TTC #4 - Join the madness... If you dare!!

[babyblue3]

Ok Ladies... new thread, since the old one was getting too long and dragging my computer (and Kat's) down with it!

MrsD - cant believe you are 30 weeks already! So you found that cutting out the lactose helps? It will be almost a week for me and I have noticed some improvement, but not a lot. Of course, he is still getting a milk-based formula supplement to the BFing. I am going to switch to a soy formula and see if it makes a difference as well. Until then... God give me strength!!! LOL

I am adding myself to the list so I don't feel left out

CARROTS
Scorps EDD Xmas Day DD2

FORMER CARROTS!
Babyblue DC4 born July 28/09

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Scorps EDD Xmas Day DD2
Katnkittens EDD 15/05/10

FORMER CARROTS!
Babyblue DC4 born July 28/09

I woke up to brown spotting this morning. I panicked! Been crying for the last hour worrying, dh said I'm jumping the gun as I've had brown bleeding in pregnancy before. Just been to the loo again and I have bright red blood. Not much but some. I was just going to ring the EPU, no point now I suppose!

I don't know what to do with myself....I'm preparing myself that this is it...I feel like I've let my dh down.

I don't understand this, I was sick yesterday!!! I just don't understand???

Just going to rest and see what happens now. I know I didn't expect this BFP so soon but now it's happened I really wanted this baby to stick. I'm wondering what I've done wrong, was it the breastfeeding or would it have happened anyway. I'm praying the bleeding stops but I know I can't control this.

Dh is home today and is looking after me, I'm in bed with my feet up. I have a massive headache and I feel like my heart has been shattered. I must remember that I have 3 beautiful children and we will be blessed with another when the time is right. I don't have any pain down there at all, no back ache nothing. I just don't know what to think, I just know that red blood loss is not good.

I had massive red blood loss when I lost DS2's twin so maybe just maybe I still have a baby pip in there? I just don't know, clutching at straws now. I'll update as soon as anything changes.

Sorry for 'me' post wanted to let you girls know whats going on. I'll be ok whatever happens, what will be will be I'm just in shock, I thought this baby was a keeper.

oh you poor thing

When I mc (at 5+3) i had bad tummy cramps before the bleeding started, it happened quite quickly actually. My tummy swelled up too.

I think at this early stage its best to stay at home or pop to the GPs. Mine were very symapthetic. Keep your chin up.

You have done nothing wrong at all. nothing. You are not letting oyur DH down if you do lose your bean, it's 'just' nature iyswim.

Easy for me to say now, i know where oyu are in your mind right now, but please know it is not your fault.

I've just come home from seeing my GP. He was so lovely. He checked my bp and pulse to check I hadn't had significant blood loss which I haven't. He checked my urine which had white blood cells in it, it suggests an infection of some kind, probably a urine infection or thrush. The Dr said that can cause localised bleeding in the vagina. I have no tenderness by my pelvis which is a good sign. He said he's 99.9% sure that I'm NOT miscarrying but I have to have a scan to find out if all is ok. I have an appointment for a scan at the EPU tomorrow morning. I asked if there was any point going if my bleeding worsens, he said yes and if it gets bad overnight I will have to be admitted for observation (I thought that was a bit dramatic but I think he was considering my blood loss in the past).

I feel more hopeful now but I'm so scared!

The nurse joked that when she had bleeding with her 3rd pregnancy, she went for a scan and it was twins......at that point I let out a little nervous laugh...lol!

Hang in there baby pip!!! We want you to be ok.xxx

Thankyou for all your support, it means the world to me. xxxx

That sounds all positive, what the GP said. TBH i knew mine was a mc straight away, it was horrendously painful and my tummy was so sore.

Hang on in there x

Means - I am with Scorps on this one. When I MC, I had horrendous cramps for a good hour before the bleeding started. And there was no brown blood either... I filled the toilet with blood (sorry TMI). There was no mistaking what was happening. I spotted early on with 2 of my pregnancies. Those times is was brown blood and both times the babies were fine. Try to think positive until your scan tomorrow. Makes you realize just how attached we get to our little beans... even this early on! I just about had a breakdown at Marco's first scan when all they found was the empty sac. Glad your DH seems supportive and is taking good care of you today.

