Insomnia friends - I will sleep well tonight because I have told my unconscious I will- Part II

[madmouse]

Help we left it too late the old thread is full!!! Hope we all find this one!!!

Getdown look at Lelarose's thread (you've posted on it as well I think) - she's been insomniac all her pregnancy. Sure she feels awful but she's still there and still hanging in there and still going to have a baby.

So fretting about what will happen if you have some sleepless nights when you are pregnant is pointless and unnecessary!

my eyes are so sore and puffy from all the crying.

DH has gone out.. I think he is sick of the sight of me.

well I don't quite now how, but I managed to drag my sorry ass out for a run.

Feeling a bit better, knackered, but calmer.

Hope you are all ok. mittz and auntyjude thanks again for being there last night. Hope you are both coping ok today and that we all have better nights tonight

Calmer is good. You will definitely sleep tonight whatever you do. I've just seen your facebook status though - I hope you are ok.

We've been to town with my mum. Now back home and feeling lonely without DH here. I hate teatime and bedtime without him. I'm going to treat myself to a big glass of wine when everyone's in bed tonight and an episode of Dawson's Creek or something.

GetDown Well done for going for a run, hope you have a good night x

thanks both

becky does your DH get back tonight or is he staying over? Sorry if you already said my brain is a bit scrambled today.

Glass of wine and Dawson's creek sounds very cosy and lovely. I think I'm going to have a bath. I've got some posh bubble bath that SIL gave me.

PST: "I will definitely sleep tonight as I'm feeling much calmer and more relaxed"

DH back tomorrow... being home alone should have me in a state of complete anxiety (before DS3 was born I dreaded him being away and spent the whole time anxious). Somehow, though, I feel really calm and happy. I think I've learnt a lot about coping with anxiety and it has helped me.

I love your PST! Yes you will definitely sleep tonight xxx

GetDown how are you today?

I had a bad-ish night for the following reasons:
DH away so I was anxious by the time I went to bed despite nice glass of red wine with X Factor.
DS3 has learnt how to sit up in his cot, but he can't lie down again.
I had 'justified ancients of moo moo' song from the 1990s going around and around my head and it was driving me totally and utterly bonkers.
I was too hot.

At 11.45 I put on Paul McKenna and he was working a treat when just near the end DS3 pipes up again. However, shortly after that I must have fallen asleep and slept fitfully until 6.30am so not bad considering. I feel a bit tired and anxious but not too bad.

How is everyone else today?

Getdown been thinking of you - how are things?

Becky it sounds like you coped really well with a disturbed night. DS3 will soon get the hang of it. I remember us moving ds into a big bed early as he kept jamming himself in a corner of the cot at 3am and then howling for us

Not a great night here - dh has come back from solitary retreat in a very dark and silent place having had the most fab sleep and being all rested and I've been snoring due to throat ache ad talking/moaning in my bad dreams. So I'm worried that I'm taking away his progress . So when I woke at 2am I moved to the spare room. Slept fitfully, dreamt awfully. I'm shattered. Singing in church this morning - best have a hot shower...

Madmouse poor you:( it sounds like you really didn't get much rest at all. Hope your throat lets you sing this morning.

Becky does your youngest DS wake very early too?

My night could've been better. I seem to be having very light restless sleep at the moment. DH woke me up about three I think, shuffling about. The Tooth Fairy had forgotten to visit my eldest DD. It was good that DH remembered but unfortunately I then decided I needed the loo and then couldn't get back to sleep for ages.

I finally woke up about 6ish feeling far too hot so decided to go out for a run. Feeling better now but I am missing the nice deep uninterrupted sleep I used to get on the higher dose of Dosulepin.

GetDown how are you this morning? Hope you had a better night.

Orangeflutie I'm sooo lucky that all three of my DSs are not early rises. How about your DDs? How old are your DDs? DS1 and DS2 would sleep until 8.30-9am if I left them and DS3 usually wakes between 7-7.30am which for a ten month old I think is really good! I always wake up before they all do.

It sounds like you are doing really well though coming off the dosulepin. I don't know much about that AD but another, now graduate, from this thread was prescribed that for insomnia.

GetDown hope you are ok, sweetie. I'm off to have a bath now DS3 is having his nap and then do some painting (I'm painting a picture of the DSs by the seaside).

Madmouse hope your day goes well despite tiredness xx

sorry to hear there were some disturbed nights. Hopefully everyone will have got enough even if not perfect. That's one thing I am coming to terms with - even a broken night can be perfectly fine in terms of managing the next day.

madmouse hope it goes well at church this morning, said a little prayer for you in the bath last night that your throat would hold out and you would be free to worship in "spirit and truth" this morning.

orange sorry you only had light sleep and were woken up. Hopefully you got enough sleep in the end. Remember that a bad night builds up a "sleep debt" which evenutally our bodies take back another night to recover the debt. I do believe it balances out in the end.

