I’m struggling to accept the inevitable :(

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I would really appreciate some support with accepting that sooner or later I’m going to get Covid.
I could be hospitalised and I could die.

I’ve always known this and It’s not something that has controlled me.

10 weeks ago, my work colleagues husband, 38, caught Covid, was in hospital for 5 weeks before sadly passing away.
He had no health conditions.

I haven’t stopped thinking about it since.

I’m more fearful of Covid now than I ever have been and it’s really starting to affect my life.

I’ve found myself no longer wanting to socialise, I’m avoiding supermarkets (which I have never done before) I’ve cancelled some upcoming plans to go to an overnight spa with friends, and it’s my cousins wedding in two weeks which I am now considering not attending.

I’m fully aware people have been hospitalised and losing their lives for the last 18 months, but I think it’s only now that it’s someone I know that it’s hit me :(

Op I don’t think you have health anxiety, I think you are shaken by the news of the recent covid death of someone you know. I think this is a reasonable reaction to realising your own mortality and how dangerous covid is. I had something similar in that I witnessed and assisted with a fatal accident. I spent quite some time afterwards coming to terms with the fragility of life and it made me think about myself and my behaviour. I think just talk about it as much as you can to help process what happened and give yourself time.

I have posted earlier but just to add my health anxiety is diagnosed and I was making myself ill physically and mentally because of it. I do have medication that I've been on for many years but I also find that cbt therapy does help for most anxious situations. Even if you are finding yourself overthinking about a terrible situation it can really help to put things in perspective. Of course you don't have to have a diagnosed condition, it can be used in lots of situations. Maybe have a look to see if it can help you xx

OP. Pre Covid ( so no hysteria ) Two years ago I got sick with pneumonia. I was really sick and had one night where I honestly felt like it was possible that I could pass away. I never get sick and am fit and healthy so it took me by surprise and it wasn't until I got better, it hit me how sick I was.
That week a 38 year old woman with a young family and a 23 year old sportsman died of the same virus.
Honestly it freaked me out that they had died and I was thinking why did they die and not me.
But the reality and mystery is they died and I didn't so just get on with living and be grateful. Takes time to work it through though so I understand how you feel.
You'll feel better about it in time. Focus on the fact that you are healthy today and thinking about what may happen is wasting good time you've got now.
It's possible you'll get Covid but put faith in the vaccine you chose to have and put faith in your immune system.
Live your life now and try not to focus on the fear.
I don't think you have health anxiety, I think you've had a normal reaction to a tragic death x

You f do I have health anxiety, it’s absolutely not normal to assume you will catch something, and be hospitalized or die, just because someone’s husband did.

I know it’s sad when someone relatively young and healthy dies. My brother-in-law was killed in his 30s by a drunk driver and he had a young child. It was devastating. I still think about it. Have I stopped using the roads? Nope.