And dont EVER think this is something you have done! My doc told me I was due for a MC when mine happened, since statistically 1 in 5 pregnancies end in MC. Anyway... we are here for you for support, since we have all been through this. Dont worry about long ME posts either... again... thats what we are here for! xxx

Means - I hope you are taking comfort from the messages here, the lack of cramping is a good sign. Bleeding in early pregnancy is surprisingly common, and it can mean all kinds of things that do not mean miscarriage. So I hope that you get some rest and are able to not worry too much about the scan tomorrow. I hope that things look ok tomorrow on the scan too, as early scans are not reliable and i would hate it to worry you further. I will be thinking of you tomorrow.

Thankyou girls, you are all so lovely!

I feel beeter this afternoon, just very light pink spotting now. I'm prepared that the scan tomorrow probably won't show a hb yet just hoping everything else is as it should be and that it all ties in woth my dates. I'm nervous.

How's everyone else's day been?

Phew, good to hear that the bleeding is stopping meansbeans.
i am focussed on work at the moment and so thankfulling getting distracted from mn and ftc.

Kats and sweetkitty, how are you both doing?

Babyblue - hows the routine going?

LOL... the closest I have to a routine right now, is knowing I wont be sleeping! LOL. Marco usually goes to sleep between 10-11pm. He is then up by 7am with varying amount of feeds in between (last night I was up 3 times, but only once the night before). He then has a nap at 10am for 2-3 hours. After that, anyones guess. Lately, he only cat naps during the day, which means I dont get much done. During the morning nap is when I take the kids to the park. This morning, no park, instead got dinner thrown into the crock pot, did some of the washing, paid some bills, made the bed... lol... more than I have managed in a while! LOL. Have neighbour coming over for tea, and she is a neat freak, so I have to make the house look clean!!

Hi guys, I'm fine, 6 weeks tomorrow. Went with my friend for her 20 week scan today.. was so lovely, the first time I've been for a scan that wasn't mine!

Meanbeansmum, sending you lots of hugs, I left a msg for you on the 'other' place.

xxxx

Hi...not good at the epu. They couldn't find anything. Dd a pg test, it was positive, so now I have a pg in an unknown location so I've had bloods, need more on Sunday to see if I have m/c or to see if it's ectopic type rises or if it's doubling and my pg is just very early (which I know it's not).

I'm gutted! I can't tell you how upsetting it is to look at a positive pregnancy test but to be told there's nothing there.

Katnkittens, I will miss not being your virtual pg bud. I am so upset. Thankyou all for being here for me.xxx

Means - sorry to hear that the epu did not give any reassurance. I hope that the situation is answered on sunday for you. It is a tough time.

My HCG level on friday was 344 and progesterone was 5.6 (really low). My spotting has stopped. I think I may be another week or so before I can get proper closure.xxx

Night all, bloods again tommorrow...oh joy!

meanbeans - what can I say? Life is such a bitch sometimes, take care and I hope you get your closure and are on another antenatal thread soon.

However sad my mc made me, if it weren't for it I wouldn't have my beautiful little angel and we were so meant to have her. I know little comfort right now, take care of yourself.

I'm OK 7 weeks today feeling like I have a constant hangover, going to try and blag a scan next week when I'm 8 weeks.

Very sorry to hear the news Means... hang in there. I feel the same way as SK.I feel sad whenever I think about the lil peanut I lost... but then think that I wouldn't have my Marco right now if it werent for what happened. Hopefully everything gets sorted quick and you can start moving forward.

Glad everyone else is doing well.... and glad (no disrespect intended) that its not ME feeling the never-ending hangover, etc. That is one part of being pg I wont miss. And considering it went on for 5 months for the last 2 pregnancies, I'd say it was a very big part!

We got the best sleep in ages last night. My lil Marco slept from 10pm until 5am, ate, then back to sleep from 5:30 until 9:30!!

Just quietly poking my head round the door as we're ttc dc 4. I'm not in a rush to get pg and trying to stay chilled about it- especially as it's not always been easy with the others....losses etc. I'm due to Ovulate sometime during this next week.....I've never got pg first try though!

I feel slightly nervous that 4 dc could be crazy. However we both feel it's right for us and well although we're not loaded we have enough money and more importantly and abundance of love and patience to go round

Very sorry to hear the news Means. I hope you're getting lots of support and help this w/e. It's such an awful feeling

Welcome redtent

Means - how are you feeling today? Did you get your blood test results?

Been a rough weekend for me. DH driving me crazy with his rotten mood. Kids driving me crazy with all the crying and bickering. Sigh... I would like a moments peace to do some things on my own, but apparently thats not going to happen. I wish DH would understand that in order to have a happy household, you need a happy mummy. And in order for mummy to be happy, I need time (even an hour) to recharge my patience/sanity!!!

