a bit anxious. I often get anxious for no reason too and it's frustrating because at least when you can pin point the reason you can think about it and work out what about the reason is making you anxious and hopefully calm yourself down. What do you have planned for today? Are you at work today? Are you and your DH doing anything to celebrate 12 years? (BTW our tenth anniversary is next week - September is a good month to get married in :)).

PS Sounds like you had a lovely time yesterday. I want to take the DSs to the science museum. I've never been to the one in B'ham. It'd be a great day out as we can go to B'ham on the train easily from here.

Happy anniversary madmouse!

Another terrible night for me

Didn't get to sleep till well after 2pm. Have had to come into work today

This despite taking a mirtazapine and a sominex. I hate this so much.

I am starting to get irrational fears that there is something really really wrong with me.

We had a friend who stopped sleeping in her thirties and no one could explain it. Turned out she had cancer which had spread to her brain. She died earlier this year. I'm not saying I have cancer, but this feels so much more than just psychological.

I am so so tired but just can't physically sleep.

My MIL gave me some magnesium spray to rub on my restless legs. I tried some last night but had a bit of an allergic reaction and felt really itchy, and uncomfortable from it, so that probably didn't help.

I can't go to the GP because they just read my notes and write me off: "mental patient"

I can't call my CPN as she may get the crisis team on to me which would be awful awful awful.

I just have to carry on. But I don't know who much more of this I can take.

can i join? have been on zolpidem for nearly 2 years now and today the dr reduced them by 5mg i am very nervous about it is there anyone out there who has similar experiences?

madmouse - glad you had lovely day .

Getdown - you have done so well just getting to work. Try if you possibly can not to pile more pressure on yourself with the worries about it being something else.

what time can you leavbe work?

Getdown I wanted to reply earlier but my mum comes on Wednesdays and she's just left. You poor, poor thing. Well done for going to work though. How are you feeling now? Don't think about the CPN and crisis team for now, just focus on yourself and getting yourself back on track. I don't know why this is happening to you. But try not to give in to the irrational fears. Just get through each day for now and try to think about other things, not sleep. I know how hard that is though - I was obsessed with sleep from January - April at least and I still think about it every day. It's very, very hard not to obsess.

Better go - DS3 needing a nap and I need to do some work while he sleeps (DS2 willing).

Thinking of you xxx take care today.

Hi everyone and welcome MrsDrOwenHunt

I've just got in from work and it looks like I will be spending the rest of today packing as off to Devon tomorrow morning.

Getdown at least you managed to get in to work today. Try not to get yourself too worked up, take it one day at a time. You will get there.

I woke up again this morning at 5am and was awake for a while. I tried the tensing and relaxing muscles trick (mainly because I was bored) and I did go back to sleep, so maybe it worked.

I'm hoping that once I'm packed and in the car tomorrow I'll feel less stressed.

Will be thinking of you all whilst I'm away. Take care x

Getdown I hope you get a good rest tonight x

Hi guys, been thinking about you GetDown and really hope you are ok. I'm out all morning - back after lunch. Thursday is 'coffee morning' with my three other 'mummy' friends.

I slept fitfully but ok. Lots going through my mind.

I have a facebook friend who every morning when I log on at the moment has 'six house ago well still awake and

Just checking in to say hello.

Managed to sleep last night and feel much calmer and rational today.

I took a diazepam about 6pm last night and that just helped me to get through the evening. Then I took my mirtazapine.

Fell asleep for about an hour then woke up again, heart pounding and in a panic. Thankfully, somehow, I managed to get back to sleep.

Hope you are all ok. Glad you got enough sleep becky - enjoy your coffee morning.

I am going to a mum's group at church this morning. Some of the older ladies run a creche so the mums can meet and chat without distractions!

Thats good to hear Getdown x

Hi all

Getdown glad you slept and look at you overcoming feeling anxious and going back to sleep that's fab!! xxx

I had a sad and tired evening, some flashbacks, but not a bad night and feel ok. Dusted the blinds and cleaned the windows in the living room before leaving for counselling at 9.30 (ds picked up by taxi at 8.40) so a bit of energy

Hope we all have good days. Glad you slept too Becky xx

GetDown that's great!!!! You slept well.

thanks all!

Your poor FB friend becky - hope she is ok. At least she will have you, who totally understands what an awful experience it is.

How is your neice doing now?

GetDown my neice seems to be doing ok. She's always on facebook, she's talking about training to be a nurse so she's obviously thinking about the future a bit more now and getting over her horrible, horrible ex-boyfriend. I know she has a CPN who she sees regularly, but she's had her for a few years now. She's been on and off medication for a few years now.

Morning everyone, I had a really restless night last night. Probably a bit like madmouse's sleep when you just wake up feeling exhausted after tossing and turning and flapping about all night it seems. DH and I had almost identical dreams, which was weird.

Got a late night tonight - girlie night. And tomorrow I am babysitting so another late night. Challenge Becky!

How is everyone?

Morning all

I went out with a good friend last night, we walked 20mins to a country pub, sat there having a good natter and some drinks and suddenly realise it was last orders - so time for walk back and drive home for me - got in at 11.30 and still had to get ds's nursery bag ready and get the bin out!! Bed asap after and I took a while to fall asleep but then...that's the last I remember until the alarm clock, except from dh pushing me over once to make me go quiet as I was dreaming! Good night yay, first one in over a week that didn't end in the spare room...

Yesterday morning I had counselling and I got angry at my abuser. People around me have been waiting/hoping for that for a while now but I had to learn to value myself enough to be able to do so - for ages I just didn't feel worth it . Got promptly in a tizz over having to turn the other cheek but had some help with that from wise Christian friends (thanks Getdown as well x) and that's all ok now. Maybe that helped me sleep.

Off to a busy day at work - take care xx