Emmsy's onwards and upwards! xxx

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For all of us who have shared so much, tears, hopes, laughter and dreams. May our friendships stay strong and as healthy as we all our.
Here is to our happy ending...we deserve it
Love Barbie x

yeah!!! 4ever welcome home! missed ya but glad you had a good holiday,tanned and half table danced. It must have been brill to have time of with dh after such a shit year.
Yes that is weird with the trisomy, I think that all 4 of mine were the same only because all 4 pregnancies were just so much the same. I am going to see about genetic counceling stuff next week.
But anyway sticky thoughts for you then, its horrible coming home and having post holiday blues and bumping into pregnant friends, (sorry I lurk) still sweetie a day back at work and then a nice sunny weekend.xx

Thanks mermaid hon.. Shouldnt be saying this on this site but am a bit teary because my ex manager just took me to a corner & told be she is PG and actually has my edd . Thats 3 girls at work & my mate. Ex manager was like 'want to tell you cos know its hard for you and blah blah blah' and I just stood there with a fixed grin fighting back tears saying congratulations. This is so shit mermaid. My soul is so damaged I dont know I'll ever recover. Papering cracks is a constant & keeping busy works, so I think hol was too much time to think and I do feel quite low (& that was b4 speaking to PG mate & hearing about manager with MY due date. .

Sorry ladies co sknow this is an onwards & upwards site and I have posted down thoughts on old site and tried to be upbeat on here but oh well....

Hey 4ever, good to see you and glad you had a nice hol. It's ok to feel low and tell us, we are here to help pick you up again. So are you on the 2ww then, that is very exciting and anxious too I know, but we are all here holding your hand xxx

ffs have you got a flashing light on your head directing all pregnant women to be in your office at one time????
I already got told off by barbie for being down on this thread - we have been with each other for a long time and we all understand exactly the agony of papering over the cracks again and again. Don't ever apologise, you are and have been so strong, you are allowed to wobble sometimes, Love you heaps.x

4ever there is no such thing as onwards and upwards after MC. It's more like onwards and upwards then downwards and sideways, and hopefully onwards and upwards again Just remember it's friday, and although it won't fix everything, at least you can get out of work and away from all those girls who don't even realise how lucky they are. You are right to be aprehensive, how could you not be after what you've been through but things will get better honey. I know they will xxx

Any news on Lionstar yet?

Ooh Mermaid, I'm on day 13!! Not that I'm being competitive or anything . Now back to business, must remember to change out of disgusting DIY teeshirt and into something a leeeeeeeeeetle bit more seductive

mermaid did i tell you off??? sorry if i did oh my gosh now i feel really bad

im re reading the whole thread now to see where i caused an upset.....

Thank you mermaid vjay and curly.. I just sobbed to DH about it too..I feel bad on vjay and oth PG Emmsys ladies having such awful bump envy, but its RL bump envy, cos on here I know what you've been through and how cherished and lucky you know you are to be PG again and I wish the very best sticky healthy thoughts for you, in RL its hard cos PG ladies are so blase and dont have a clue how much its ripping into my heart to talk to them about it and see it, and that they are sailing through, drinking, smoking and with no care.. I do think all the strong bravado polyfilla came away on hol cos DH knows the reality, i put on the strong brave exterior for about 18 hrs of the day in RL when at work and seeing family & friends and if you act somthing long enough you become it. On hol I didnt need to act strong and brave an now all my polyfillas come away and I'm a big crumbly mess....

NO barbie sorry I didn't mean you told me off like you, you have been a bad girl - just that you told me never to worry, sorry, silly typed words and no expression in them

oh my god i was in tears there, trying to skim through the thread to see where i had upset you.....honestly i would die if i ever upset any of you...my eyes are stinging now and dh is wondering why im crying!

by the way 4ever im glad you are back.....going to dry tears now be back later

4Ever - welcome back. I'm glad you had a good holiday and it really is better to let the polyfilla fall out and let the emotions out through the cracks, otherwise they fester inside you

Since my MC in Nov, FOUR PG ladies have started working in my office, and three of them are due within days of my EDD in May. I was (I think) a little rude to one of the ladies who I first encountered in early Dec - couldn't even look at her once I saw her bump and had to leave the office in tears when she was comparing 20 week scan pics with other PG colleagues.

However, she's been so friendly regardless that I ended up apologising to her and explaining about my emotions having been a little raw. It seems easier now I've spoken about it at work, and she really seems to understand. Because she is at the stage I would have been (30 wks yesterday ), I am finding myself very curious about what she is going through, even what pram choices she is making Not sure that is entirely healthy in isolation, but I think it has definitely helped to talk to her about MC rather than just running away from her bump.

Don't know if that helps a little or I am rambling

xx

oh lets all just go to the bloody pub, its friday its sunny we could all sit in the garden.... oh barbie I feel awful now, my head is in a bucket!
4ever just hold on sweetie, don't feel bad it makes it all so much worse and its ok to have bump envy, we all face it and sometimes we can deal with it and other times we can't. I'm scared to write anything else now in case that comes out wrong too

ha ha what are we all like, my tears are dried and i would love to come to the pub with you all!!!

Bloody females and hormones eh?

Ahh jools its nice to know i'm not alone. I will be open about my feelings to them when feeling a bit sronger..

mermaid barbie I agree lets go to the pub - mines a triple vodka & lime!

I love you girlys sooooooooooooooooooooo much! You are my lifeline and god bless you all xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx a million more hugs and kisses to you all xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

I am off work now - half day, off to food shop with DH after our virtual pub crawl! Come on im buying the first round xxxxxxxxxxxx

4ever and jools thankfully left work but remember the girl i told you about who turned 18 and found she was 16 weeks pregnant? well her due date is a few days after mine and i cant help but look on her fb page everyday, grrrrrr why do we do it. I still stare at bumps all the time, although thankfully i dont do the whole pointing and telling dh every time i see one now I dont think we will ever get over this adn sometimes paper over the cracks is the best we can do, however as long as we can talk about things on here i think we can keep ourselves healthy and not go too mad. Keep writting whatevr you like, we are here through the good and the bad, thats what friends are for arent they. And you girls are my friends, you know me more than anyone and i tell you everything..........

You lovely girlies, I know how hard it is seeing other bumps and hearing others news I was totally the same, so I am holding all your hands through this....mines and orange juice please

I'm definitely up for going to the pub. I'm thinking I might have some pims, feeling all summery Barbie I consider you all my friends as well. Funny isn't it, I've got some great RL friends but can't talk to them half the time. But you girls, you're always there

Hang in there 4ever Buy some lovely food and some nice wine and enjoy the things that you won't be able to have when you're pregnant. I wish I could give you a massive hug honey. Maybe those of us in London should meet up, like MM and Barbie and Blue I'd love to meet you Scamper and Sabs in RL.

And then we should go up North and have a giant MN meetup... and then maybe Dubai

Well I'm not IN London and work locally these days, but I'm only 20 mins away from St Pancras on a fast train :D

anyone worried about lion? ive been checking all day and its getting late here so i guess ill have to go to bed without hearing from her, but i hope she is ok

Is she working today, maybe she can't get on here untill she gets home.

By the way, I've not sat here refreshing the page all day, I have been doing other stuff too

ha ha me to vjay! lets hope that she is working and will get on later, its a good night from me though....all this sun is tiring! (up early for the doc and a mammoth drive on my own, yikes!)

Night night barbie, will be thinking of you tomorrow, and you will be fine on the drive, I know it xx