Insomnia friends - I will sleep well tonight because I have told my unconscious I will- Part II

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Help we left it too late the old thread is full!!! Hope we all find this one!!!

How is your DP today arcadia? Hope he is on the mend. It is so hard when they are ill, I hate it.

Glad to hear you have been able to have some lovely afternoon snoozes! I wish I could! Used to be able to before DD, but now I find it impossible.

Sounds like you are making progress with DM, even though she has her failings.

I have been a bit all over the place since Cornwall. Wrote a really long letter to my mum yesterday (over 3,500 words!!) and felt a lot better after that. She has acknowledged the letter and I do feel this is progress, in our family no one ever talks about emotions, ever.

Sleep has been a bit erratic, but seem to be able to cope ok during the day which is a relief.

DD just had her first afternoon at pre-school!! I was a bit nervous for her, but she absolutely LOVED IT!! Ran in happy as larry, not even looking back. And when I went to pick her up she was dancing around and smiling! Hurrah! It is such a relief.

Typinmg one handed. Yeah DD! Yeah also letter to your mum - progress. Want to write more too slow one hand!

Boo! Morning all!

Hi becky how are you?

I'm feeling a bit rough today. A weird night where I know I slept, but have memories of seeing the clock a number of times and not being happy at what time it was!!

DD has her second day of pre school this afternoon, so another two hours to myself.

I spent my first two hours freedom yesterday cleaning the house from top to bottom! Felt like I'd done a workout by the time 3o'clock came around!

Needless to say DD resumed the normal state of chaos within an hour or so of her coming home.

Hi GetDown I'm fine. A lot of small-scale stresses but I'm coping ok (said touching big wooden table).

I went to a phonics course this morning and DS3 was in a creche for 2 hours. I think I have traumatised him. He won't let me put him down, at least he hasn't since we got back. Am I a bad mummy? Problem is, I couldn't say to him 'you're here for a play, and I'll be back in two hours' so I just kind of snuck out. I wonder now if that was the wrong thing to do.

Cleaning the house is the best workout. I need to do it too soon.

Boo everyone!

hi becky just about to dash out... how are you?

I had a good night last night, the first good one in over a week!

How about everyone else?

Hi all I'm still here - sleep is a mess - sometimes I sleep sometimes I don't. I'm tired and struggling with new memories and old feelings. Had a tough counselling session but did something really brave - I read her my history of what he did to me. Talking out loud about it is very very difficult. She listened and validated me but I was shaking like jelly and it brought up very difficult emotions.

Managed to go to the park with ds and play on the swings and stuff. He is so delightful he made me laugh.

I see we are all up and down but not too bad - I guess that's not bad going

Hi everyone I'm sleeping at the moment although have had some unsettling dreams. I also woke up feeling quite panicky the day before yesterday, but that might be due to the thought of getting through a very hectic week.

I felt better yesterday and had a very good morning today as I've just started an art course. I was quite nervous initially, as haven't drawn or painted anything properly for about ten years. However halfway through it all started to flow and now feel really excited about it all and pleased I went. Am just getting used to the idea of 3 hours of art on a Thursday morning. It all feels very self indulgent, but I think it's just what I need as I know if I was at home I wouldn't draw or paint I would see something that needs doing round the house instead!

I'm off out again in a bit as have to take my middle dd to gymnastics. At the moment I feel like a taxi service. This week is just particularly manic.

Hope you all have a good night x

Orangeflutie at three hours of art on a Thursday. Want! Want! Want!

It was fun Becky I did think of you:)

Am finally home after spending most of this evening at another secondary school open evening. I think I need a large glass of wine and a long sit down.

Goodnight x

Hi everyone, my sleep has been really good recently despite various stresses (workmen, worries about bug at school still, various issues going on at DS1's school - where DH was a governor until he resigned yseterday, a loooong story - lots of work to do, painting a friend's little girl, etc) :) so I'm in that 'I don't want to jinx it' position again. I feel happy, relaxed, concerned about these various things but able to deal with them in the day time (rather than letting them affect my sleep).

