Binge Eating Disorder Support

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This is our second thread, helping each other through the ups and downs we experience with binge eating. The original thread can be found here
www.mumsnet.com/Talk/new_blog_posts/2029166-Eating-Disorder-Recovery

This is open to anyone, no mater how good or bad things are for you. We are all here for support and help to recover from our disordered eating. Talking about how we feel has been the first step to recovery for us. There is hope and life without it.

I blog about my recovery as I go through each new experience, if you want to have a read it's here

ellechapmanblog.wordpress.com

MrsMargoLeadbetter thinking of you.

Some sad news, I am diabetic, it is official. I feel very sad and angry with myself but realise I have a disease! It is not my fault. I am now getting the help I need and it is all changing so I can reverse this. And I am so motivated to do that.

I am very thankful I found OA and because of going to the meeting reconnected with my counsellor. Both these things are so helpful. I almost feel this diagnosis, terrifying as it is, is a third thing that will help me to change my eating forever and live the rest of my life not at the mercy of this OCD induced overeating!

This thread is also providing me with valuable support.

Oh Italian I hope you are ok
Yes you are right about treatment

Food list today for Sleep (don't read unless you are sat down
Toast x 3 with peanut butter
Greek yoghurt wih berries
Chocolate cake
Feta, quinoa, cucumber, tomatoes
Handful almonds
Banana
Protein shake with oats

Sorry to hear that Italian. Hope you feel ok about it. I think it is possible to manage/reverse the problems with action.

Glad your bloods were ok good but sorry you have to go through it again next month. How was the ECG?

Hope you are ok fighting after the small blip.

ECG all good - back to the gym then!!!
Bloods are showing thyroid out, TSH at 6 point something

I'm ok, just need having some quiet time. Will be back soon, when feeling more myself.x

Thanks good and Margot. Feeling OK but did miss the choice of whether to have a biscuit or not when we had guests today!

Add a piece of my colleagues carrot cake and a piece of rye bread to that list
I think I might kill Sleep off with this news. I have PMT and all the HUNGER

Go with it goodas, your body is recovering from the illness (and a few days of very little food) and pmt too. Enjoy. At the risk of sounding like your mum, take it easy if you do go back to the gym. Have you finished a/b's, cough gone Don't rush it and get ill again!

Italian sorry to hear your news, hopefully though it will be one more incentive to take proper care of yourself, as you say.

Antibiotics finished, cough is still there a little but it's the one I had for months before the pneumonia!
I got a free Abel and Cole box today thanks to someone on here
I have leeks - thinking leek lasagne, there's also potatoes (scary!) so i might make corned beef hash as onions and carrots in there too

Thanks sleep. I definitely need to get my mindfulness up! Any ideas for good sites. I'm a Christian so prefer to stay away from the Buddhist type stuff, no offence, and I find mindfulness sometimes related to the Buddhist way of thinking.

Also, sorry to say i fell off the wagon tonight. Just one food type and one meal but still feel upset. All the old classics, finishing up my son's food, finishing up my daughter's food and having seconds too! It was savoury and was a main meal so not toally 'wasted' food but too much, more than I needed probably. Just feel cross I could not stop!

Sorry, I meant please of course sleep and I meant ...and I find mindfulness sometimes related to the Buddhist way of thinking, which I do not think it necessarily has to.

Italian a non-Buddhist mindfulness resource is the book 'mindfulness' by Mark Williams and Danny Penman. Found it very helpful.

Food for the day
Breakfast - seeded toast, bacon, two eggs
Lunch - um, white choc cookie and protein shake
Tea - spinach cannelloni, kit Kat, banana, Apple juice

The veg box arrival excited me, so I'm doing cooking on Tuesday. Plans to make hairy bikers leek lasagne, nigel slater mushroom soup and mums corned beef hash. Also have ingredients to make courgette carbonara. I've signed up for an Abel and Cole juicing box because it's not expensive, I can get it every other week and I adore fresh juice - I drink things I won't eat

Hi Italian I would recommend the same book as Violet and the Headspace app is also supposed to be very good, both non-religious. Don't beat yourself up about finishing the leftovers, what do you think was going on?

Goodas glad you are enjoying the cooking and eating . Is this the first time you have had your thyroid checked?

No, it's been tested before and been ok. I just hope they won't go "oh well it's only slightly out so no treatment" because it is out of range, and every female in my family has a thyroid problem
Just had bacon, eggs, seeded bread. Tea will be a ready meal lasagne (I'm on nights and not been able to cook yet). Taking oatcakes, Hummous, ham for a snack. Oh I have an over ripe avocado so might take that too
I bought a lot of containers so I can batch cook on Tuesday and freeze
Manager at work last night asked if I was ok, I said yeah I'm fine, why? And her reply "I've never seen you eat at your desk before"
I've worked there 8 years

Hi all. I hope everyone is OK.

Today was better. I ate a nice normal breakfast and lunch, three lots of fruit and a normal dinner. A bit of snacking tonight but I knew I was getting full and stopped and another bit of fruit. When you fall off the wagon it is scary, you wonder if all the control you felt before was an illusion, but I knew tonight it was not. I can get the control back. The more you are able to exercise that control the easier it becomes, IMHO.

Feeling so much better tonight. Thanks.

Is that 'Mindfulness: Finding Peace in a Frantic World'?

Sleep you said Don't beat yourself up about finishing the leftovers, what do you think was going on? I think it was three things:
Hunger
Habit
Compulsion
I really think it was in that order too, as I was pretty hungry and although I had a few 'portions' they were all relatively small and it was one of those all in one meals so quite hard to see exactly how much you have got (if that makes sense).

I spoke to someone today about my eating disorder and she was talking about portion size etc. But I find when there is a disordered eating problem portion size can be something we understand but simply can't stick to it. It's got to be (for me) something that works in my head as well as my tummy.

I have found, now I am not eating any added sugary foods that I am genuinely more hungry! Or am I just thinking I am more hungry, sleep!?

Yes that's the one Italian. I find portion size really tricky. If I give myself small portions I sometimes use that to justify snacks later on....

Food plan for today:

Muesli & fruit / half a Danish
Sandwich, jelly
Roast and trimmings (1 helping)
Dessert
1 sweets / graze box if needed.

Today's food plan (off to work)
Seeded bread, bacon, two eggs
Rice milk/oats blended
Avocado, hummus, ham, feta, oatcakes
Mini mince pie
Banana

Just saw this, it's a poem by michellek and it made me think of this thread
"Recovery? is not simply the apologies?to yourself,?but also the? decision to give? forgiveness.?Hatred of the self? is exhausting.?It is? time ?for you to rest.”

good yes, hating yourself is exhausting and very unproductive.

Hi everyone, hope you're all doing ok. I'm catching up with all the messages. This last week has been a tough one. I'm coming through the other side now. Ironically eating hasn't been at the fore front of my mind. I did manage a positive and do the shopping this weekend, just essentials and food we actually needed. No extras that were bought on impulse. Goodas I really like the poem.x

I'm good
Not much food today as shooting most of tonight
Brunch - starbucks brie/cranberry panini, eggnog
Early tea of oatcakes and hummus

good I am fascinated by all the 'shooting', what are you shooting?

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