The argument just got stupid. I cant even remember how it came up. He said something about me having an issue with him not wanting to get married I said 'what the fuck....i don't want to marry you why would it bother me that you don't?' And he said "why are you even with me if you dorn want to marry me?'
Then it descended into 'really, its OK for you to not want to marry me, but not ok for me to not want to marry you
And it just got ridiculous. Without making excuses for him. He had s fucked up childhood. A really fucked up one. His dad worked away and him mum moved out leaving him and his siblings alone for a week. He was 1. His oldest sibling was 5.
His dad brought them up for a bit and then remarried. They were alcoholics. Dragged them up. Dp was abused by step mils father. When step mil had a child (my best friend) she basically decides the other kids were too hard work. The grandfather abused her dd and she still didn't do anything. Dps dad forced him to steal cars from 13 etc. Then his dad died.
Step mil has severe mental health issues. Still lives with my best friends whose family life has to reolve around her or she gets drunk and abusive. She is ruining my beat friends life. But can be lovely. Though she once told me I should go back to my abusive exh.
I think dp is terrified I don't really want to be with him. That I will leave him when something better comes along etc.
He started counselling before lockdown and done some online sessions. He probably thinks me not wanting to get married is me rejecting him. Rather than I just don't want to get married again. He thinks I would get married, again, if he was someone else.
I guess he thinks I dont want to marry him not that I don't want to get married at all.
His problems don't usually impacts us 99% of the time. But its the only thing I can think it would be.