I've got the week's holiday in two weeks though - me and four other mum friends plus 11 children (no DHs). Perhaps I'll be ok, who knows? Thinking about it makes me shudder! It's supposed to be 'fun' but no DHs!!! Eleven children between 9 years old and 11 months (DS3). Let's be honest here, it'll be chaos!

PS That is painting a picture of a friend's little girl, not actually painting her, that would be a bit strange!

Hi becky really glad you've been sleeping so well. And it's brilliant you've been coping despite all those stressors.

Try not to worry about the holiday. Even tho there will be no DHs there will be 4 mummys, and 4 mummys is 4x the strength and coping power of 1 mummy!!

Go with the attitude of "hey it will be chaos but it will be fun and there will be lots of giggles".

I've been sleeping ok but keep having those nights where you kind of feel you have been thrashing around. Also waking up really instantly and not able to doze at all which is usually a sign I am worrying about something.

DH and I have started TTC - exciting but also scary. Unfortunately the disturbed nights are scuppering my charts and it's very hard to interpret them at the moment Ah well, just have to be patient!!

also... forgot to add... DH has an interview today in London

Perhaps that's been playing on my mind too.

There's lots of positives about it if he got offered the job, but would probably mean more travelling away from home than he has to do now.

Hellloooo... am feeling lonely over here!

How are we all?

Had a another good night - yay! Have been using Paul M again for the past few nights.

I think (hopefully) I am in the 2 week wait now, so no alcohol or sleeping tablets for me! It is strangely liberating to know that I CAN'T take anything for sleep.

DH got on well at the interview, waiting to hear what they say.

However, the travelling regime sounds awful He would basically be away 1 week out of every 3 . I don't think I could cope with that, and he says he wouldn't like it either.... so we'll just see what they say but I think even if they offer it, it will be a "no" from us...

GetDown that sounds good about your DH's interview - even if he doesn't take it in the end it's a good confidence boost at least if he gets the offer.

TTCing - exciting!!!! Yeah! I guess you'll be symptom spotting now :)

I slept well again - going out tonight for the first time ever since we moved here - ie going into town to an establishment of dancing. I'm 38 - too old for that lark!

"going into town to an establishment of dancing"

don't you mean

"going daaan taaan clubbin innit"

you need to get with the lingo becky

Hope you have fun.

I hate clubbing. Always have done.

Although I suspect now I could view it more with humour rather than intimidation, so perhaps it wouldn't be so bad now I am a bit older!!!

I'm not a great fan of clubbing but I love dancing - I do like to watch everyone else though: all the women in their skimpy geer and the men sharking around them! I don't even know what to wear - what do people wear these days?

I have no idea what people wear these days!!

The last time I went was probably 10 years ago

Don't think you can go wrong with black skirt / trousers, and sparkly top....

Sparkly top!!! He he he! I don't have anything like that. I have black trousers though. When I used to go 'clubbing' I was all studenty and grungy so jeans, DMs, and I don't even remember what I wore on top. Or I'd wear a long skirt and hippy shirt!

Oh.

Hi all

Glad to hear we're mostly doing ok sleep-wise. Getdown I'm not suprised that you feel this way about not being able to take anything - that would be something I would do.

We are hoping to conceive rather than trying too hard and I know I will have to stop St Johnswort as soon as I have reason to believe I'm pregnant and I do find that daunting.

Once I'm asleep sleep is not so bad at the moment - not so many bad dreams anymore.

Last night a friend was here who is being subjected to very unfair disciplinary procedures at work in an attempt to get rid of him (after 25 years )- we spent 5 hours going through the nearly 300 pages of 'evidence' against him finding out what is what and refuting their case. He left at 1, I wa asleep by 2 but got to sleep until 9 with a short break at 7. So that is ok - just feel dazed from sleeping so deeply.

Bad night guys - hardly any sleep. I went out last night dancing and had a lovely, lovely time but drank too much (stupid me) and head buzzed all night! Ah well. It happens about once every two years (that I drink too much!).

Hope everyone else is well.

DH has been lovely to me today :)