Sorry for the rant... just tired

Hi Red join in the madness! Some of us have our fourth now, others pg, others ttc.

Means - so sorry. Keep strong. You can ttc again straight away; i did and got pg straight away. I know this doesnt help now, but it happened for a reason. I thought better this way, than a child and a family situation i know i would struggle with (a disablility). You will be fine

Babyblue - bloody soddign bastarding men.

SK - urgghh god i hate the early weeks. Even nicer when your 'D'H is of with some 19yr old. I'm still really cross.

Hi ladies

I HATE these early weeks.. I'm so sodding paranoid, everytime I go to the loo I'm filled with dread, I'm not feeling too awful so of course feeling paranoid about that.. I don't know why I'm surprised, I never had morning sickness just odd bouts of nausea. My boobs aren't DEAD sore but my nips are ridiculous!
Plus I keep getting cramps (normal for me up until even 14 weeks) but it's increasing my paranoia.. sigh....

6+2 today yey.. only another 6 weeks of this to go

red welcome to the madness, we are a lovely bunch

meanbean how are you feeling? After my 1st m/c I fell pregnant the next month

bb blokes are useless, I've been snapping at mine this weekend and he's actually not too bad

scorps how far along are you now?

rainbow where are youuuuuu? Hope everything is ok

kat - it sucks doesn't it? My boobs never have much of areaction until 15 ish weeks, i just feel icky and so very utterly tired for the first 14 weeks!

This pregnancy i ignored until my 13 week scan, TBH. I feel bad to her now, but it was a self preservation thing. Hour by hour, day by day i went.

I'm 26+3 today. I am getting a good size bump now and am actually suprised how far along i am.

I'm having a few issues though . I don't feel all that bonded to her , i think its cos my first 16 weeks were horrid (DH was horrid to me about tiredness, even though he was cheating the whole time etc). Then he actually met up with her, at 15 weeks, at which point we had an ace month until i found out. So the last 7 weeks, have just been so focussed on that and my marriage i seem to have no brain room. I feel like he had already started his 'affair' with her halfway through March; i got pg v end of march, discovered 20 april (ish). He knew he was cheating but yet i didnt; i didnt have a choice did i, i thought we were ttc as a couple, a partnership, now i feel stuck. He knew we were ttc, i always have got very open and very clear 'consent' to iyswim. Not even seeing my little smidge on scan stopped him. He swore on her life that he wasnt doing anything, at one point i got suspicious. I am left wondering how my marriage will work out, how im going to cope with 4dc when i feel almost depressed. I am left wondering how i can laze around being all chubby and postnatal when its obvious he always has one eye open. I want to feel safe, looked after, in tune with my pg. Out of my 5 pregnancies, one i was 16 and scared; one DH was abusive towards me and had to attend DA counselling; dc3 pg was amazing, lovely. pg4 = mc and pg5 = DH ruined it. I don't understand any of it at all. I'm scared of the future i think, and i have a 'countdown' to fit to now, with this baby due.

scorps - oh poor you, feel like wringing his neck for you, I honestly don't know how some men can do it, be off with someone else then come home to their wife and family and be all great towards them I had some real heavy stuff happen when I was pregnant with DD2, felt like I didn't enjoy my pregnancy at all but bonded with her straight away and loved her to bits. You need to focus on taking care of yourself and your new LO, don't allow him to ruin it for you. Don't know what else to say really

katnkittens - know exactly how you are feeling, I'm 7+2 today, have a scan booked for week on Friday, won't be happy until I feel this LO kicking though. I'm totally shattered and constantly feeling sick all the time too.

babyblue - am not surprised you are tired, men just don't think do they, sometimes you just have to tell them "I am going out for an hour YOU are in charge, bye!" and go.

redtent - welcome to the madness

Scorps - don't worry about not bonding with your baby right away. You have other things distracting you right now, but when she comes, that will change. I didn't bond with DS1 until later in the pregnancy as well. We had so many issues with that pg (spotting and bleeding from 8 weeks until 18 weeks), that I was too afraid to bond for fear that it was going to end in MC anyway. Once the scare was over, the bond became so strong it was almost as if I was making up for lost time. I am sure it will be that way with you as well. You are a mum already... that instinct is already deeply ingrained. Just relax and take care of yourself and all will be fine. As for your DH, thats a decision you will have to face sooner or later. Have you two tried counselling?? Hopefully your family supports you no matter what you decide. And feel free to vent with us anytime.