Has anyone else lost the will to care?

[whatToDoHerre]

I have. I barely care about anything anymore. I don't know what we are fighting for - if this is life then is it worth living? We are not living, we are only existing at this point.

We could be in for months and months of restrictions and there's even talk of a third lockdown. Because the first two worked so well?

In a few short months a whole year of our lives will have been restricted.

If there is light at the end of this tunnel it's a very long tunnel, and I don't think we've travelled very far.

@BeakyWinder

Yes yes yes I'm absolutely fed up. I think I have Covid depression. My life has actually improved hugely on paper this year - graduated with a 2:1 after years of studying, new job, promotion, pay rise, moved to a bigger house and dp moved in with us etc. but I feel nothing. This time last year I was stressing about uni, my shit job, how to fit in all my Christmas plans (ha) and skint, but I was free.

I agree with this, congratulations! I was similar, I actually had quite a good year too with a new job and pay rise so we've been able to get nice things for our house which we only moved into a year ago. But this year has just put a dampener on it all.

I have found my people/thread! Totally over this shit show now. Tier 3 area that has been in some sort of local lockdown/high tier since what feels like 1984 (September). I’m on mat leave and spend my days wandering with the pram around various local parks just to be out of the house. Other half’s business has all but disappeared as relies on travelling into Europe a couple of time per month which hasn’t happened since feb. Family live a couple of hours drive away and are super cautious so have seen them once since baby was born (she’s 5 months). Our areas numbers have dropped lower than some tier 2 areas but they have left us in tier 3. I’m generally just fed up and think if I suggest another park walk in the rain to the just turned 4 year old on his non nursery days he may attempt so strangle me with his puddle suit. However on MN we know all children adore putting on their puddle suits and wellies and getting out in the great outdoors and returning home to make some artisan play dough and learn mandarin...mine wants to go to soft play and have a sleepover at his grandparents!

I've found my sisters on this thread thanks everyone.

It always has to be in CAPITALS as well, houseinthesnow

I feel the same. Luckily my mental health hasn't really suffered but I am fed up of this. All I do is go to work and go back home. Yes I'm lucky to still have my job and my health but there's no joy in life right now. Tier 3 so can't even go out for a meal or take DS bowling or to the cinema, the weather is too shit for outdoor activities. I feel resentment about being in tier 3 when my borough is much lower than the UK average.

I do not like "a slower pace of life" I like travel and going to concerts and for drinks with friends. I hate this. And I'm fed up of people calling for school closure yet again. I cannot do that again.

And don't even get me started on the "selfish" comments. On mumsnet you are expected to put absolutely everyone else ahead of yourself and your own family, if you don't then you're "selfish."

@CoronaIsWatching

I don't care about corona anymore, nor brexit. I've accepted that this is just life now; the breakdown of society, of the economy, of the UK. And it's ALL white, straight mens fault.

Wow. Ever so slightly racist there!

Yes the capitals are everything! Just to ensure the message is received loud and clear MassiveSalad Just in case anyone should have missed it in the last 10 months

I was reading another thread about how other mns teenagers were following the rules.
After 10 months I've given up trying to police my dc. Ds 19 plays power league football with his mates ( allowed), but they all go in the same car. 🤷‍♀️
He recently announced his plans for New Year's Eve, playing computer games and beers in one of themselves garden cabin.
He's been doing his apprenticeship from his bedroom since March and told me he feels like he's losing his mind.
Dd21 worked from home too and then returned to uni/prison to finish her degree in-line. She's admitted on returning home she followed the rules to begin with, but her housemates were going out all over the place, so we're likely to bring COVID with them, so what was the point her sitting in her flat lonely and bored, so adopted the if you can't beat them join them plan.
Her uni have spent £££ on an amazing marquee for them but as they have just gone into level 3 it will be shut next term. Why the fuck can't they open it for all those young people. So much better for them being shut in their tiny rooms.

My mental health is made up of worrying about my kids and their future

I wonder how history will reflect on this period in years to come.

Will it say we were overreacting on a global scale, massively stressed out to the max on caffeine and had a collective nervous breakdown which was entirely unnecessary

Or that we did not do anywhere near enough to prevent the huge mind boggling loss of life, and were way too slow to adapt.

Or that we are as lucky as hell, as the next virus really will be in a path to wipe us all out. Kids included.

I often consider what our grandchildren will make of this period in our history - and will I be personally proud of the way I managed myself and my family or not.

Yes I was called selfish the other day for wanting to take my 2 and 4 year old to clubs like swimming and football. My 2 year old has never been swimming because we'd intended on starting her with lessons in March. They also haven't had proper dental check ups as they were too young on their last ones for the dentist to have a proper look, and theirs were booked for April. Half of my tooth crumbled in April and I can't do anything about it other than use 7 temporary filling kits...

