30s TTC Inc: Rolling out BESH practice across our flagship monthly diffment projects - Blue Sky thinking for a paradigm shift vis-a-vis droids and wooden spoons.

[Muser]

We're getting serious this time BESHies. Welcome to the Palace, where the emphasis is on sophistication. Cast your eyes over the plush carpet, admire the oh-so-carefully worn leather armchairs with sidetables and little green lamps. We have the Bonds of the ages as barstaff, waiting to serve martinis and the finest champagne.

To your left you'll see the Pit, which hopefully we won't be needing much. To your right the Cave of Gloom, and straight ahead we have our special space for the 2WOOFL. You'll find beanbags and gym balls there, the walls have been specially painted to allow you to write your symptoms up and wipe them off if they disappear. It's all the rage for Blue Sky thinking these days. And there are donuts and coffee to keep you going as you try to shift that paradigm.

Shit. sorry gin. Hope you get some answers tomorrow. and that they are the right ones.

Sorry, didn't mean to ignore you. Bad timing. Did anyone remember to mention first drinks are always on the newbs? Line 'em up...

Ginty I'm working (for once) this afternoon so am at my laptop till, ooh, probably about midnight. I'm sitting right here all afternoon if you want to chat, or just sit staring at the wall for a bit together.

I am sending so much love and positivity your way right now. Project Velcro.

Oh god, Gin, I can't fucking believe it I don't know what to think after just having a good scan - hope the nurse is right.

thanks. yeah I remember, skate was sure she'd lost the BOC...

THis is quite scary though. Definitely more blood than you would feel was an okay thing.

So I had the grand total of 4.5 hours thinking that this pregnancy could be okay.

Obviously it could still be okay, but I hadn't expected to have my chips pissed on in such a fashion.

God Gin this is just so unfair, I can't believe you can't get a break with this even for half a day. Really hoping it's nothing...not that that is much consolation, I know. I'm mentally swearing a lot right now (and I'm not much of a swearer normally). Thinking of you.

Gin I hope you didn't think I was being insensitive competing the questionnaire and not acknowledging your situation - our posts crossed.

I hope the bleeding turns out to be nothing and things carry on as normal.

orchid of course not. i'm not really taking much in tbh. normal service will be resumed etcetc

Farking hell gin what a rollercoaster! So sorry this is happening, scary as hell. I really hope this doesn't sound insensitive - could it just be somekind of reaction to dildocam this morning?

I hope that tomorrow's scan comes around quickly & can bring good, reassuring news. I really do, x

Oh Gin I'm so sorry. You must feel awful. Wish there was something I could do or say, but will just send big love and thoughts to you xxxx

Oh fuck Gin, am so sorry. I'm also bleeding lightly again. What a shitty week for us all. Take good care of yourself. x

and hello new people!

Oh Twinkle

I don't know what to say, there isn't anything really, is there? Both of you just know all the BESHes are keeping watch with you.

I'm lighting a candle in my living room. I do it every now and then when someone I know is going through a hard time. Reminds me that there's hope in the darkness, and also when it catches my eye it reminds me to think of / pray for them. I guess I got the idea from those big cathedrals where you light candles to pray for people, but it doesn't feel an especially religious thing to me; just a little ritual of waiting and hoping.

So anyway. The besh candle is lit in my living room, and will stay lit till I go to bed tonight. And I will think of you both every time it catches my eye.

lorry midwife said no to that idea on phone, said it's prob just coincidence. Am hoping she's wrong.

twink am so sorry luvver. This is shit.

Sorry am only responding to some posts. I can't manage to remember everything everyone said when I come to reply.

Sorry I keep saying sorry. Etc.

thanks stew

Oh gin. How can this be happening? I am so sorry. There's just nothing to say. I hope with every inch of me that it's all ok. You don't deserve this, nobody does of course, but you especially don't.

Love you, gin.

Everything will be all right. I refuse to be part of a universe in which it's not.

Definitely not a response to dildocam? Obviously it wouldn't dislodge the BOC, but maybe it could irritate your cervix?

I like the candle, stewpot.

Twinks Am sorry to hear that you're bleeding.

Oh and Twinkle too, am thinking of you. Are you getting any tests done? It must be so scary.

Sorry I just dashed in to see and I gather all's very very worrying for our lovely Gin. I'm joining Cass in the candle lighting and praying. Have only caught last page - sorry. Love to all.

well I think that cam. Same as I thought Extreme Gusset Rummaging * may have caused the first bleed. But lady on phone didn't think that. And I dunno if it would make me bleed as much as that....

please noteextreme* has not been rummaging in my gusset.

Can someone make this GO THE FUCK AWAY NOW PLEASE?

If I could, you know I would.

I must admit I snorted at the thought of Extreeeeeeeeeeeme rummaging in your ginly gusset.

And then I felt inappropriately left out and jealous.

See now between pisces and me we now have a candle line halfway up the country! All we need now is a Northerner/Scot to light one too and we've got the whole jolly island covered.

( Ocky sorry receptionists are being a pain. Mr Stew's just ringing up for his jizzing in a pot competition results so here's hoping...)

gin I wish I could my lurve, I wish I could.

Without wishing to add to the menkal, & obv I have no medical experience, it does seem too much of a coincidence to me that the scan is all tickety-boo, & after some poking around you bleed. I'm not suggesting dis-lodging the BOC, but as camel says, some irritation? I sincerely hope I'm right. according to the boyf I always am

twinks I have my fingers crossed that all is well for you too.

What worrying times all round.

cass I really like your candle idea, tis a lovely thought.

gin, twinks I'm sending as many good vibes as I can muster. You don't need this shiz.

Sorry, that last line seems really out of place. But didn't want Ocky to think her post earlier about annoying GP phone system had been ignored....

I can light a candle in the midlands

hotpot would it be wholly inappropriate to ask you to share the results of the jizz in a pot competition? Mr O has got his on Thurs and because we're paying for it to be done privately we don't have the same explanations of things given to us. It's being done at the local androlgoy unit at the hospital, so not a private clinic or anything. Can imagine we'll get given a whole lot of numbers that we have no idea about!