CD1 ttc after loss carry on thread #3

[Ladyinpink1]

I went to reply and you were right, the thread was full so I couldnt post a link to a new thread, also, because it's a new thread it wont give me a prediction to tag when I type a name, so I have just copied and paste the names off of everyone who posted on the very last page of the thread, I hope anyone else can find it OK. Sorry, maybe there is an easier better way... if anyone else can remember extra names and spellings, please tag 🙂

@samilicious

@Wise0wl

@ThelastRolo20

@13lucy

@Bugdem123

@HerbaceousPerennial

That is very frustrating @Wise0wl , it sounds like it was wrong about your peak day last month if af arrived a few days later. But this month you have really covered your bases well! You definitely deserve your wine after all of those days. Hopeful for you x

To answer your question, sorry If this is tmi, but no I found it OK texture wise, kind of watery when i opened it, you use an applicator to insert it up really quite far so I didnt notice it too much during the deed, or after, not actually sure where it went ha ha, and another thing, normally I have quite alot of ewcm throughout my cycle but in recent cycles, just before ovulation time it has seemed to be less (ironically as thats when you need it most) but since I have used the preseed this morning, I have had loads and loads of ewcm throughout today (and it's def cm, not excess preseed as it's stretchy like egg) I don't know why really that would happen but I'm taking it as a good sign lol. sorry if that's all a bit gross (tells self to stop over sharing and pour another glass of old person port 😂 )

@Ladyinpink1 well my period in April is due 19th which is the day we fly on holiday typically! So my fertile window will be first week of May so technically two months away still 😂 but time wise I'm focusing on when my cycle is starting rather than fertile week

Haha @Ladyinpink1 that is a lot of info but all the info that I was looking for! Like you I’ve had less CM generally (since my last MVA) and so it’s interesting that it’s helped with that. Fingers crossed for you! Cheers - hope your port and pineapple has been enjoyable!

Hi ladies! Still waiting on ovulation or even my period since I had my surgery for MMC over 4 weeks ago 😫 just wish something was happening, it's so frustrating. It's making me think so negatively about being able to conceive again.

Happy Mother’s Day to you lovely lot. I don’t have any words of wisdom really, but you are all mothers, we see each other here even if others in real life don’t, and I hope we all get our sticky beans soon ♥️

My first af after mc is very light. No cramps and no clots and took a whole day yesterday to get from brown spotting to red blood. I thought it was gonna be heavier than usual.

@Wise0wl that's right, good memory! Abandoned the Disney plan now as we're getting the garden landscaped and it's costing a small fortune. Another reason to pray for a good summer

@moosey89 oh moosey your post 💔 I'm so sorry your journey had been so long and you've got someone who's had getting pregnant so easy right there to make it all the more raw. Counsellor sounds like a great idea. What are you planning for next few months to get your life back?

@ThelastRolo20 I had this and didn't as we were waiting to ttc and I think about it all the time now and wish we'd tried that month 😅 I get wanting to wait though!

@Bugdem123 this time of year is extra brutal for ttc, I thought Xmas was bad! Maybe this is where we need to focus our support efforts, I need to take the same tack. I want to focus on being the best inside and out so whatever comes my way fertility/loss/giving up/baby I'm ready for it after living life to the max but treating my body like a temple

@HerbaceousPerennial how are you doing? Worrying still or managing to distract? Glad I'm not the only cup bucket owner (mine fits too 😂)

@emmatcc1 welcome!

@Ladyinpink1 sorry it's been so heavy, been thinking about you. Sounds like a great mix for a good time!

Happy Mother's Day! I see a mum no matter where you are in your journeys xxx

Hey ladies, sorry me spamming up your feeds again. Hope we're all ok after yesterday.

Finally got the call from my gp after waiting 3 weeks... in Nando's. At 6pm.

I took the call in the car, then brought the phone in for DH to arrange his tests and he was fuming that I wanted him to talk about sperm in public with the Nando's music blaring 😂 the food had been there 10 mins at this point and we were in a hurry 😅 glad to be down for tests though.

lively Nando's music playing "HELLO YES PUT ME DOWN FOR THE SPERM TEST, DO I GET A LITTLE POT TO TAKE HOME OR DO I DO IT THERE??" lady comes to take wooden chicken on a stick away

@samilicious that's hilarious 😂 you know that waitress couldn't wait to tell her friends!

Thank you for the post yesterday ❤️ even with a living child there was a sadness to it thinking of what should have been on that day x

@samilicious 😂😂😂 you’re going to be on one of those threads ‘overheard in Nando’s’… I swear doctors have a sixth sense for this sort of thing. Glad they got hold of you though and tests are getting going. How are you feeling about it?

I’m doing ok thanks, focusing on one day at a time and trying not to freak myself out. It’s kind of comforting knowing that whatever happens, it’s already been decided, I’m just waiting to find out 🤷🏻‍♀️

@samilicious I do love your stories, you have such a way with words! 😂 It's good that you're getting the tests under way too, I hope things progress a bit quicker now and you start getting some answers.

@ThelastRolo20 same for me ♥️ glad you liked it. What did you decide btw?!

Oh yeah, I'm sure she came over because it looked like we were having a spicy row, shock she got 😂

@HerbaceousPerennial yeah feel good about it! Had an ultrasound a while back which showed no scarring and normal uterine conditions. Made me realise at the time I had the test the woman just gave be a thumbs up and said crack on 😂 said my gp would be in touch, but I rang and they just said 'all normal' so good to have detail there. That's such a good way to think, you're always so level headed about stuff. It's a great way to be 🥰

@CluelessInLondon maybe I could write for like Take A Break or something 🤪 almost another week down until your next scan!

