TTC after Miscarriage part 4

[Ella31]

Starting thread number 4, can you believe it? Congrats to everyone who has been lucky the last few threads and for those who have had recent losses again or new, keep strong, you are amazing. To those still trying, it will happen, myself included there and we will support each other.

I'll just include a foreward for anyone new who joins us, this is a supportive group for anyone who has had a loss, no matter how early or late. Everyone here has experieced the upset and understands.

Ive gone through the list and more than likely left people out so add anyone you think I've forgotten.

@ToeBeans24

@DonnaWhat
@Onthedouble123
@Lovedatforme

@emmatcc1
@ncl31
@MisssMarion
@Loz365
@Tallgirl91
@Figtree11
@ThelastRolo20
@mountainlass
@CadoAvo

@Joleyjojo

@Jellyfish2

@B1989
@rosyposy26

@RaisingCornishWildlings
@Rockyslife
@sarahk89

I think lead up to peak is perfect timing 🤞🏻🤞🏻🤞🏻🤞🏻 for you. Xx

That looks good @Onthedouble123 fingers crossed

@Onthedouble123 that looks like a faint positive to me, fingers crossed for you lovely.

@Ella31 whats your plan this cycle?
my predicted fertile week lands when DH is away but ovulation is predicted 2 days into our holiday in Cyprus.
ive decided not to do OPKs and just use my OvuSense so I don’t stress if DH is still away when OPKs start to darken.

The timing is good for you based on your holiday. Oh fair play, I can't relinquish control of opks yet. My ovulation was 6 days late this month.

Are you doing ok after last month?

I think I am, every now and then I get a pang of sadness, but generally better than I thought.
I’m flying to Dublin this morning for a weekend away and then we’re off to Cyprus next week and then Santorini the week after so I think that’s all really helping if I’m honest

updating test
Different (probably better) lighting but I think that shows progression from yesterday 🤞🏻🤞🏻🤞🏻

@Ncl31 that sounds like a good itinerary for this month! Here's hoping some downtime and relaxation will do you wonders. Have a lovely time 💕💕

@Onthedouble123 a double take isn’t even needed on that! Very promising x

Hi everyone. Was trying to get help via nhs clinic after three years battling. Finally got all the blood work etc done. Been told high prolactin. Clinic wont accept me. A year wait for specialist. Been told three to three half years of treatment expected to sort it and get in the fertility door again.

had anyone had experience of high prolactin and what they may have done in meantime as I can’t get the drug I need for a year apparently.
or any advice as I feel totally broken the fact I waited and pushed gps for so long to be heard after many miscarriages to get a referall to then be shut off so quickly again. :(

sorry for long message. Just feel so so upset. Drained and it feels very unfair as even paying private for this medicine and prolactin fix apparently means can’t get nhs funded fertility. And I can’t afford that one private

@Panda101x i didn’t want to ignore your message, but I don’t have any helpful advice. But I am so sorry you have had this news. I can’t begin to imagine how you must feel knowing there is a wait like that x

I’m having a rough week and I don’t even know why. I feel full of anxiety. Keep going down rabbit holes of googling lots. And has anyone experienced anxiety around general health? Since the MC’s any little thing that is wrong with me generally I worry about, and never used to before. At one point I was worrying about DP & him dying and I don’t even know why. That one has subsided now thank god

@Onthedouble123 That looks very very promising 💕

@Panda101x I have no advice but sending you lots of love, I'm sorry you're going through this.

I did after my sons died @Figtree11 . I was scared dh would die and I'd be all alone. I was also goggling a lot and convincing myself that I was in menopause because I wasn't conceiving. It was horrific. Your experience has been scary and of course the significance of your molar pregnancy has shook you.

I also was anxious after my first two mc. It's the fear of not knowing what lies ahead. It's really hard.

