Has anyone else lost the will to care?

[whatToDoHerre]

I have. I barely care about anything anymore. I don't know what we are fighting for - if this is life then is it worth living? We are not living, we are only existing at this point.

We could be in for months and months of restrictions and there's even talk of a third lockdown. Because the first two worked so well?

In a few short months a whole year of our lives will have been restricted.

If there is light at the end of this tunnel it's a very long tunnel, and I don't think we've travelled very far.

I have decided to live day by day.

I know spring will be a shit show but I am not thinking about it.

Try to find the Joy each day as utterly shite as that sounds. A take away flask of tea with a chum or even the birds singing a little louder.

If I live longer term I feel sick!!

I agree. If my resolve is coming to an end as a law abiding respectful citizen then Ive been consoling myself that feeling must be wider spread. I'm not sure I have the drive to respect the rules any more. I know that will get me shot down on here but I just feel done.

I don't care about corona anymore, nor brexit. I've accepted that this is just life now; the breakdown of society, of the economy, of the UK. And it's ALL white, straight mens fault.

I understand, I feel quite similar. I just don't give a fuck anymore. I understand the reasons given for lockdowns etc but I am just so tired of it all, and feel deep apathy and cynicism. I do think things will improve but I think we're only halfway there and when I really look at that I feel utter despair, so I tend to confine myself to just the present and the next few days/week, or I'd go mad. I think that's how many people get through hard times with no end date. But that doesn't stop it being really tough.

Oh totally agree! I’ve no fear of the virus for myself , I can’t make myself care about the rules (although I am abiding by them , mostly for politeness sake) , the news is SO awful it’s almost too big iykwim 🤷‍♀️
On the other hand a cup of tea on my own, chatting to the kids, stroking my cat, the small things - still bring me contentment

I've had enough also. I just feel we have all been lied to. It'll all be over by Christmas, kids don't spread it, things will go back to normal. Blah blah blah. I got very angry today we have been kept in tier 3 when other areas higher than us are tier 2. I don't even really go out to pubs but I'm so angry at the loss of businesses, the total lack of any real plan from the get go and they have had plenty of time to get their shit together. I'm just done with it now. I just want it to fuck off back to wherever it came from 😞

@RockPaperScissorsLizardSpock73

I've had enough also. I just feel we have all been lied to. It'll all be over by Christmas, kids don't spread it, things will go back to normal. Blah blah blah. I got very angry today we have been kept in tier 3 when other areas higher than us are tier 2. I don't even really go out to pubs but I'm so angry at the loss of businesses, the total lack of any real plan from the get go and they have had plenty of time to get their shit together. I'm just done with it now. I just want it to fuck off back to wherever it came from 😞

I could have written this myself

Yes. I gave up caring about everything quite a while ago. Or it felt like a everything then. But it wasnt.

As the days go on and on I give up on more and more and feel so numb. I envy the poster who went for a walk on the beach. We only have streets here. And no pubs are open.

It’s hard to feel human.

Yes definitely. I'm in Wales so have been given 9 days notice to kick a household out for Christmas. I'm fed up of everything being closed here, of being stuck inside in shit weather with two preschoolers who have no idea what's going on. They even sometimes put masks on when they play pretend games now. It's fucking depressing.

I mostly follow the rules by coincidence rather than effort. However I travel outside by local authority if I want to (Scotland) and at the weekend am staying overnight at a friend's house (with another friend). As far as I'm concerned we've lost our senses with this now. When I hear about babies born in 2020 having not seen otherwise healthy grandparents because of a small risk of catching us virus you are most likely to recover from I am flabbergasted. But on MN I would be a murderer and someone quickly along to tell me they know 5 healthy peopled aged under 35 who all died. I keep saying I will quit MN but then I have this sort of morbid obsession to want to convince people to see sense by posting!

Yep. If the only risk of stopping caring was to me and not those around me I'd not be taking any precautions...

Been in some form of lockdown since September (Glasgow area), no light at the end of the tunnel. All my "sociable" hobbies are off for the foreseeable - need to be in level zero for my main one.

Kids are getting frustrated - no playdates or parties, 2 year old hasn't played with anyone other than his sister/parents since October so he's going to be pretty damn feral.

Doesn't help that we're not allowed to leave our county, which unfortunately is a posh suburb of Glasgow that is only really separate for "snob"/historical reasons and therefore has very little in the way of things to do if you are bored of country walks, which we are after 9 months... I'm sure it's a nice place to live but as we're basically Glasgow for hospitals it sucks to be in level 3 because big city but not be allowed to visit the big city that pulls you into level 3!

Agree with you @Pootle40

I've got depression through this and I don't know what to do.