The third (!!) set of Welsh lockdown rules ban meeting in gardens as well as any form of group exercise, so kids clubs stopped again. My nephew lives for his football and has only managed about 6 weeks between local lockdowns, firebreaks etc. Wales was actually only fully without restrictions for about four weeks in August.

Will it say we were overreacting on a global scale, massively stressed out to the max on caffeine and had a collective nervous breakdown which was entirely unnecessary

I absolutely do think that we will look back on this and be utterly gobsmacked at the overreaction. I've said it for months. We will be paying for this for the rest of our lives, probably our children's lives too.

Absolutely lost the will. Grey skies and rain are going to take it's toll. It's no ones fault someone catches Covid and gets very ill and it's no ones fault the NHS can't cope.

Yes I was called selfish the other day for wanting to take my 2 and 4 year old to clubs like swimming and football

This isn't a criticism of you ImAllOut but honestly don't garner opinions on here. Just decide for yourself, and do it! I don't get all the "Can I go from T2 to T3, Can I go out for a meal" threads. Of course you are going to get the STFAH (STAY THE FUCK AT HOME) police calling you selfish, they thrive on it. It isn't remotely selfish to want to take your small children to clubs they enjoy, so just crack on. If I was to post a list of all the "rules" i've broken then i'd be lambasted!

Someone up thread said one day a virus might wipe is all out. I sometimes wish that had happened. We are not living, we are just existing.
I go to bed at night hoping not to wake up next day.

I’ve been made redundant, my husbands business is going down the pan. We’ve invested everything into it, we are currently in rented accommodation and basically fucked!! I have been trying to get another job for months and its hopeless. I must spend 5 hours a day applying. I have no idea how we are going to get out of this mess. We are in our fifties. He had a buyer for his business at the start of this year, we were going to buy a little 2 bed for ever house! I cry everyday now, lock downs are pointless. Fuck saving the NHS, the government should have invested money into it before then they would have been able to cope. (And reading between the lines, they are coping as normal flu seems to have disappeared this year!) All the money they have spent on grants and furlough could have been used so that the NHS had capacity. They knew there was a chance of a pandemic. Fucking wankers!!
My heart goes out to all of you with kids under twenty, its all so wrong, they should be able to do all the normal things that enable them to grow into rounded individuals. Mental health is going to be a bigger crisis than COVID ever was.
And if anyone has any job openings in essex/herts please pm me Ha!

This isn't a criticism of you ImAllOut but honestly don't garner opinions on here. No I agree, I would never garner opinions, I was only having a general moan on the Welsh chat thread about Drakeford's latest pick'n'mix, made up, insane, last minute restrictions and was told that there were bigger things to be concerned with.

Me. I couldn't give less of a fuck anymore if I tried.

I've been in such a dark place these last few weeks. Straight from a November lockdown into tier three - what's the fucking point?! Can't remember the last time DH and I went for a meal, went to the cinema, went bowling etc. It's just been a whole year of hanging around the house, going for tedious walks, and having the odd meal in August.

We're very lucky that DH's job is about as safe as you can get, but it doesn't actually make me feel any better on a day to day basis. And I spend half my time alone now too (I'm a student).

I honestly can't wrap my brain around some of the people on here who are all for the 'roolz', who berate people for wanting to see their own mother, and call others 'selfish' for doing the perfectly legal and allowed act of mixing at Christmas. Odd people.

I'm relying on chemo slots through December, January, February and am fully expecting problems with NHS pressures.

Yesterday the chemo nurses were being fitted for covid masks as they will be redeployed.

Schools in January are going to be hot beds of infection after Christmas mingling and dd has to go as it's GCSEs.

I'd like to see my elderly mum in case anything happens to her or me before covid is controlled.

But I'm struggling to care. Brexit just adds an extra depth of shiteness.

Merry Xmas!

@VaTeLaverLesMains that is hilarious!!!! Is it yours or one you've seen. I bloody need that 😀

I just read the thread and realise I'm on the wrong one.

As you were, folks

It is terrible really I wish I was in China new Zealand or Australia. The latter locked down hard in the summer and effectively closed their borders. The former locked down effectively that would be too difficult for the "it's my rights UK" there were some instances of forced isolation in camps where both parents tested positive leaving disabled children home alone.

For me those sort of sharp lockdowns to eradicate then closing the borders untill vaccine would have been the best solution. Instead we do it half arsed wear a face covering (not even a bloody three layers mask) unless you don't feel like it and can think of a dubious medical reason. The fact the covid app is optional is staggering. And the way pubs were crammed in August and school kids still don't wear masks all day just makes us as a country look stupid.

RockPaper no but I'd really like one!

I found out I was pregnant the week we went into lockdown, and now I have a four week old daughter. At no point in the intervening period has it been legal for me to go into a friend's house, except if that friend is in my bubble. (I'm in Wales.)

I'm just desperately hoping that it's all over before DD is old enough to remember - though presumably she'll be paying off the debt and dealing with the health service fallout for the rest of her life.