Happy Sunday everyone!
So I think I have 99% decided to change clinic. Had a really useful counselling session at my current clinic on Friday which helped me decide that I don't want to have a laparoscopy just so I can find out if IUI is an option. Given the cost of the laparoscopy (roughly 3.5 k), it makes MUCH more sense to do an IVF cycle, where it wouldn't matter if I do have adhesions. This is what I have been feeling for a while now, but also a lot of frustration that my consultant doesn't seem to understand my reasoning and is pushing me tonwards doing iui first. Which if I don't have the laparoscopy, could be a total waste of time/money. The counsellor helped me feel like it's OK to want to take control over my treatment - my body, my money, my decision. She also said different consultants at the same clinic probably wouldn't have pushed me down the laparoscopy/iui route anyway!
This, combined with the fact that my clinic is 'discontinuing provision' from November has been really stressing me out! I have been told there will be a 'seamless transfer' (hmmm, cus everything so far has been TOTALLY seamless!) to a new provider but they can't say who/where until Autumn.
So yesterday I went to a 'Fertility Fair' in Bristol run by the Cardiff branch of LWC. They have a satellite clinic in Bristol where I could have my scans and other appointments, then just need to travel to Cardiff for the actual procedure. Went to a talk on mild IVF and best for all, got to speak to the consultant for 15 mins for free!! Talked through my options and he absolutely agreed with me my best way forward would be to skip the laparoscopy/iuis and do an IVF cycle. He can see me in July, talk through my personalised chances of success with mild vs conventional IVF and would then be happy for me to start straight away on my next cycle. They were also doing a deal for the fair where if I booked the initial consultation there and then it would be a fraction of the price! So I booked it for 11th July 
I'm feeling much more positive and excited as it seems like i could actually start soon with my preferred treatment! But I feel a bit weird about ditching my current clinic, like maybe it's an overreaction?? The way forward with LWC just seems so much clearer, I have the option of a mild cycle which I don't have at BCRM, and bizarrely most of the appointments will actually be EASIER to get to as the Bristol satellite clinic is 20 mins walk from my work instead of a bus ride away! Would make scans for IVF etc much easier with work. Also I just really liked the consultant, it actually felt like a conversation between the two of us, which is the first time I've felt this so far.
What do you think? Am I mad to switch? Should I just stick with BCRM, insist on IVF, and hope the transfer in November either doesn't affect me or will be as 'seamless' as they say? People who've switched clinic, was it a massive hassle?? I just want to start! I was referred to BCRM in January and feel no nearer!
Sorry for epic post, it's been a long and confusing week....