BLOODY HELL - literally! Me and TYF did the dirty a few hours ago; not the world's most boisterous shag but v. nice, lots of cuddles and silly talk after, etc. Anyway, about half an hour ago, we were just getting ready for bed and we noticed there were massive drying blood stains on his side of the bed! He doesn't have any cuts, burst spots, whatever, anywhere, and is right where his privates would be when laid on his side. He's found that his foreskin retracts back quite a lot during/after sex now we're not using condoms and it hurts a little bit afterwards to pull it back into place, but he's never worried about it. Anyway, he was dog-tired and refused to check his penis and wouldn't let me look (he's v private and otherwise annoyingly prudish outside of sexy shenanigans). He said his cock had stung slightly for a few mins after sex, but nothing weird and he had a shower before bed and it didn't hurt him when he washed it (although he had forgotten the brief pain and was on autopilot when washing, so wasn't looking out for anything). Am quite worried now that he's ripped his frenulum or something - I know him well enough to know that if it has, he will be scared to have sex for ever ages, but wouldn't see a Dr or talk about it with me. Am worried of course that it will hurt him and as well as not wanting it to hurt, poor thing, am scared it'll stop him from coming - and Ov is nigh! Cannot believe that he might be out of action just when I'm about to get my egg on! What if he needs @ a week to heal - in other words, during my most fertile time? Also annoyed he refuses to even look at it - if I had bled profusely from my genitalia for the first time, I wouldn't be able to just drift off happily to sleep!
Am worried, cos years ago, I had a boyfriend who had totally ripped his frenulum as a teen and unprotected sex hurt him so much he could only perform wearing a condom and in certain positions and quite gently. But he said he was in agony for days when it happened, so I dunno what's going on with T poor YF, as it's not really hurt him. I might've been a bit dry (used some preseed but on outside only), but how much damage could that do, exactly?!
Sorry for a long, self-absorbed crazylady rant. It's just that he is so shy and soooo pointlessly avoidant of anything that makes him feel even the slightest bit uncomfortable that I know he is perfectly capable of totally refusing to SWI because of this. And I don't mean this month, I mean for good.
Anyway, too tired now, must go to bed. I really hope it wasn't anything major. And above all, I hope we'll be able to SWI when I'm OVing. Heartless or pragmatic - YOU decide!
PS The blood also got onto my v swanky and expensive Habitat duvet cover, which I've had for years and never got so much as a pinprick of blood on, even during my heaviest R2D2s, so grrrr