@Parkingt111,
I try not to be emotional on here but it's really very difficult to continue to see
You are not alone!
I am really, really, really trying - on here, at work, among friends, at political assemblies I attend, to be reasonable, constructive ...
... but, hey, I find it really hard, too! Not just "hard" - it is UNBEARABLE!
And yet, we soldier on, because WE MUST!
Go sit in a corner and bawl your eyes out, if it helps! (Good lord - pls note: I am saying this as a confirmed atheist!) - that is, literally, what I do every evening! Breathe! Do some yoga! Try to get some sleep, I know it is hard!
Just, please, please: do NOT despair! People see us! People hear us! And, seriously: it is even perfectly okay to "fly off the handle" every once in a while!
I am a corporate executive for a living, I "flew off the handle" at my boss yesterday - he is coming to march with us tomorrow and bringing his whole family! Me "losing it" and him "intervening" was a necessary conversation opener among a general culture of "we pretend politics does not exist at work".