Definitely can comprehend this, I'm all over the place at the moment, I'm not in the least bit scared for mine or my dc lives if any of us should contract covid yet feel so consumed by it its in our faces day after day after day. Im trying my best to stick to guidelines and make sensible decisions yet my mental health is the worst its ever been at the moment. I've struggled on and off with depression and anxiety for about 15yrs but some of the thoughts and plans I've had lately are fucking scary!! Yet those who don't give a stuff about covid or the rules and restrictions that go with it, seem so much happier and at peace (on the outside anyway), it makes me wonder who's thinking right and wrong here

I'll be honest and say that throughout I have remained quite upbeat and I feel lucky my mental health has remained intact but can see that millions of people will be feeling it - and believe me I think I am odd for staying upbeat! I think over the years I've trained myself (maybe subconsciously) not to dwell on negative things. It could be as a result of having very ill parents - both since passed - and losing dad when he was 51. I've debated it at length with my brother and I think some of what we saw and went through has made us very resilient without even noticing. So at most I feel more angry or annoyed or misled by various govts. I don't ever talk to my children about coronavirus except to say 'oh we can go back to x once this silly coronavirus has gone away'. I make light of it for them. I don't want them to ever think about it.

@Pootle40 I see sense

This whole thing is utterly ridiculous, quarantining healthy people, ruining entire industries, banning people from seeing their own family, imprisoning elderly people in care homes, skewing figures, MP’s ignoring their own rules, masks, endless tv, radio and shopping centre announcements, previously happy people now depressed - totally had enough. The cure is massively worse than the illness and I’m fed up of Hancock et al telling us we are responsible for stopping a fucking microscopic virus who’s only purpose in life is to pass between hosts.

Really? Life for me is relatively unchanged. I'm working- income has dropped but we've just made a few adjustments. My kids still going to school and college, my son working part time.
My friend runs a hotel and they are doing OK.
Another lives in London, freelance, definitely lost some revenue. But otherwise life continues.
My stepsons are working from home, one is expecting his first child.
In fact other than travel not a lot has changed. Of course she have lost jobs etc. But I don't know anyone who has, and my son, who was made redundant during the first lockdown, picked one up as soon as shops reopened. I can't see some relatives, but will in the Spring. Life not worth it? My parents who survived rationing, air raids, evacuation, older siblings being killed, would think you are mad.

Some have lost jobs. Not she!

[quote Lostinacloud]@Pootle40 I see sense

This whole thing is utterly ridiculous, quarantining healthy people, ruining entire industries, banning people from seeing their own family, imprisoning elderly people in care homes, skewing figures, MP’s ignoring their own rules, masks, endless tv, radio and shopping centre announcements, previously happy people now depressed - totally had enough. The cure is massively worse than the illness and I’m fed up of Hancock et al telling us we are responsible for stopping a fucking microscopic virus who’s only purpose in life is to pass between hosts.[/quote]
I hear you. All this 'To keep you safe' shite. Fair enough if someone in the shop has a machete otherwise WTF

The powers that be want us to stop caring about Brexit and Corona. They want us to be so fed up they can put Russians into the House of Lords without anyone complaining. What do you make of that?

[quote Lostinacloud]@Pootle40 I see sense

This whole thing is utterly ridiculous, quarantining healthy people, ruining entire industries, banning people from seeing their own family, imprisoning elderly people in care homes, skewing figures, MP’s ignoring their own rules, masks, endless tv, radio and shopping centre announcements, previously happy people now depressed - totally had enough. The cure is massively worse than the illness and I’m fed up of Hancock et al telling us we are responsible for stopping a fucking microscopic virus who’s only purpose in life is to pass between hosts.[/quote]
All of this, but if course there will soon be the doomsayers 'you're so selfish, basically want to murder people by not locking yourself in a box or the 'oh is something happening, not noticed' people...

Wow @Pipandmum where do you live that life is unchanged and there's active retail employment?!

@Pootle40 I'm the same as you. I mostly abide by the rules out of what my lifestyle is but I'm certainly not restricting where I go (also Scotland).

I'm numb, I don't care. I read the daily deaths and I don't give a shit.

I'm still horrified about Brexit though, I feel like a maniac is driving me off a cliff and I'm helpless. It's such a kick in the balls after almost a year of covid.

And I’m mostly angry about the effect on my DC. I too remain very upbeat with them but my 11 year old recently said that it doesn’t feel like Christmas this year and that he wishes he could be excited but he’s not. This is entirely due to covid restrictions making it impossible to see any of our friends or family this year because at the moment we are living in France. I also can’t stand the fact my DC aged 6 and over have to wear a mask all day in school and come out visibly paler and more tired than normal. My mum instinct to protect them and make things better for them is in overdrive and I have to work hard on a daily basis to remain calm and not be in a permanent state of frustrated anger.

Agree I feel like I would like to catch covid at this point at least it would be a bit of excitement.

A family member of mine, mid forties, died a few days ago due directly to the mental health effects of this pandemic. There are many like him.

What are we doing this for?