I'm such an infrequent poster to the thread. I do read every couple of days but I'm sooo worried about forgetting to NC before I post, and therefore outing myself, that I'm afraid to post. It's awful that the shame we feel around this ED is so strong.
I wanted to post a quick update, and say hello to tea and gum.
I managed to see the ED counsellor earlier than expected as she had a cancellation.
I'm pleased that she works very closely with the Fairburn book, so I'm doing my food diaries (yes, I'm completing them!), weighing once a week and doing 3 meals and 2 snacks, following his steps.
Her ideas about how to eat are interesting, as she believes in trying to eat most of the time in a way that supports recovery.
What this means in practice is eating regularly, Fairburn's 3 + 2, but also eating much less processed food. I was adamant that "apart from my binge foods" I hardly ate any processed foods and that my eating at mealtimes was healthy. my monitoring sheet proved that not to be the case. So I'm working on minimising processed food, but not eliminating it completely as restricting that much would likely lead to a binge. However, we'll keep a close eye on my monitoring sheets, and if this WOE is making me binge more, we'll change it.
We talked a lot about eating a lower reward diet, making sure there was protein in every meal, and taking vitamins/supplements for at least 3 months to support my body in recovery.
There's a lot to take in, and I'm working through it slowly. I talked with her about my need for structure, while at the same time not having lots of strict rules.
My homework assignment 
this week is to find a type of chocolate that I like, that contains more cocoa than sugar, one which will be safer for me to eat. Haven't found it yet!
I don't like dark chocolate at all, and even in the better quality chocolate manufacturers, I've yet to find a milk chocolate with higher cocoa content. Thought I'd found one in Willie's Cacao Milk Rio Caribe, but it turns out that I'd misread the label! And that stuff is pricey.
For those of you who are also doing Fairburn, or a version of, can you tell me what you did about eating things like puddings, or sweets and chocolate, at first? Did you just not eat them at all initially, and then later follow his guidance in his Avoiding Dieting chapter to reintroduce them?
Finally, bread is a major trigger for me, as shown by my monitoring sheets. Some bread I just go back and eat more and more of it, but other types of bread trigger me to binge on other foods, not bread. Anyone else found that bread is a problem?
Apologies for super lengthy post!