TTC after loss part 6

[Figtree11]

Previous thread created is nearly full so starting a new one. Will try and tag names

@ella31 sending you so much love and strength during this time. I think about you often and wonder how you're getting on. I hope your consultant is taking good care of you and before you know it your rainbow baby will here. They won't replace your boys but hopefully your heart will start to heal a bit ❤️

@ThelastRolo20 @CadoAvo @moosey89 thank you all so much. It's been a nightmare year but so grateful to be still standing.

Thinking of you @Ella31 it is so cruel & devastating that this happened to you and your DH. Even in times of deep grief you have helped us all on this thread, which I am very grateful to you for. Sending you so much love for tomorrow. I am sure your baby will know all about their big brothers ❤️ who will live forever in your hearts x

@Ella31 thinking of you at what I can only imagine is a very difficult and heartbreaking time.
I hope you and DH are doing something to comfort each other and celebrate your twins.
hopefully you will get your long awaited BFP again soon xx

@Superscientist congratulations on your bfp!!

@Figtree11 I'm sorry to see you're going through the mill at the moment. I really do hope that things start getting better and regulated. Is there anything the doctors can do to help regulate that isn't the pill? Next year will be your year. Don't give up, we're all rooting for you.

@Ella31 I hope that the next few days you feel the love that's surrounds you by your family and friends. Their spirits will always be by you, your husband and beautiful bambino. Lots and lots of love to you ❤️ I saw this poem and thought of you. I've made it a sensitive image just incase it sets a trigger for anyone else. Thoughts are always with you. Xxxx

@Ella31, so sorry, I'm dreading our anniversary and furious that I seem to be the only one who remembers when making plans etc. Hope you manage to find something to do that remembers your boys in a positive way.

My bump buddy had her baby yesterday. I had a sudden flashback to a very vivid dream id had when we were both pregnant, of us giving birth in the same room and how we'd laughed about it. My wee girl was due on the 26th November and we thought we'd be doing maternity leave together, and our babies would be friends for each other. I'm relieved to not be exactly jealous of her, just so reminded of what we have lost.

Oh @Ella31 it's an unimaginable situation to be in. Your boys will have a special place in your heart for the rest of time. When you have known great hurt your heart knows the joy of the loved ones you have and soon there will be one more.
My uncle was born with a heart defect he died the day after his 8th birthday so like you, my gran had the double anniversary. For nearly 60 years my grandad bought her flowers that week and I have never known anyone else love as utterly completed as she did. Without question and with the fierce protection of a lioness. There's still great hurt and whilst that might never leave but there will be room for love, happiness and joy from those you can hold and you'll hold them a little tighter and a little longer than most. My uncle died over 25 years before I was born but I feel like I know him. I know his story and I know his name. 50 years from now there will be people dear to you, who are now not even a twinkle in their parents eyes who will know your boys names and will be thinking of you on this day. Knowing your love comes from worst hurt a person can know.
Thinking of you x

I’ve attached and image - sorry if it’s too much.

im 10DPO today and when I went to the toilet just now and wiped. This was on the paper.
I’ve only ever had white cm after ovulation. Nothing like this ever. Does anyone else have any experience? Or am I just hoping and praying?

Yellow tinged cm has always been an indicator of pregnancy for me. Sometimes it's been bright yellow!
I really hope this is good news for you 🤞🏼

@Ncl31 I get this some months - am yet to find any cause or pattern for it! So as with so many "symptoms" it might be something or it might be nothing 🙈 fingers crossed for you though.

I'm back into another 2ww, cycle 6 since my latest loss. I'm actually feeling remarkably calm and "what will be will be" about it this month, think it's because I've got my new job and a rowing competition I'm training for to focus on x

Thanks. I have a GP appt on Monday to go through some blood test results, and then got my recurrent miscarriage appt with Tommys in 2 weeks so going to ask the question then. I hope next year will be my year 🥹

@Ncl31 i’m not sure, I’ve had all sorts of CM through different points of my cycle, so it’s really hard to tell

@moosey89 glad you are feeling ok at the moment. I do hope it’s a good month for you though. Rowing competition sounds great!

ive got myself obsessed and fallen down a rabbit hole now!
can anyone else see a vvvvfl? 10DPO not FMU.
will do a FMU tomorrow.

I think I can see something. I tried inverting the image for you too and think I can see something there too?

The only thing is the test looks a bit dry so assume it was taken outside the window. Everything crossed for you!

It was taken at 6 minutes. I saw a shadow pretty much instantly but I wasn’t convinced so done a spot of hoovering and then went back and checked again.
only time will tell, I’m probably just torturing myself really.

I’m not sure @Ncl31 hopefully in the morning it will be clear to see

I see it very faintly in the first picture. I hope it's good news for you this morning x

Whiter than white this morning. I’ve had nasty evaps before on those tests so I don’t know why I still use them.

I’m sorry x

Thanks. I’m okay. I think I knew I was letting myself run away with it so wasn’t too disappointed this morning.

It’s still hard @Ncl31 as there is always that hope there.

How is everyone doing? I’m CD18 and still no sign of ovulation. So reckon it will be CD30 something again.
I had 1 morning with a high lh strip but the rest have been low. Had a bit of ewcm so wonder if my body was trying to ovulate but didn’t.
Feeling frustrated with it all

Please can I join? To cut a long story short I had a mmc 15 months ago and we’ve been trying to get pregnant again ever since. We had a potential chemical in June where we had a positive test but then my period came a week late.

Just started initial fertility tests with the NHS, so far we’ve confirmed I’m ovulating and my progesterone levels and thyroid levels are all fine. My partners results have also come back as normal too so now I’m on a waiting list for further testing with the NHS fertility clinic.

Today is either 2dpo or 3dpo as I had peak LH tests 24 hours apart, both the exact same measurement on Premom… I think I’m more likely 2dpo as I’m guessing my true peak would have been the morning of the second day but I didn’t test until later.

My temp is still high today and I just tried to feel my cervix which is so high I can barely touch it.
So who knows. Currently 12DPO with AF due Tuesday.

welcome @Reyttc im sorry y our find yourself here.
its difficult but so many of us are in the same boat and this group is very supportive.