30s TTC - More Gin Than George BESH

[Scorpette]

Come on in ladies, the bar is fully stocked with Advocaat, Bailey's and novelty Xmas drinkies and the slaves are wearing Ann Summer 'Santa's Hat' posing pouches. Have also festooned the place with plenty of festive tat and lots of v un-eco and tacky Xmas lights and shit because I know we all love getting Xmassy dead early. There's a fireplace so you can send your wish list to Santa up the chimbley, platters of wooden spoons and coconuts on the mantlepiece and 'Mulled Wine' scented candles lighting up The Pit of Despair. Make yourselves at home!

chochi take a really nasty kick to the shins - plus dead leg

More seriously - it ain't over etc etc... I was biggest misery ever (ask ski ) before droid due this time - and convinced of babyfail - and i was miserable about previous wd40 baybee - and i poas and got a negative - but then I did get a positive after droid due... so still chance. And if not - get drunk over xmas and recommence in new year - am convinced 2009 is not a good year x

Cho Cho it's very difficult, I wish I could think of something helpful to say. I hope it makes it a little bit easier that we are all here for you, wanting to support you where we can

[kick in face for being soppy emoticon]

chocho Can you find 5 minutes of Taggart on youtube and see if that triggers anything?

cho Big slap from me. And at the same time extremely sympathetic

It still ain't over 'till it's over. Keep peeing.

casper I got a really faint line on the ebays 2 days after implantation and really strong line a week later. They were no better or worse than more expensive ones - maybe we just had different ones. But that sort of thing is very much each to her own. To me, a -ve was better than not peeing at all because of the driving myself nuts with "maybe I am and if I juuuust POAS I would see".

Another kick in the shins from me Cho. But I agree that it aint over yet.

Thanks for the support laydeez

Ski wotchewonabaht Taggart?

I know that I have done the early poas in the past, and then been miserable only to later be pg, but I had a massive hormonal slump yesterday, so think I might be done for...but I suppose it ain't over 'til the fat driod bleeps...

Igz I know 2009 is a crap year, isn't it? I think I could have done with a 'gap' year this year...I was talking to my friend this a.m. about this...I am the boss at work, and a few of the staff have been really moany and unenthusiastic this year, even though we are always trying to improve their (pretty good) lot by working on any issues they have, and then feeding back about how we are going to resolve it - and they don't even bother turning up to the feedback meeting, it feel's like trying to drag a gang of toddlers up a hill backwards...I've been dealing with all of this, whilst on mad drugs; dealing with infertility; disappearing to the hospital every 5 mins, and having miscarriages. I get in this morning with 3 staff off (yes, that Monday morning feeling!), and I just feel like a fucking mug, surrounded by a load of petty, selfish so-and-so's! I now I feel even worse for moaning about it!!

(It'll be really embarrassing if I test updiffed on Wednesday, after all this whingeing!)

God, I'm glad I have you guys...I feel less tragic and barren that I do with RL people [rin]

well, I couldn't be left out of the violence. 'tis not over yet, so scrape that chin off the floor

ChoCho I had the usual 2WOOFL symptoms but the strange one was crying at Taggart - you know, that Scottish police drama which tugs on your heartstrings...

should have said "boot". A book would be entirely cruel and unecessary!

chochi you see - in 2010 it will be better - s'gotta be innit. As far as I can see 2009 has been good for pretty much nobody...(I seem to have friends ill/ bereaved/ miserable etc. - plus my own micarriage misery etc.)

Plus I discovered what it was like to feel tainted after i told a pregnant friend about my miscarriage and she avoided me after that

dat is why is good to talk on here - and drink virtual gin

Anyone fancy a quick mudwrestle?

tee hee Ski, I once broke down in PMT tears at the local Chinenese chip shop, to think of the chinese lad (aged about 17/18) who had to work in there every night...I imagined him stuck in when his mates were off out partying and being teenagers.

About 1 week later I saw him driving a BMW, so sympathy quickly evaporated ,

anyway...got to go, I am over chatting to my mate, Charlie Brooker, to cheer me up!

iggy wooot?? I tells you, if one is tainted by MC that pretty much taints the whole of womanhood, then.

cho LOLOL @ chinese boy. Also laughed at casper's sticking the book up. That should cheer you up. I'm so with you on the staff thing. It's so frustrating isn't it . Yer does ya best and ya gets fucked around by 'em even so. Always seems to me that the boss making a mistake is A Terrible Thing, and when an employee makes a mistake, it's just a mistake - yer know? That said, I've had some really, really crap bosses (including one who lived above the place I worked and would take the younger girls (16 or so) "upstairs" ).

Hi Iggy, yeah, I knows what you means...I suppose that people don't know what to say or do, really, you can get a bit 'defined' by it all. I have been v open with my friends and family about my travails, which is fine at the time - "it's good to talk", but then you think that when they see you months later and your still not pregnant, you might as well have TRAGIC carved into your forehead!

Carrots I should not moan, really, I just think "FFS!" from time to time...but I have not forgotten that before being a 'boss', I used to think all my previous bosses were just like Babylon an' ting! So why should they give a shit how I feel - they probably think I have got tonnes of cash, and sit at home on a throne wearing a big crown and planning on what next bit of evil I will do to them!

carrots

ref> sleazy bosses...was it Ski or Scorps who worked as a receptionist in a brothel? I imagine her with red hair piled up high in a bouffant, answering the phone with a fag hanging out of the corner of her mouth, leopard print spandex miniskirt,high-heels etc...

Aaaaah memories ChoCho!

Was it you, Ski? ha ha, I will always imagine you wearing black tights with peep toe high-heeled wedges, tee hee

Not so glam ChoCho - it was one of those sweltering humid summers in sarf-east lahndan so I was wearing dresses and wedges. Fag hanging out of my mouth when answering the phone is true though.

When the police raided us one of the "girls" was wearing just a pair of knick-knacks and thigh-high PVC boots. She claimed she was dressed like that because it was hot.

(((ChoCho)))

curly, came off the pill in June, had a month on condoms to find out my cycle after 10 years on the pill, and dismayed to find I have a 6 week cycle! It's been pretty regular since, and the ov was confirmed by stick last month and I had the same symptoms at the same time this month, so pretty regular, just too bloody long!

Thanks Meds

Gosh - it's ironic - we would have all felt blessed to have 6 week cycles before TTC, wouldn't we? But, now, what a draaaag! Can you take anything for it Medee

ChoCho - get you and your new bessie mate Charlie Brooker! Hope it has cheered you up a little bit?

Oh bother,

I have just looked at some of my old posts and seen that I had what I described as a 'despressive slump' the day before m/c, just like I had yesterday.

What with that, and having had really sore boobs the other day and feeling really pg until Saturday, I wonder if something started happening this month, and then failed afterall?

Lovely, grumpy Charlie Brooker.

No idea, CC, if it doesn't happen this month, I'll be looking into various things, like CBFM and the like, so might investigate what I can do to shorten my cycle.

Well I can maybe join you in the babyfail

I just gave in and bought an 'early response' test. Negative. Boo.

Yah Boo, Bessie,

how early did you test ?

Early, droid is due on Saturday. But the test said I could do it today [pouts]