I slept in the spare room last night. I had a bath in the evening and was very very sleepy. I stupidly took a zopiclone though which was very silly as I probably would have slept fine naturally as I was so tired. Just the thought, the even slightest possibility of not sleeping though, terrified me and I just thought " I don't care, I'm taking a zopiclone". I regretted it almost instantly.

Nevertheless I went to bed and listened to Paul McKenna on my ipod and must have drifted off about 11pm in the end. I must have looked such a sight, had my eye patch on and ear plugs in! (it gets really light in our spare room because of street lights and rubbish thin blinds).

Woke up at about 6:30 (which was a bit annoyed about as surely with the zopiclone I shouldn't have woken that early?) but then dozed a bit for another hour.

So I feel ok today. But a bit depressed about taking the zopiclone

GetDown don't regret. It's past now. Start a fresh today. That's what DH has said to me in the past when I've regretted taking zopiclone! I know how you feel though. But it's just one night and one tablet. In the grand scheme of things, it's not a biggie.

Becky My DDs are 10,8 and 6 now. My eldest used to wake about 6.00 or earlier when she was a baby and even now despite going to bed at 9 is usually awake by 7.00am. The other two share a room and are usually up by about 7 too. However my youngest sometimes lies in, I think she has learnt from a baby to sleep through anything!
You're lucky that your DSs wake up later. I think I'm probably going to have to wait until mine are teenagers and then I'll be moaning that they won't get up!:)

I didn't know you were a painter. I used to love painting but haven't done any for years. I really need to get back into it as I know I would enjoy it.

GetDown I agree with Becky don't regret, and don't beat yourself up for taking a Zopiclone. Does promethazine work for you at all? I find it takes longer to work but I don't feel so groggy the next day.

Hope you both have a good day. It's taken me ages to post this because my last two attempts were wiped by my computer - so hoping this works.

Yes it's worked!

Orangeflutie I paint when I get the chance :) Not easy with three boys to look after! But I find it really relaxing.

becky I meant to say before, your paintings and drawings are excellent you have a real talent.

I really enjoy drawing too but am sooooo slow at it, so never really have the time.

DH bought me a course of drawing lessons for my birthday this year which was lovely as it was a good solid few hours each week when I could really focus on it.

Good morning! I hope everyone slept ok.

GetDown thanks and what a lovely, lovely present from your DH! A bit like my glass blowing present from my DH - a chance to do something creative.

I slept well. I was very tired. I don't even remember lying in bed thinking 'right, time to sleep now'. My oldest, bestest friend from school (we met when we were about five) used to have this amazing ability to fall asleep literally as soon as her head hit the pillow. It used to annoy me so much. I spent a lot of my teenage years sleeping over at her house and we'd go to bed and lie in the dark and I'd be in mid sentence and she'd be snoring already. Can you imagine being that relaxed you can just switch off like that? I envied her this talent!

I just don't want to talk about sleep today. I'm just tired. off to work. Sodding throatache still here too.

Madmouse you don't have to talk about sleep. Sorry your throat is still bad :( - hope you're ok xxxx

Glad you had a good night becky and sorry about your throat mamouse

I am in a bit of a state.

Had one of my worst nights ever (again). Awake literally ALL night. Think I had an hour of very light sleep between 6am and 7am. That was it.

I hate this so much

I was so tired as well. What is wrong with me?

I just don't know what to do. Is it withdrawal from the mirtazapine? If so, why didn't it happen straight away? Or is it just anxiety?

If I go back on the mirtazapine, it will feel like such a defeat, I am so depressed by the thought.

But should I ride it out? Try and get some more diazepam? Hope it will sort itself out?

I don't know what to do.

I am off sick - should be at work today. Tried calling but there is no answer. My boss will prob be cross with me that there is noone there to answer the phones

Just tried calling my CPN but no answer there either.

I have texted 3 of my best friends with the same message but none have replied

Feel so so desperate

GetDown you poor, poor thing. Oh I wish I lived close by I'd be over to your house like a shot.

I don't know why you are struggling at the moment. I don't know whether it is just anxiety or withdrawal. I really don't know :( Did you just feel awake? Were you anxious - as anxious as Friday night? I don't know why this is happening to you but it is so, so, so unfair. I wish I could take it away.

thanks. I am crying so much. I feel so low and so very sick

Dog needs to go for a walk but can't even get dressed I feel so awful.

My CPN is going to call me back.