I don’t think I can do this

[Stupidanduseless]

If I happen to die now - at home - I won’t get a funeral I know, but presumably someone would still be about to take me away?
I don’t think I can do this for another 6/12 months. I just don’t. I’m not in a great relationship and I’m now entirely isolated from everyone who would usually help me. I’m feeling so panicky, I feel like I’m in prison, I know everyone is. I will need medication in the next couple of weeks, and I’m too scared to get it. Not if the virus, I’m scared of being stopped by the police. The rules frighten me. It’s insulin I need. I’ve been using as little as possible to try and stretch it out but I will definitely need some before lockdown is over, in which case I will die anyway?
I don’t think I can do this.

What do you mean you’re not allowed to make calls or face time?

No dr will limit insulin. They’d be horrified to think a patient was doing this.

Order it on Monday, you can go to get insulin.

I’ve ordered & collected all dhs meds’ this week.

@Stupidanduseless you're getting some pretty good advice on this thread - please call your GP. Support from your fellow MNers is great but we do feel you really need to seek help from medical professionals in real life.

You can also take a look at our Mental Health resources. Or the Samaritans website or email them on [email protected].

We also like to remind everyone that, although we're awed daily by the astonishing support our members give each other through life's trickier twists and turns, we'd always caution anyone never to give more of themselves to another poster, emotionally or financially, than they can afford to spare.

Best wishes from MNHQ.

Ok, time for MN to rally round. What do you want any of us to do?

@SunshineCake. I like you. Just saying.

Can you talk us through how you usually get your insulin OP? Is there a repeat prescription that the pharmacist can dispense? Do you know your pharmacy?
Regarding your abusive partner, what is the situation? It doesn't sound like a new development. Why are you there? What would help you to leave.

Definitely don't be afraid of the police. They would only have your best interests at heart. You have nothing to fear. Just keep your distance from people when out, don't touch anyone and follow good hand hygiene when outside and on return. Prepare in advance what you will use to protect your hands.
It's a scary time but remember that there are people in ICU fighting for their lives and others risking their lives to help them. You are well and able to stay safe from the virus at home.

I don’t think I can do this for another 6/12 months.

You don't have to. Everything changes, nothing persists. It sounds to me as if you could do some support at the moment..?

Oh this is a sad post.

Do NOT limit your insulin, your end up making yourself very sick and despite how you might feel in this moment you don’t really want that. How do you order more does it have to be a Gp or can a pharmacy help? You need to try and order some today if you can

Don’t be scared to go out, IF you get stopped by the police and asked why you are out provided it’s for Food, medicine or your daily exercise they will be perfectly ok with you lovely as those 3 things are allowed.

A bit of fresh air right now would do you the world of good, if your struggling mentally then a little walk once a day would really help.

This Virus/lockdown and everything associated with it IS temporary it’s not going to last forever. Yes it’s rough now but it will pass in time

@Stupidanduseless it’s not going to be 6-12 months. All the modelling so far suggests a 12 week or so period of this, hard as it is, then lowered restrictions with periods of restrictions possibly being raised again but for shorter periods. That may mean a short lockdown here and there, or just periods of social distancing and wfh or asking folk with symptoms to self isolate. China has started to open up businesses again and reduce restrictions after 8 weeks.

Someone will probably tell me I’m talking shite but I’m not - this is what the reports are saying.

OP, is your husband abusing you? Is he making you fearful of going outside?

Life is frightening right now, everything looks so insurmountable. You have reached out here and that is so brave of you. Well done.

Could you try to ring the Samaritans or even your local crisis team. Also have a look on Facebook as I know lots of abuse charities are offering online support. The one I work for is offering quite a few hours at different times to suit circumstances.

There are people who can help. You are right the text from your Dr was a blanket text if you call up they will do you a prescription for insulin. Also if you feel you can tell them about your husband.

Please keep reaching out and know that there are people to help and this situation will not last too long

I remember your other threads OP about your abusive partner.

Can you wait until he is asleep and make a call to Women's Aid?

Do you have a medical exception card? If you have that you can take it with you when you go out in case anyone challenges you when you are out, just so you feel better. However, you do NOT need to worry - people are allowed to go out to buy food, collect meds, and even just for exercise.

The text from your GP will have been a mass text and is NOT aimed at people like you who need medication to stay alive.

@Stupidanduseless Please phone a helpline you need someone to talk to now. Domestic Abuse website here: www.refuge.org.uk/get-help-now/phone-the-helpline/ Helpline: 0808 2000 247 They are extremely discrete and will help to protect you. You can get through thisxx You have reached out on here. Keep going you can get help xxx

it is panic and anxiety talking in your head. Please eat something now to give yourself the food you need to think clearly, and take the right dose of insulin. Then get on the phone and just wait however long it takes, and while you’re on the phone ask if you can set it up to order your repeat prescriptions online - that’s a lot easier and more manageable. If that isn’t possible then ask at your pharmacy if they have an ordering service - next time when you go in to pick up your medication, have them put it on their system to re-order your medication for you in 3 or 4 or however many weeks.

Hi OP. GP's aren't t telling people not to order their medication. They're telling people not to order early. If you're in an abusive relationship then there is a lot of help available at the moment as the gov't and police have recognised what a vulnerable situation you're in. Check out your local police forces FB page. Ours have posted how to get help discreetly. If you'd been planning to leave, now could be a good time to do it with support.
I'm diabetic, please don't limit your insulin. Email your GP practice ask them to help you, alternatively contact your DSN.

I know you say you can’t call anyone and we aren’t supposed to be mixing. BUT you must use your medication properly and it’s essential you stay safe.
Can you stay with a family member or friend? You need to be safe.

Op if you need help you can message me and I can try and look for your nearest women's services . Please don't feel alone x

I’m struggling so much because all my support networks are gone.
I feel really uncomfortable about going out because we aren’t allowed to. It makes me feel anxious. I don’t think I’d cope if the police stopped me. I know it’s pathetic.
I can call or FaceTime if dh can hear me.

Where are your support networks, could you reestablish contact?

You are allowed out. It’s not true that you are not allowed out.

As long as you and your husband are symptom-free there is absolutely no restriction on your leaving the house for essential trips. My daughter needs insulin and we are allowed to pick it up for her and deliver it to her.

I can’t because I can’t make unsupervised contact. I can’t have a proper conversation.

The op is in an abusive relationship, that's why she can't call helplines etc.

I'm sorry things are getting harder for you, op. I really am.

Do you feel able to at least mentally start working towards leaving him? Even if you can't or don't want to do anything practical right now? It might make things more bearable if you feel like you're building a plan to get out of this situation.

You're permitted to leave the house for medication. If the police did stop you it would be an opportunity to ask them to help you find somewhere safe to live and to protect you from any more abuse.

It's the police's job to help people in situations like yours.

Is Online chat possible?

Does he monitor your online activity?