Start clomid tomorrow. Just read leaflet and I'm scared

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Hello

This is my first post on Mumsnet although I've been reading the conception threads avidly.

I'm due to start Clomid tomorrow and I've just been reading the lengthy side effects and now I've gone from excited to really scared.

Are they really that bad? I'm having visions of myself in a darkened room with pencils up my nose!

Any reasurances would be greatly appreciated. Headaches and hot flushes I can cope with. Insanity I can't.

Hi Vics, welcome. Preg tests that work early only a detect a certain percentage of pregnancies early. It usually says somewhere on the box what that is. I've never used a 6-day early one but the 4-day early ones are something along the lines of only 55% pregnancies detected on day -4.

So try again in a few days and fingers crossed for you xxx.

Pussin - I always thought day 1 was first day of full flow before 6pm, unless you're taking clomid and then it's first dull day of full flow.

I need your help this month in finding the strength not to test early. I know I'll crack but am going to try really hard not to.

full not dull

Hi Issy,

Thanks. I just saw six days early and decided I'd give it a go. It actually means five days early, and, like you said, only 62 percent accuracy on that day. I am so impatient!! That is the hardest part I think. I will never be able to wait, but there is no point doing an early test just to get an inaccurate result. So roll on Friday!!!

V x

Hi Vics

Friday is the big day for me too. Ray is Thursday I think and Issy - doesn't it work out week Wednesday for you? God this waiting is unbearable isn't it?

Still weeing more than usual but strangely, sore boobs have become less sore over the past few days. Anyone have any idea whether increased urination could just be a clomid side effect? Had it since Thursday and just thinking surely that would be too early to be a pg sign.

Sorry Pussin - I didn't mean she concieved five days before - just that she BD'd five days before ovulation and then not again and still got pregnant. Know what you mean about it feeling like a lifetime. Especially when everyone else seems to get pregnant within five minutes of trying!

I can't bear the thought of seeing another solitary line on a pregnancy test so even though I think I'm due Friday, I'm going to wait until Monday to test (that's obviously unless I come on before which is probably what will happen). Am I the only one who's already worked out a hypothetical due date?

DP's sister finds out if her second round of IVF has worked tommorrow. Feel so nervous for her.

xx

Hi Summer,

I will do my best to wait till Monday too although I will never manage it. I work out the due dates too. My sister in law is pregnant, they were in the same position as us, trying for a year, nothing happened, then one day, just out of the blue, she fell pregnant. I feel that if I don't get caught before her baby is born, I will not be able to cope. I am already finding it hard to be around them. Silly I know, but I just cry every time I see them. It's awful! So I need a positive, just like all you other girls out there!!!

Don't know about anyone else, but it feels easier knowing there are other ladies in the same boat as me

Take care all, V x x x x

PS Meant to say fingers crossed for your DP's sister for tomorrow too x

Hi summermagic - how do you remember all of that? Yes I am a week Wednesday and am going to try really hard not to test early. The only time I've managed that before was my first cycle though and only because I went away in the final week, but it was my one and only positive. I shall have to live my tsting obsessions through you all instead. Fingers crossed for the end of the week.

And yes Vic - it really helps to chat with others in the same boat. Oh and 29th July !

Hi girls

Feeling sad. DP's sister got her bloody AF today so no baby for her this time. Can't imagine how she must be feeling.

Also did some research and found out that frequent urination is a common clomid symptom for this stage in cycle as well so my hopeful glow has been tarnished.

Issy - I remember because I'm really excited for everyone else too.

x

Hi guys,

feeling shit shit shit today have all Af signs, back ache, bbs are slightly sore, headaches and feeling emotional. I am now feeling so so so defeated (sobs), this is NEVER going to happen is it?(sobs again), i need to face the fact that i am NEVER going to have another child (full blown Sobbing now). I hate feeling like this.

