Start clomid tomorrow. Just read leaflet and I'm scared

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Hello

This is my first post on Mumsnet although I've been reading the conception threads avidly.

I'm due to start Clomid tomorrow and I've just been reading the lengthy side effects and now I've gone from excited to really scared.

Are they really that bad? I'm having visions of myself in a darkened room with pencils up my nose!

Any reasurances would be greatly appreciated. Headaches and hot flushes I can cope with. Insanity I can't.

Haven't tested yet so don't get excited.

Feeling really low this evening for some reason and just can't sum up courage to test because feel like I will fall in to some abyss if it's negative. I know it's only my first round of clomid so should just chill the hell out and do the test but I just keep thinking that af is imminent and would prefer to find out that way than the other.

Was supposed to be out tonight watching DP do a set at a local music festival but my step Grandad had to go to hospital so my mum couldn't baby sit. Took DP to town, forgot to get keys off him so got home and had to go all the way back to town again to get them. By the time I got home the cakes DS and I had made were burnt to a frazzle. Then, after feeling happy that I finally got something nutritious in to my DS after days of custard and toast, he projectiled over my new carpet and then insisted on being cuddled for ages (which was the best bit -even if he did smell of sick) so the stain was well and truly settled by the time I got to cleaning it up.

Bloody hell - I am in a mood this evening. Sorry for that rant.

Issy- Can you try IVF with donated sperm as well?

Vic - I know it's hard to believe now but your sister in law will be congratulating you one day soon.

Ray - I was just reading through this thread and was thinking how amazing it is that you've got your long awaited BFP. I'm not religious myself but I think someone somewhere must be watching over you because you sounded at the end of your tether in that thread you posted before you found out you were preg and the next thing - there you are with your dream come true.

Maybe it's twins!!!!!!!

Will summon up the courage to test soon I'm sure and when I do I promise(other than DP) you'll be the first to know. xxxx

Hey guys,

So scared i tested again this morn and test is realy realy faint. Does that meant that my hormones have dropped? oh god i am so so so scared what shall i do?

Ray - I read somewhere that line strength doeans't mean anything, but even so I would get your bloods checked asap. Have you called your GP/hospital?

Fingers crossed for you hun xxx

Hi Ray,

Issey is right, pop to the hospital. I'm sure all will be fine and it just means your urine is more diluted than when you last tested or something simple like that.

Please try not to worry, probably a really silly explanation.

Take care and let us know how you get on.

Vic x x x

Oh God Ray you poor thing.I'm sure it'll be absolutely fine and it's something simple like the girls say. I'm really really thinking of you and sending you all the luck in the world. Please post soon to let us know you're ok.

Got a negative yesterday. Felt sick with dissapointment because despite myself I really really thought that it had worked this month.

Still haven't had my period, still got sore boobs and feeling more depressed than ever now.

I just don't understand what's going on. I had a scan on day 12 (Monday) that said my three folicles were 14mm, I had what I thought was fertile CM on the Thursday and my boobs started hurting on that Saturday night (I think). I'm now CD34 and I think 19 days PO. If I'd ovulated sureley my luteal phase would be shorter than that. I don't know what's wrong!!!!

I used the Clear Blue digital kit so can't even hold out hope of a cheapy being wrong. The only thing I did wrong was hold it in the urine sample for just over 5 seconds instead of 20 as it said because I read the instructions wrong in my nervousness. But it definately came up with a not pregnant instead of a failed test sign.

Oh well. Suppose I just have to sit tight and wait patiently for AF.

Issy - did you test again?

God this is all so stressful.

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Hi all,

Summer I totally know what you mean, It's all very stressful. Do you think the stress of it all might be preventing the BFP's we all crave? I dunno, just seems soooo difficult sometimes.

Ray, thinking about you lovely, let us know whatever happens. We are all here for you, think I speak for everyone on this thread when I say that.

Positive thoughts your way.

V x x x x

Summer i would retest with fmu and hold in for longer, if you had delayed implantation hcg count could have been low so worth trying again ((hugs))

Ray hope all is ok, have you managed to get an appt, try not to worry and let us know biggest ((((((hugs)))))

hi guys,

went to hosp yesterday and they did a test and was neg, they also did a scan and nothing on there either. they have done bloods and they should be in this morn so will call me when they know but they think probably delayed MC. (sobs) FFS what is up with me it happened the same with the last 2 mc, hormones are there and all is fine then they disappear over about a week and then i lose at 6 weeks. The only consolation is that now if i def lose this one then they will do investigations.