Btw everyone - the new Dune film should come with a massive bloody trigger warning because there are endless shots of a bloody foetus in it at various stages. Great film but so unnecessary!

😂 I’m so glad you’ve got some movement in your tests, and that properly made me laugh. It beats my experience of chatting with my GP about my blood tests half way up a chair lift whilst skiing! You’re right, GPs have terrible timing.

Maybe you could turn all of this - the pineapples, giant menstrual cups, sperm test Nando’s, sifting through copious amounts of seeds into a book/script? The real TTC diaries is the book/play/film I never knew I needed. I would buy it!

I’m feeling brighter but no idea what’s going on with this cycle. Continuing to dtd every other day and hoping for the best, even though I’ve binned the CB tests and my CM is telling a different story every hour of the day. Who knows.

@HerbaceousPerennial the control freak in me finds your thinking (and acceptance of lack of control) soothing. I think it’s very sensible to be taking such a measured approach (and of course have everything crossed for you)

@samilicious we decided not to - and we won't have a go when March's cycle starts (late next week). To be honest the wait has been hell and I kind of wish we had cracked on but we are where we are 🤷🏻

Great that you got the call and very kind of you both to entertain the Nandos staff @samilicious . x

What cd are you on now @Wise0wl I think we are at similar stages in our cycles if I remember right? Are you still getting fertile cm? I think you have done great dtd every other day so that no matter when you ovulated there will be sperm waiting. x

I am cd15 today, my positive opk was Saturday, but I am sick (AGAIN!!) which has made my temps super high so I cant confirm exact ovulation day this cycle, not that it overly matters, but I will guess Sunday, so 2dpo today. We managed to dtd with the preseed on Saturday and Sunday morning but been too sick since. Started on my pineapple yesterday though lol. x

@Ladyinpink1 CD17 for me today. CM keeps changing? Though I feel like it’s drier this morning (TMI, sorry) so assume I’m passed the fertile window. Sorry you’re ill, there are so many bugs around at the moment. Great work on the pineapple! Will you test, or wait for AF? When is your AF due?

@Wise0wl That's good your fertile period is over so now for the wait! I will try to wait as long as I can but always end up giving in and testing before AF. What about you? x

@Ladyinpink1 AF is due next Wednesday, I’ll probably test Thursday if no sign. I was about to write ‘I’m not very hopeful’ but that’s a lie, I am really hopeful but I also know that I feel like I’m in the dark a bit because of the CB ovulation test saga. So we’ll see!

Hi ladies, just after some advice really. I'm really struggling seeing my two friends who are pregnant, I think part of it is because I got pregnant first and I think they therefore got the ball rolling their end! I know they weren't trying before then.

They both now have bumps and when I see them at nursery my stomach actually falls into a pit and I dread it. I just can't seem to separate their pregnancies from my journey, they're a walking visual reminder of my miscarriages - each one is close to one of my due dates. I feel awful about it and like I'm clearly not strong enough to just deal with the emotions

Any advice or tips? Doesn't help I'm on a pause so I don't even feel close to being pregnant again

@ThelastRolo20 I completely understand how you feel and really sympathise. It’s so hard (and so unfair). I am in a similar situation and have just had to take myself out of it as much as I can, but I know that doesn’t work long term and I will have to see them before too long. I keep reminding myself that their babies aren’t linked to my losses, but when I spoke to a therapist about it she said that the feelings will lessen, and just to let myself feel them.

Reflecting - sorry @ThelastRolo20, you asked for advice or tips and I didn’t give you any. I’m so sorry I don’t have any. I think (hope) it might get easier with time x

@Wise0wl it's honestly just nice to know I'm not the only one who finds it difficult, I think it is just a time thing ❤️

Hey guys, sorry I've basically fell off the face of the earth. I have been on the struggle bus for the past week. I think the combo of my period starting on Mother's Day (thank you universe!!), my due date coming up next month, and the 6 month anniversary this week has really been difficult to cope with. I've basically spent the last 4 days crying. My poor husband must be sick of seeing it lol.

@ThelastRolo20 I'm so sorry you're finding it so hard. I have two close friends that have young babies and my sister in law is due just after I would have been so I know how hard this is. I saw her last week and realised I'm going to spend the rest of my seeing my niece or nephew live a life my wee baby never had the chance to. I wish I could give you tips to cope but given how I've spent the last few days, I really don't have any. I think we just need to give ourselves some grace to feel these feelings and accept that it's a normal part of the grieving and healing process as much as it's shit and hurts. I've read the The Worst Girl Gang Ever's book and it has a chapter on "ugly feelings" which I re-read sometimes and remind myself I'm not a bad person for feeling jealous or sad.

My period was only 2 days this month which I think is adding to my stress. I've made another appointment with my GP to see what we can do now. Roll on cycle 6 🙃

@Bugdem123 that's a lot to deal with so I'm not surprised it's been tough. I'm glad you're going back to the doctor's to look into your cycles - how long are your periods normally?

Honestly just knowing I'm not the only one to struggle helps, I kept thinking I must be a horrible friend. I've written some positive affirmations though - going to read them daily to balance out the other thoughts ❤️ I hope this cycle is the one for you🤞🏻I'll still be hanging around if not 😂 I've still got a whole cycle to go before we start trying again...