The BESH 30s TTC thread in the world EVER - 2010

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C'mon girls, this is the year. We will form a circle and concentrate hard on diffment.

Meanwhile, David and Jenson have popped the corks and are pouring out the Bellinis. Truckle of stilton anyone?

twinks that happened to me - and to gin I fink IS fucking shit.

muser I will have to stalk you now you know...

Talking of Scotland - i lived in Edinburgh for a year - I loves Scotland muchly... so muchly that I spent my Honeymoon up at Loch Ness...

scrope don't get hung up on discharge/ FFJ or whatever - I actually have the opposite as an updiff symptom (other people talk of having more, so best not to worry about that) but after a short while of updiffment it does seem to increase somewhat

The only thing I notice (by what everyone on here has said) seems to be an updiff symptom is having no symptoms except a lack of droid symptoms...

Scorpalina is you using dat mekual machine at all???

iggy when did you live in the 'burgh? Was there 1996-2000 myself. I heart that city so much.

So many east coasters! I spend more time over that way these days because my family all fled in that general direction .

twinks that is truly shit. Surely someone can sort their systems out. Twats.

I agree with iggy on main symptoms of diffment being lack of droid symptoms. Tho, not in my case, as droid seemed to start and then stop, and I was left with cramps well beyond BFP. Essentially, symptoms are a pile of wank. Period late + POAS is all we really have (and temps staying high if you're a proper monitoring menkul)

Fuckbollocks, Twink. Amazing that one system doesn't talk to another.

Glad youze home safely, lovely ginster. It was a nice mini-Besh-feshl; now I want a proper one with everyone there. How were the boy and Mr Gin when you got home?

Twinks what a horrible thing to happen, it seems to happen all the time, so insensitive.

Oct 1998- Dec 1999 - I must have seen you there it is my all time favourite city - I'd live there any time..

Ghostie, I was at uni in Edinburgh 94-98 - would have overlapped with you! Just missed you tho piglet

Lyra I was there for my MSc - shame I missed you

Bet you were all in with the "proper" Edinburgh Uni crowd, unlike me. I lived in their part of town, but studied in a former lunatic asylum (kid you not).

So, when and where for the full-on BESHfEST?

They were good n lovely cam...had really enjoyed hanging out together too.bless.mr gin enjoyed staying away from work and all the stresses I think!

Now,I need besh thoughts on this. Got my gynae appt thru,is 12 march. Now given that I know I have adhesions which could be a Bad Thing,and I may or may not have a knackered tube,it appears I shouldn't try for diffage til I know what the fuck is going on. As I can't bring myself to use contraception this means either total abstinence or risking the wrath of ski for being all 'ah fuck it,probably won't get pregnant because...err...I dunno.'

SO the actual point of this drivel is...do I try n find out about getting a private appt sooner? Or do I just stop stressing about watching yet more undiffed months fly by? It's been 14 months plus now,and I'm worried mani will have left home before I get a baybee that stays put/actually grows/doesn't explode....

Me me me me me!!! Etc. Sorry,just wondered what you lot would do if you were me?

Fucking hell twink - that's beyond crass. Talk about 'computer says no.'

I'm at work CHIZ CHIIZ CHIZ please cheer me with filth. Thanks.

Some of those months weren't undiffed obv,but it doesn't count for much if they don't=baybee.

Gin I'd get a private appointment. It's good to know what's going on asap, I think. Then you can make your decisions.

Thanks guys, but I won't be menkulling over FFJ types as is game over for me this month.

I am doing v badly, acksherly. Bit of the moist eyes as I type You lot may or may not have noticed a total lack of 2WOOFLing (apart from the FFJ enquiry) from me this month. This is because TYF and I have been quietly getting our hopes up. Yesterday was CD26 and DPO10 - have had not a 'hint of a tint' in the ole gusset, which is, as you know, unheard of for me with my pink panther marathons every month, and I've been having absolutely none of my unusual pre-droid symptoms except for getting huge veiny zeppelin boobs (had to go and buy cheapy bra in the next cup size!) that were ridiculously painful - I get an on-off painful left nip usually, but this time both norks have been so tender I've been on the verge of tears several times a day. And yesterday, I felt really sick and had heartburn all day. But no! How stupid were we to believe we could win a baybee?! Because I had a wonderful start to the day this morning - pink panther. [menkul] Last night we were so happy and cuddling up talking soppy babychat because we were cautiously (well, he was!) optimistic that we'd won. This mindfuck of hope has been far crueller than starting to spot on D20 as has been usual of late!