I can honestly say at the moment that i cannt do this again it has taken 4 years to get here just to have more disappointment and dispair i cannot do this anymore. I give up.

Summermagic, any news? have you done another test ? i'm keeping my fingers crossed for you all the time.

Pinkie how are you getting on ?

any news on you vics?

and issy hows this month going?

come on guys give us your stories to take my mind off my bad luck.

Hi Ray,

I am so sorry , at least you will get the investigations done, they did them on me years ago before dd due to recurrent mcs.

The other side is that you need to wait for next test to be sure its not there. My dd is now 8 and she too wasnt seen on an early scan (at about your stage i was about 5 weeks) and all they saw was swollen uterus. i waited 10 days and then there she was so keep the faith you never know.
big hugs and have some chocy (handing you biggest bar of favourite choc everrr)

I am day 12 -ive on OPKs but didnt go +ive til day 14 so waiting patiently and my right ovary seems to be saying hello since yesterday evening.

I am starting Clomid today, day 3 -7 I need to take them. This probably sounds really stupid but when am I supposed to ovulate? i.e when is the best time to try to conceive is it the same as normal? I always thought it was days 10 - 14 but some places say 13 - 17 and I have just read 21?
I have 28 day cycle dead on.

Also have read about blood tests but my doctor just said see you in 6 months if not before in ante natal - do you always get blood tests?

I am 37 and have 2 teenagers from previous marriage - Help!!!!!!!!

Sorry completely new to this the message was sort of in response to the first message of the 'thread??' - feel like I've inturupted you guys - sorry!

Hey newherehelp dont say sorry for interrupting all welcome, we really quite friendly.

I not sure about the lack of blood tests, they usually test in the first month on day 21 to check that the dose has made you ovualte and then they leave you to it. If its not they may change the dose.

I have taken mine on one cycle at night and another during the day. Some say that taking at night lessens the side effects as you sleeping through them.

I have been lucky and not had many side effects so hasnt mattered too much.

Thanks for that, do you use the ovulation kits to help pin point ovulation?

Can't write a proper post as am at work, but just wanted to say fingers crossed for you both Ray and summermagic and I hope you both get some good news - you both so deserve some.

I'm out AF arrived today.

Welcome new people to the thread.

Will post properly soon.

Hi guys,

heard from the hosp and bloods came back at 30 and should be about 1000 or more so not looking good, they are going to repeat bloods tomorrow but they dont think it will come to anything.

I dont get this there is something from with my body.Mt hormones just arent working properly and they have told me they wont so anything at all until i have lost this one, i am so so angry that they are just going to sit and watch me lose without doing anything how can they so that i want to know how they can do that. The last 2 MC i had happened exactly the same as this one is it just me or isnt that clear that there is somthing wrong with my body controlling the hormones.

I feel numb one minute and then angry and then in depair and then just so so so tired. I hate life at the moment why me why do these things happen to me what have i ever done thats so so wrong to deserve this. Please someone just tell me so i can put it right.

Ray,

Sorry to hear that, I know I am new here and at a totally different place to you right now but try and stay strong. When you reach your goal it will be all the more precious.

Take care.

Jx

Hi Ray,

It is awful and i have been through the recurrent miscarriage thing before dd . be positive though, although they cant do anything for this, they will start all those great tests.

Way back when it was happening to me someone suggested that i was mcing boys and i should change my diet re all the info on conceiving girls and time it to girls. you would need to read up on it as i dont remember it properly.

Anyway i was so despondent i didnt really bother and just gave up. The interesting bit was that when i did carry to term without any upsets through the pg it was a girl, so maybe give the stuff a read and see what you think. Be brave the clomid works for you and you can get pg, we just need it to stick.

lots of (((hugs))) and am passing you more chocy.

Newherehelp

Yes i do ovulation predictors - i think a lot do. I gave up the temping thing as one way or another it wasnt happening for me.

I tend to use the clearblue digital ones as it says on the box you can use them with clomid.

You tend to ov anything from 6 -9 days after your last tablet. Mine was 8days later last month as finish my tablets on day 6 and got a +ive on day 14 and looks like it will be around there again this month as cd13 and not had a +ive yet.

I also had bloods on day 21 of first month to check progesterone, LH and FSH levels.

Hey pinkie,

thanks for the words of encouragment i need it at the mo.