Summer Magic, so sorry for you Dps sister is she going to do any more IVF?
How do you remeber when everyones AF is due your memory must be great. I think i am Fri so the same as you and vics. Now in thoery at leat one of us., Me you Vic and Issy should have a BFP this month surely. if there is a 25% chance for all of us 4times 25 is 100% so one of us should or am i just being completely stupid (maths was never strong point). I am keepng fingers crossed for all of us wouldnt it be nice is we all got BFPs (chance).
I hate this waiting as i know it hasnt worked and kinda wana get back on the horse but so so close to curling into a ball and giving up i dont know if i can do this anymore i dont know that i have it in me there are only so many knocks someone can take.

i will wait til monday to test too if Af doesnt arrive.

Please someone give me some positive thoughts.

Oh Ray

Don't cry and don't give up. It all seems to impossible at the moment but the minute you find out that you are pregnant (and it will happen I'm sure of it) all this heartache and worry will just dissolve away.

Period is not definate yet and even if it is we can all just start over again. Plus we're both so lucky to have our DD and DS. Whenever I feel sad about the prospect of not having another I throw all my efforts in to being a super good mum to him.

There are loads of positive stories about clomid out there. I often read through success story threads to remind me of that. Even if clomid doesn't work for us - we're not at the end of the road. There is other things we can try.

Feel very sad for DP's sister. They just can't work out what the problem is because she's really healthy and always ovulates and has produced a good lot of eggs both cycles. They just obviously aren't implanting for some reason. Think they're going to go for one more and look at adoption.

It's so bloody annoying. Why do some people get pregnant so bloody easy while others struggle so much.

Anyway - back to the positive thoughts. We'll get there Ray. Don't panic. Fingers crossed it works for one of us this month because it will give us all a boost. I feel like I'm waiting to be sentenced at the moment but it will soon be Friday and it'll either be good news or we'll be able to be pro-active and start again. I'm defiately temping and drinking lots of grapefruit juice this month! xx

Hi summer magic,

I know you are right but finding it very difficult to find the light at the end of the tunnell at the moment. I keep wishing that i could be at that pg stage and looking back and wondering what i was so worried about.

I do the same thing with DD and try to be the best mum that i can all the time, i always try and console myself by thinking i have her and i am so grateful that i do. we are so lucky in that respect but why cant i have another. seriously already i have had enough and just want this to be over.

It hasnt helped that have had probs with computer this morn and the weather is matching my mood. i just want to go home and curl up in bed.

I have found myself getting more and more bitter recently and hateing people that get Pg so easily they just dont know how lucky they are do they.

Look what I found..........

www.twoweekwait.com/bfpsymptoms/dpo/

Another site to obsess over in the 2ww.

x

Thanks summer magic i am obssessing already.

Ok here we go my symtoms this month are,

Foot swollen which is Sooooooo weired and vein pulsing which is also wierd as its a vein and they shouldnt do that.
Not sleeping properly having very strange dreams.
Very creamy CM and lots of it, when waking up in the night feel like i have wet myself and have to go to the bathroom to check ( how embarrassing would that be). Hot and cold flushes ( could be a bug i suppose) and sweaty which is horrid as feel like a smell but dont. Very windy and bowels not working as normal (sorry tmi).
Very emotional ( i cried coz computer broke down) and have no energy at all.
Finaly i just dont feel like myself, its hard to explain but i dont i feel weird also twinges in left side but very slight hardly there.

Good or bad do you think?

Just noticed this thread and thought I would post that I was in your position 18 years ago this autumn, taking Clomid for the first cycle. DS is now 17 and applying for university next year. Good luck to you all.

Thank you Lilimaid. That was perfectly timed. I hope you don't miss her too much when she goes to university. The thought of my darling boy leaving me already makes me want to weep and he's only bloody three!

Ray - I'm getting bitter and twisted too. I just don't get it.

My symptoms are:
Very little CM
Weeing more
Slightly sore boobs
Emotionally volatile
Starving all the time
Feeling sick on and off

First two are unusual for me at this point in cycle (but then again I haven't taken clomid before), others are completely normal.