Sorry to waffle on, but am so low. I know it's not as awful as poor old Twink's bastard letter , but it's hit me so hard. TTC has got me so depressed that I can't rouse myself to do anything - haven't been to gym for @ a month, can't be arsed to do any hobbies or anything, just feel miserable with babyneed 24-7.

Twink, that letter fuck-up is so shit. You have my sympathy, love and comedy violence. Where's my inflatable hammer?

Am off to cry some more now. Really need to go to gym today but can't face leaving flat. Just want to lie here and not exist for a bit.

ginhaggle If you can do/ afford the private thing then do it.. no point hanging around if you can avoid it....

adhesions? Is that common after EPRC's? I did read about Asherman's.. there is someone on here wot had that and sucessfully got diffed after finding out she had it i fink.

See I am impatient and I would want answers fast...

Scorpette I had pink panther this month, then a BFP. POAS anyway. At least then you'll know for sure. Please. POAS.

scorples I'm so sorry. It is v v v hard to have this happen month after month with no sign of a baybeee. Hopefully the GP will be able to tell you more. Don't try and force yourself to the gym (the very good baby book what you recommended thinks gym plus period is A Bad Idea). There are some lovely yoga podcasts online which you might like - try here www.yogajournal.com/podcast/.

gin Am not sure about your dilemma. Have Very Important Long Meeting to go to now, but will ponder.

Shit scorpette. I can't bring myself to be cheerful because it's not the sort of thing anyone could be expected to be cheerful about. It's utterly shit and of course you shouldn't go to the bloody gym, you should spend all day being good to yourself and maybe having a gin.

It's so fucking cruel, this biz about hopes and then being knocked back. I'm only not hugging my computer screen because my boss will think I'm a menkulist.

Snogs to you. X

I know it doesn't look good, but with the norks I seriously wouldn't quite give up hope yet. You may just always have pink panther but win a baybee too. If it happened to Bessie...

Thanks, Humpster, but am ashamed to admit that flat is so small that there's no space I can do yoga in anymore. This is mainly cos we've crammed it with furniture, but heyho. Surely gym + pink panther is okay? (I see what you're doing - reverse psychology ) I ordered that good book* over a week ago and is still not fucking here . Ah well, Royal Mail will just have to take the full force of my babyfail wrath after I finish writing this.

Bessie that is fucking with my head - please to tell me more: how long did you get PP for and what was it like? Nothing is TMI when I'm grasping at straws this pathetically!

Gin, your dilemma is shit. I think my reaction would just be to cry and freak out (my default setting, as you might guess). A proper grown-up might have more constructive offerings. But I can offer you a secret cuddle

*NOT the Bible.

Scorp I truly can understand the menkul and the hormone hell just before droid makes everything worse. Can't bring self to give you violence - so take a slightly too tight hug.

Aw scorp am really sorry.it's a horrible feeling when you get all sure and then it doesn't happen. Wish I could say something to cheer you up.

iggs I found about adhesions at 1 of the scans. Stupid radiologist mentioned them but no info.stuff I've read has caused some concern. Prob is the erpcs were not really early on in pg so stuff was quite 'fixed' in there,also having 2 only month apart prob part of the prob. Internal scarring=shit as scar tissue tries to join everything it can,which as you can see is not a great idea. But I dunno how bad it is/when they decide to call it ashermans etc. I just know it's there,and as far as I can tell uterine scarring is generally not great.

Blah blah etc. Obv the fact I have had to find this out for myself as no fucker has told me nuffink doesn't help. Am now banned from google and from thinking. Hence having appt sooner may stop me going mad. Although it could be too late...!

More cuddles for scorp. besh bundle I think....

scrope do you feel droidy? Cos you usually feel droidy doncha?

Scropy - so sorry Beshie. Nothing I say will make it any less painful but am thinking of you and sending virtual bear hugs.

Gin 2 months is a long time to wait in this TTC malarky when you need to know what is going on now. I am a great fan of the NHS but if an earlier, private appointment is going to mean you worry less and get answers sooner then I say go for it.

Bessie your kid is SWEEEEEEEET!

scorps I had no updiff symptoms at all and I had very, very light spotting (ie just brown bits when I wiped - sorry, grim) for about 3 days. I was sure the droid was coming. I also had some cramps in my lower back.