Binge Eating Disorder Support

[FightingBed2014]

This is our second thread, helping each other through the ups and downs we experience with binge eating. The original thread can be found here
www.mumsnet.com/Talk/new_blog_posts/2029166-Eating-Disorder-Recovery

This is open to anyone, no mater how good or bad things are for you. We are all here for support and help to recover from our disordered eating. Talking about how we feel has been the first step to recovery for us. There is hope and life without it.

I blog about my recovery as I go through each new experience, if you want to have a read it's here

ellechapmanblog.wordpress.com

Howto that dounds like a really successful day. It must be a nice feeling to know you have made those changes.x

Tomorrow I have a personal training session. I have a chance to win an 9 week training programme worth quite a lot! I really really want it as I need some inspiration in the gym
The catch is you have to do two training sessions with him so he can assess how (stubborn) determined you are
My friend just text me saying "if it's on stubbornness alone, he won't need any other applicants"
Still nervous though...

Go for it! I like you friends comment.x

Ok I'm walking like Bambi
Circuits - weighted squats x 15, leg press x 15 (70kg), step ups x 20, kettle bell swings x 20, squat with ball x 20, 60 sec sprint. Did that 3 times. Then boxing, then intervals on rower
Need to lie down

It sounds pretty impressive and exhausting! you feeling more yourself now then?x

I realised how much I've missed training. Pretty ashamed at how unfit I am though

Hi there

Nice to read your updates. How I empathise with the idea of wasted good times due to ED. When I was younger I used to get overwelmed and stay in due to my size etc. So sad and a waste for us all.

Sleep thanks for the link, more good stuff.

Good glad you enjoyed the pt session. Did you "win" a place?

Had a difficult week here. Feeling overwelmly like I am not good enough at anything, which lead to binging.

Italian my DS is 6. The issue has been addressed, need to see if the behaviour of the other child improves. At least DS knows it won't be tolerated.

However, I just don't feel like I handled it well enough. He mentioned it a while back and I didn't address it then. Although of course DH could have decided to address it. Plus I went directly to the parent and not his key worker, so when the other parent raised it the key worker didn't know anything about it. Arrhhh.

Spoke to my DH about my lack of self-forgiveness at the w/end. I am still berating myself for losing a train ticket nearly 2 months ago!

Anyway, I am back to trying abstinence from overeating. At the mo I feel like I will never be 'cured' enough to not reach for food, so I am going to try to break the habit. Feel a bit better as in control. Going to try to get to swimming tomorrow am.

Also trying to get enough sleep. It really has an impact on me.

On the positive side work has massively slowed down, so I am hoping for a bit of downtime. Had some lovely feedback from a couple of clients.

I have no concrete worked booked in beyond mid Dec but I am feeling ok about that as I need a break.

Wishing you all a good Wednesday.

I have one more trial session- but I'm positive have to wait to find out

Sounds hopeful good.

How has everyone's week been?

MrsMargoLeadbetter I'm struggling a bit with having diabetes. i went to an information day this week and I felt really sad that so many foods could affect diabetes. I also know I have said to people it is reversible but it seems not, just controllable. I feel sad but I also feel it is not my fault. 60% of population are overweight or obese but only 6% have diabetes! I had been feeling it was all my fault but there is sometimes a genetic component and my dear late father had it and also my auntie, my mum's sister, who is rake thin has it.

Yesterday's training
20 of each - pull ups TRX, deadlifts, medicine ball throw, clean and press, press ups, tyre flip - repeat whole circuit
500m rower
Boxing 30sec on, 20 off, x 5
Abs - 20 each crunch, raised leg crunch, leg raises, plank, ab twist with medicine ball

He's messaged me saying "you are going to do awesome, I can tell" so fingers crossed!

Hi Italian, just a quick one I have a load of family staying, but saw this article and thought of you.

Italian sorry to hear you are struggling.

I guess you need to get to a place where you "just" accept and deal with it? I admire you going to an info day. Many others would bury their head in the sand.

How is OA going?

And well done Good. What do you have to 'do' in return for the free sessions?

Thanks Sleep I wonder why diabetes and sleep apnoea seem to be linked!

Thanks Margot I am not a bury my head in the sand kind of person, but I am pretty obsessive! I wish I could work out how not to be!

I had OCD as a teenager and young 20 something!

I find myself staying up late, it's often 2.00 or 3.00 or even 4.00 am before I go to bed. I feel this is part of my compulsiveness! I also notice I get fixated on things! I can only eat limited 'dessert type' things since I was diagnosed with diabetes, one of the things is sugar free jelly. In the last few weeks I have bought about 30 sugar free jellies in pots, but only eaten about 10 so there are about 20 sugar free jellies in pots in my cupboard! This feels obsessive! How do I stop?