Oh pleeeeeeeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaase let at least one of us get a positive this month.

x

Summermagic, I think bitter and twisted should be my middle name, perhaps we should call the next tread 'TTC and bitter and twisted'. i dont get why it isnt happening for me what have i ever done thats so wrong to deserve this. I had wuite a difficult childhood and felt i had my fair share of bad things happening to me clearly i was sooooooo wrong.

At home now feeling abit better but so tired and just want to go to bed. I am feeling so irratable like you also and DD didnt eat dinner so got very cross with her which i wouldnt normally do must be pmt. Was very annoyed also as DH didnt do anything this morning and was washing up all over the side and want to kill him. I have a cat which is realy p*ing me off as scratching at the door and have visions of strangling her (please dont call the RSPCA on me).
Thats strange not having alot of CM surely i always have lots of CM although its normally more watery then this i must admit.
I am very consious of the fact that whenever i think i am aware of all my usual Af symptoms my body plays tricks and chucks in another just for good measure and to realy throw me. I hate my body its a bitch to me why cant it just be normal and fall PG easily like so many others.

I realy hope that one of us gets a BFP to we need some good news to cheer us up. Idealy it would be ALL of us getting a BFP. Oh please god let it be all of us.

Hi guys. What a miserable bitch of a day. I feel soooooo bad for you Ray, it's so bloody hard to stay positive when all you can think is why me? Not my month this time either. About five days before I'm due on I always get a bit of dark brown staining (like old blood - sorry TMI I know). Well I woke up with that today, so same as normal meaning not pg.

I too struggle with some people being able to just fall pregnant at the drop of a hat, especially when they say 'helpful' things like... 'Oh, just relax, it'll happen when you least expect it!'

I'm so sorry also to hear about your DP's sister Summer, how devastating for them. Although I am trying to remain positive, I will admit that today sucks and I'll be bloody glad when it's bed time.

Love and hugs to you all girls x x x x

Hi all,

Seems like a down day for everyone today. My temperature hasn't risen as much as it usually does so I'm now thinking prob not pg. My chance is only 10% from the IUI.

Summermagic - sorry to hear about your DP's sister. Your CM could be the clomid, it affects 25% of those who take it.

Ray - don't give up hope yet. Early pg symptoms can be the same as pre-AF symptoms. Also, not wanting to encourage the symptom spotting, but I had lots of sticky cm when I was pg in March during the last 5 days before AF due.

Vic - your staining could be implantation bleeding.

Lilymaid - thanks for the positive story.

Good luck everyone. Let's hope we all get BFPs this time!

Hi guys.

Well did a test this morn and guess what BFP. OMFG IM Pregnant. I am so so shocked and scared as have had 2 Mc before so dont want to have another keep fingers crossed for me.

DH doesnt want to tell anyone as he wants to see how it goes, but i had to tell my best friend so called her at 6.30 this morn woke her up bless her.

I am so so excited i cant believe i am PREGNANT.

fingers crossed for everyone else.

I've been lurking on this thread. Ray - that's fantastic news, congratulations! Keep positive. You knew you were pregnant and you were right then.

I will be ttc in a few months and am convinced it will be hard so I'm really happy to see it happen for you now!

Congratulations Ray

That's brilliant news. Sending you lots of babydust for a very sticky bean.

Hoorah for Ray!!!!! Congratulations! Try to think positive and stay relaxed (easy to say I know!) Well done Ray and fingers crossed for everyone else.

Vic x x x

Thanks guys i realy hope it is a sticky bean too.

Summermagic, are you about? How are you feeling i am keeping my fingers crossed for you all this month it would be so nice if we could have some more BFPs on here.

Still very nervous as am so ealry and having such strange pains at the mo, just want to curl up in bed until 12 weeks. Am hoping that as on clomid doc will do early scan and i will know for sure whats happening and if all is ok.

baby dust to all i am positive that all the good vibes from this site has helped me so thanks to everyone

havent read all the answers but i have had clomid twice. once for 1 month then for dd2 it took 2 months. i had NO side effects whatsoever - apart from a baby

good luck

that'll teach me to not read the whole thread!

good luck

tbh you sound classicly pg