Hi Skoda, welcome and sorry to hear about the state you are currently in! I guess we all have been there. Yes, we are the brave ones here who have decided to sod the common understanding that people need to diet. We believe you do not need a copying strategy to stay on diet or stop yourself from eating what you want. Because it appears diet makes people fat, and in addition, anxious about and around food.
We are trying to get rid of that fear and general nervous feeling about food and eating. My bible is overcomigovereating.com and the books recommended there, others have other crutches. But we all think excess weight is a symptom, disease is troubled relations with food. So we try to normalise it instead. And those who have been at it longer can testify that we have not really gained weight while normalising. Of course, mostly we have not lost or no tlost much neither, but we did not lose long term neither. yo-yo dieters actually gain weight over long period of timel so staying stable and enjoying better relations with food seems preferable.
To get out of the deepest hole you just decide and reaffirm all the time, that you can eat all you want and whenever you want and really not cheat on yourself. This way your body slowly, over months, starts to believe you and there is no point anymore in stuffing itself. Why eat until you are sick if you can eat the rest tomorrow or day after, since diet will not start tomorrow/next week/ever? Just tey to pay attention how you feel when stuffing yourself mindfully, try also to eat good things and drink water or tea, this way putting accent on getting good food in, not leaving bad stuff out. Never eat nothing you genuinely do not enjoy, unless you have got to the stage that normal food never gives you any enjoyment. In that case I would say make yourself eat these veg and fruit and meat and fish and salad, until you regain the ability to like it. Do not restrict at the same time these cookies etc.,just eat good food yourself. I find it is important to cook from stuff which comes home from shop in the format my granny would have recognised, i.e. no preprepared stuff. It never is exactly what you like, so you get a better mach cooking yourself. Brhw, I find that also helps to make your own cakes, because nor only do they taste better, but the ready made stuff can be too easily replaced, home made thing needs to be repeated by tourself and often to do not feel like you need it badly enough to do so.
Others have differetn copying tips, i.e. food logs etc., but everyone needs to chose and see themselves, which act of kindness towards oneself gives the best result. Eat away, but observe how you feel, give up on diets forever snd make yourself believe it. The binge stops, it comes back again, it never gives totally away, but it gets weaker over time. And people take very different time to get to better place, I think it took me alltogether about one month to first feel I crave a cherry tomato instead a piece of cake, about a year until I stopped mentally calori counting and about 3-4 years until I suddenly discovered binges are replaced with some overeating and grazying days, not real binges anymore. Even if i had to start restricting certain stuff, I immidiately had a pre-diet binge, and i just accepted it is because I need to restrict, sat it out for maybe two weeks and then one morning just woke up able to do it. I still eat all the otherthings unrestrictedly and make sure I do, checking for reappearing wishes to diet somehow. Because of course these thoughts reappear as do the overeating episodes, it is just important not to try to change yourself, but support yourself. And keep going, three meals a day, or more, if you are a grazer, and never restrict to compensate for that binge of yesterday.