Any tips from anyone who understands compulsiveness or obsessiveness, please?

I had to do two trial sessions so he could basically assess how bad I want to win the prize
Now it's just a waiting game really. Have booked in for a few more because I really enjoyed it and he has a christmas offer on

Italian I had noticed some of your posts at crazy late times of night, been meaning to ask about it . Do not underestimate the effect of sleep on hormones and health, just google research on shift workers and health to appreciate the link. We are built to operate to a certain natural rhythm, sleeping when it is dark, feeling most wide awake and energetic from morning until around 2pm and gradually slowing down until it is time to sleep. Our metabolism follows this pattern and it's why we should eat most at breakfast/lunch, lightly in the evening and get sufficient sleep. Cortisol levels follow this pattern and when we use sugar/caffeine and sleep badly (perhaps because of sleep apnea) or not enough it can have a big impact.

Have you considered CBT in relation to the obsessive behaviour Italian? I can make suggestions here but it's not really my area of expertise and won't go 'deep' enough to help significantly I think. What I would say is that trying to figure out what and how you try to control things in general in your life may give you some insight? Are there areas where you feel out of control or where you know you keep tight control for example?

Thanks Sleep. I don't have sleep apnoea, I just don't like going to bed. I will think about what you asked. I am seeing a counsellor so am asking her about these things too, and yes, CBT sounds a good idea. I had it before for anxiety 'attacks' and it worked very well.

Well sounds good good! I do like a coached session, you just work harder than alone....

Italian I struggle with going to bed too. Are you up 'thinking'? Like sleep says it makes such a difference to my life - enough sleep or not enough sleep. I reach for the sugar....

Re obsessive thoughts. Would writing them down help? When I can be bothered I know it helps me. It helps the rational bit of me overide the anxious/obsessed bit.

Today I said the words "I have a eating disorder" to my Doctor. She has refered me to an ED clinic. We do have private med with DH's work but as I have had it for 20 years I think they'd class it as pre the cover!

A big to fighting and you all. This thread has given me the strength to do that. Before the thread I denied I even had an ED. So a big thank you.

Hope your start to the week has gone well.

Well sounds good good! I do like a coached session, you just work harder than alone....

Italian I struggle with going to bed too. Are you up 'thinking'? Like sleep says it makes such a difference to my life - enough sleep or not enough sleep. I reach for the sugar....

Re obsessive thoughts. Would writing them down help? When I can be bothered I know it helps me. It helps the rational bit of me overide the anxious/obsessed bit.

Today I said the words "I have a eating disorder" to my Doctor. She has refered me to an ED clinic. We do have private med with DH's work but as I have had it for 20 years I think they'd class it as pre the cover!

A big to fighting and you all. This thread has given me the strength to do that. Before the thread I denied I even had an ED. So a big thank you.

Hope your start to the week has gone well.

Well sounds good good! I do like a coached session, you just work harder than alone....

Italian I struggle with going to bed too. Are you up 'thinking'? Like sleep says it makes such a difference to my life - enough sleep or not enough sleep. I reach for the sugar....

Re obsessive thoughts. Would writing them down help? When I can be bothered I know it helps me. It helps the rational bit of me overide the anxious/obsessed bit.

Today I said the words "I have a eating disorder" to my Doctor. She has refered me to an ED clinic. We do have private med with DH's work but as I have had it for 20 years I think they'd class it as pre the cover!

A big to fighting and you all. This thread has given me the strength to do that. Before the thread I denied I even had an ED. So a big thank you.

Hope your start to the week has gone well.

Sorry for 3 posts! Trying to send before I go underground on the tube!

Well done Margot. Could you argue' that although you had it for 20 years it was only recently disguised. I have not been officially diagnosed but I know it when I see it, I have only know for about three and a half years.

All the best.

MrsMargo , well done for seeking help. I have another (!) article for you to ponder on perfectionism. It is in the context of food/diet/body but I think it applies equally to other areas of life

Margo well done with reaching out. Saying those words must have been hard but has it brought any relief for you?

Italian I don't like going to be either (pre new meds). For me I think I narrowed to down to putting off facing the next day. I actually love my sleep but it brings the next load of challenges that bit quicker. Do you ever feel like that?

On medication I have been loving going to bed earlier because I feel better and sleep properly. Its up and down this week though. Today I had a work related message that set off my anxiety. I had to nap and its knocked me a bit. I haven't even done anything wrong but I don't feel able to tackle anything (hence finally finding time to sit and write).

I know things are going a million miles an hour because its December but I hope you all feel able to use progress you've made should you have bad days. Its can be a stress inducing time as well as a great one but tge thread can be here to help you through anything. Thinking of you all.x