Well, I had my scan today. And I will say now that, if you're a sonographer, beginning the scan with 'ooh, I've no idea what that is! Look at that big dark mass!' is .... not helpful. 
It was bloody huge, and she asked me what it was again before looking at my left ovary and fannying about telling me how it looked. Then she decided it was the cyst. But huge, so huge she couldn't get it on the screen. Which she kept telling me, while saying 'I can't think what else it would be'. So, obviously, I am thinking what else it could be and getting stupidly upset. Which is daft.
She left us in the room to go consult a doctor, came back, and said yes it was the cyst, and we couldn't go ahead with the IUI cycle this month as I need to have it sorted on the NHS. But, suddenly, she'd now decided to come over reassuring and tell me lots of women have cysts, and it's just a bit big. Apparently, it was unlikely it'd have gone, but 'we thought we'd wait until now on the off-chance'.
I know I am probably a nightmare patient as I stress too much, but I feel really frustrated and angry that the doctor clearly knew that I'd likely need the NHS operation, knew that we were in a hurry, and didn't bother to suggest I got on the NHS waiting list. I asked about this and they didn't really have anything to say, so I did get the impression they'd fucked up a bit. And I'm also getting stupidly worried it's something much more serious. Though when I tried to ask she repeated the whole 'oh, cysts are common ...' thing, as if she'd not put the idea in my head in the first place.
Oh, and after all of that my insides really fucking hurt. So I've just gone round the supermarket after feeling like curling up in bed. Meh.
Sorry for the whinge. I know it's hopefully tiny in the scheme of things and I'll get back on track eventually, but I'm just feeling frightened atm.