Have been on the internet checking out HCG levels and for someone at 5 weeks it should be anywhere between 18 and 7000something or other mine came back at 30 and i am just on 5 weeks today and bloods were done yesterday so maybe some hope yet!!! i do hope so. hospital worked out from last Af but if you go from conception it would only be like 18 days and my LF is 16 so perhaps things arent so bad after all. I never should have tested early i am a silly cow i should have waited.

We will know more when bloods come back tomorrow if my hormones double then that is a very good sign and if they dont we know what that means.

I'll keep you all updated.

Hi all,

Oh Ray, I am so sorry to hear what's going on. You are right to remain positive. Never give up hope. Make sure you let us all know, we are rooting for you x x

Hi Pinkie and NHH, nice to meet you Welcome to the thread, hope it helps you and encourages you as much as it does me.

Summer - where are ya and, more importantly, how are ya?? x x

I'm OK.

V x x x x

Hi Issey too sorry lovely, away with the fairies. Hope you are OK x x x

Thanks for all the welcome message and info, this place is great.

OMFG Ray. That is so so unfair. I'm so sorry that you're going through this. I can only imagine how you must be feeling.

The only words of encouragement I have is that you are obviously much stronger than you think. I'm only on my first round and am already feeling totally despondent. I have everything crossed for this pregnancy for you but (and please don't think I'm being rutheless by saying this) at least if the worst happens they are going to look in to it and if they can fix that bit out then you're in a really good position because you know you can get pregnant.

I know you must be on a really low ebb right now but please don't give up.

Hia Newherehelp and Pinkie. Sorry you've joined us when we're at such a low ebb. I've got to say that this thread has been a massive support to me over the last month. My DP does try but he always manages to say exactly the wrong thing bless his heart. Good luck with this month.

I didn't have any side effects in my first two weeks but post ovulation did get some symptoms that very cruelly mimicked PG symptoms eg weeing a lot, cramping, back ache (none of which I usually get with AF) plus the normal AF symptoms like sore boobs and moodiness.

Issy - Sorry about AF. I'm out too. Bastarding AF arrived this afternoon but horrible depressive feelings haven't subsided yet. I'm not brilliant in winter anyway and I think it's making the stress of it all get to me more.

Will check in again soon. Thanks all of you for wishing well for me.

So (apart from you Ray who I've got everything crossed that you won't be) we're all gack in the game for a December BFP??!!

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Ray - sending you lots of positive vic

Hello everyone, sorry for my short post earlier - work getting in the way. Welcome Pinkie and Newherehelp.

Ray - I really hope that you get good news tomorrow - am so willing that everything will be OK for you. It must be so so scary for you. I'll be thinking of you. Please don't beat yourself up for testing early, it's so difficult not to.

Summermagic - so sorry AF arrived for you today too, but the silver lining of that cloud is that it's nice to be on the same cycle day together for next time. It will probably be my last attempt though, which is scary.

Hi Vic - hope you are well.

Newherehelp - I use ov sticks - the clearblue non-digitals as that's what the hospital give me. The only thing I would say is that even though they say they can be used first thing, sometimes I have a negative then and a positive later in the day. In terms of when to ov, I took mine on days 2-6 this time and ov'd on day 11, but that was forced with hcg as I had such large follicles on my day 9 scan, so probably would have been day 12 without the kick start.

Take care everyone and really hope you have better news tomorrow Ray xxx.

Hey guys,

have had bloods taken at 10 so am now waiting for the results. God this is awful i hate it, i'm so scared that everything is going to go so terribly wrong like it has before but there is this little voice that keeps saying ' it will be alright it realy will' and then i just dash it down as nothing ever seems to go right for us and why should this time be different.
The good news is that i am not bleeding so that must be a good sign that hormones are all still there but are they increasing as they should is the question?? sometimes i wonder if people who find out when they are 6 months have the right idea at least they dont have this worry.

Summermagic, so sorry Af arrived on you i was so so hoping that there would be another BFP on this thread this month. Why dont you try the sperm meets egg plan, me and DH ultered it a bit and Bd on CD 8 10 12 and then twice on Cd 14 15 16 and 18. I had my +ive on Opk on CD14 so thats why we went for twice a day. This may also sound so silly but i had showers instead of baths as i was thinking maybe baths would wash some away. Whichever one it was it worked in helping us fall so if this all fails at least i know to do that again and maybe it will work again but maybe worth a try for you summer you never know.

Good luck to you to issy, vics, pinkie and newherehelp lots of baby dust your way and perhaps you should all try the above too. I am so hoping for all of you.

Will keep you updated when i get my results back. Preparing for bad news though.