Google is the worst. I spent hours on it and to be honest. It has left me a mess. The one thing I've stopped doing is that and I also don't look at the ttc thread bar this thread. It's too much. I'm so sorry you are feeling this way. It will get better xxx

I'm so sorry @Panda101x it's really unfair. I've no advice on that one but I hope someone comes along. Have you posted on the normal ttc group to see if anyone knows. I'd be very specific too in the title to get traffic

Thanks @Ella31 it’s helped to hear that I’m not alone in now I’m feeling.
Thats how I feel too, fully convincing myself something is wrong & I’ll never get a happy outcome. I know the right thing to do is to step away from google but it’s been difficult to this week & I haven’t been able to stop myself. But you’re right I have to stop, and will also stop scouring all the boards on here too.
It’s all just so rubbish, and constantly trying to pull yourself out the dark headspace is hard. Thank you xx

@Figtree11 I had health anxiety after losing my BIL to cancer. It's awful as just no rationalising however hard you try. Mine certainly was linked to grieving and it did get better in time. I did some CBT. Didn't find it all that helpful really but it definitely works for some so might be worth considering? Xx

You aren't alone. I've battled with thinking something is wrong with me for months and going back and forward. It's grand for people to say relax or it will happen when it happens but they usually haven't had losses or buried their children so their comments are irrelevant really.

I think it's a waiting game, a cruel and unforgiving one. I don't know why it works for others and not for some but I truly believe where our heads are at play a huge role.

That's why I'm getting tests done so that I can stop thinking there's something wrong even when I know there isn't. So I get it xxxx

Thanks @Onthedouble123 @Ella31 you’ve really made me feel less alone.
The EPU did give me a number to call for counselling so maybe I will look into that if I don’t start feeling better.
You’re right, the waiting game is just torturous. Waiting to be in a position to try & get pregnant, the waiting to actually get pregnant, and then knowing if that does happen, all the stress & anxiety that comes with another pregnancy. The though of ever having a baby feels like a pipe dream

You absolutely aren't alone. There's without a doubt a beautiful little one waiting to fill your arms in time. When I can't say and I won't patronise you with that but the odds are in your favour. It's "when" not "if" it will happen. Keep thinking that way.

Thank you that has made me well up ❤️ You are so kind.
You are all such a lovely bunch of women. I appreciate the support so much xx

@Panda101x welcome to the thread. I dont have any advice but we're all here if you need to talk.

@Figtree11 I'm like you with Google. It's the bain of my life. I've never trusted the hospital since they misdiagnosed me years ago and I nearly died so I always go to Google. God knows why. Hope you're feeling better today xx

@Ella31 How are you doing this week?

I'm 9dpo today but nothing to report. Holding off testing although in my mind I've written the month off.

I'm just finished af yesterday so will start testing opks tomorrow. I'm so done with all the stress now tbh.

9dpo - oh hopefully it will be it for you.

I spoke with my Dr at the clinic today. She's prescribed me progesterone which I then couldn't get without ordering in. Tried two pharmacies but got to wait til Monday 😩😩

Also had some spotting when wiping which my brain is screaming could just be implantation bleeding but I've been having palpitations panicking since I saw it 😢 xx

Try not to. You know deep down, pregnancies are so different every time. Keep looking straight ahead and no doubt you'll be updating us with your successful first scan before you know it

How is everyone feeling?
I'm in a bad way. Ive had awful cramping yesterday afternoon/evening and again this morning.
Still testing positive this morning but I'm trying to prepare my husband that this might not be our fairytale of success just before we needed IVF afterall. 😢
I'm soo crampy and my inner thighs ache, exactly like pre AF. I didn't have this for either of my other pregnancies.
I almost regret testing early now (especially as Dr said no risk from the norethisterone afterall) previous months I'd have been blissfully unaware of those early positives, feel all the cramping and just be preparing myself for AF on Monday. I'm in a very difficult limbo 😩
I hope others are doing okay and have nice plans for the weekend. Xx

@Onthedouble123 I'm so sorry to hear this. I hope that this are just settling in cramps and implantation bleeding. Maybe the panicking has caused the cramps. Try and rest up. (I know it's easier said than done) have you had any more spotting today? EPU was no help to me last month because I was under 6 weeks and it broke me. I have everything crossed for a positive outcome xxx

I had awful cramps with my twins literally from the moment I was pregnant to about 12 weeks. Very normal