CD1 ttc after loss carry on thread #3

[Ladyinpink1]

I went to reply and you were right, the thread was full so I couldnt post a link to a new thread, also, because it's a new thread it wont give me a prediction to tag when I type a name, so I have just copied and paste the names off of everyone who posted on the very last page of the thread, I hope anyone else can find it OK. Sorry, maybe there is an easier better way... if anyone else can remember extra names and spellings, please tag 🙂

@samilicious

@Wise0wl

@ThelastRolo20

@13lucy

@Bugdem123

@HerbaceousPerennial

@samilicious don’t want to inadvertently get your hopes up but me with thrush. On tests, I’ve only ever stuck to a FRER or CB because that’s all I’ve know and I’m a creature or habit. I’ve got everything crossed for you 🤞xx

& thanks @Ladyinpink1. As EPU was so good I’ve been used to scans every 10 days or so. DH keeps saying we should go back to EPU but I don’t have a physical medical need to, just wild anxiety! So I think I’ll wait til 16 weeks if I can? 20 week scan is on 17th July which is so long away! Hope you’re doing ok and having a nice weekend? X

@samilicious don't feel silly, this is the beauty of this thread, we can rant and say anything we feel honestly without fear of judgement in a way that we can't really do in real life.
I haven't had it as an early pregnancy symptom but can imagine how the pH levels could be messed up in early preg and cause it. How many dpo are you and when is af due?
Yes it's lovely knowing for sure when/that I did ovulate. Although I had lots of ewcm today, and ovulation is over.
The cheapies i use to satisfy my testing addiction are clinical guard (but these are hard to get atm) and one step blue preg tests (which you can get on amazon), I have never had an evap on either. x

@Wise0wl that's amazing the epu really have been so good to do all of those scans. 16 weeks is a good plan, I hope time until then goes in quick!
Having a nice Bank hol weekend thanks, too much naughty eating though x

Sorry guys missed a few messages when I posted last night!

@HerbaceousPerennial love your mum's wallow methodology - deffo using that. I think before I've spent months being in my feels so a hardcore wallow with a rough time limit sounds perfect. Rubbish she was seriously ill last year - you've had a tough few years yourself! I can imagine it not going down so well, I've dropped a few similar jokes with similar reception. Wasted on that audience! Great news about your cycles behaving themselves this time but the preg symptoms must feel weird

@Wise0wl interesting about the thrush! I'm sure it came about too early this time to mean anything. Also got really strong wee randomly, sorry all the gross symptoms - but probably more down to the vitamins I'm taking this time. Yay so glad you had a good 12w scan. So hard trying to put the bad thoughts out of your mind. Do you think you'll feel better after the 20w one?

@Ladyinpink1 I had a BFP a couple of weeks ago which comes with it's own level of anxiety! Feeling grateful to be in this position but finding it difficult to manage the uncertainty. Still keeping looped in on this thread!

@samilicious I'm going on the 22nd! Really looking forward to it, just feels like a lifetime away at the moment. I've got a holiday between now and then so will be good to have some time to relax.

Hope everyone else is having a good long weekend.

@Ladyinpink1 my family joke I was born 80 years old 😂 I’ve always enjoyed ‘old people’ things. But I’ve been a terrible influence on DH, he used to be actually cool and I’ve worn him down into port drinking and board games. He’s very glad I introduced him to dessert wine too! The wine drinking and conception is interesting, all three times I’ve conceived I’d been hitting the bottle fairly hard to be honest. Looking for a happy middle ground! How are you finding the TWW?

@samilicious I’ve always used one step for pregnancy tests, same as @Ladyinpink1 and they’ve always been spot on and very clear for me. Plus super cheap which I like! I used them before I was even TTC because I’d often go three months or longer without a period so I’d use them occasionally just to check I hadn’t got pregnant accidentally which seems hilarious now. I’ve got one step ovulation strips too but I never use them regularly and they’re not very effective for PCOS as I have lots of false alarms so can’t really tell if they’re any good! How are you doing? Hope you’re feeling a bit better.

AF hasn’t shown up yet so back in limbo cycle wise, just hormones going ballistic in general. Not really surprising, only 4 weeks since I miscarried.

@Wise0wl your EPU sounds great! Glad everything is going well, I hope the anxiety settles down a bit soon and you can enjoy your pregnancy a bit more, you deserve to have that joy and excitement of looking forward to your baby, everyone does. It’s really hard though I know.

@HerbaceousPerennial they are so good, and I’m so lucky. But my spotting has started up again (I thought it was over as I’ve not had any at all for two weeks!) so I suppose I’ll pop in to see them again at some point this week. Hope you’re doing ok x

@Wise0wl that’s so stressful, I hope it settles down soon. I had spotting until about 16 weeks with my son if it’s any comfort. All fine and because I was so naive I never even got it checked out, first pregnancy so just assumed it was par for the course! I’m feeling very mixed still to be honest but significantly calmer overall than with my first miscarriage so hopefully some of the coping strategies are coming in to force.

I'm aware I'm going to sound like a full on "12 cats and a crazy hat" lady lol but I feel pregnancy feelings (I am only 3dpo 😂😂) I have this weird feeling in my womb like a heaviness that I have felt before, now in all likelihood it's probably still side effects from the maca plus a bit of trapped wind but I know I'm in a safe space here so baring all my crazy thoughts. Anyone else got some craziness to make me feel better?

Yes of course you did, I'm sorry @13lucy it's so hard bring pregnant after a loss, I hope that things get a little better as each week passes. Do you have a scan booked? How are you feeling physically? x

@HerbaceousPerennial 🤣😂 I loved reading that, it made me laugh that you have made your dh uncool. I'm sure your dh is privileged to have you. Sorry af hasn't arrived yet. How is your ds been BTW, and how did his follow up appointment go? x

Sorry about the spotting @Wise0wl that must be so stressful 😞 have you had this before in previous pregnancies? x

@HerbaceousPerennial I’m so glad you’re feeling calmer and thank you 💕 and I’ve got everything crossed for you this cycle @Ladyinpink1! I’ve had spotting in 3/4 pregnancies, but (sorry if TMI) with DC it was more like dark brown, whereas in the MMC I had it with is the same as now, light pink. They’ve not found a reason for it before now with this pregnancy though, and part of me would really like a reason so I know why it’s happening!

@Ladyinpink1 I know what you mean! I was absolutely convinced I felt different from about 3/4 DPO. I think I posted it ages ago but they did find evidence that there's a higher surge in progesterone in the beginning part of the luteal phase when there's a ferilised egg so it could well be something 🥰

@Ladyinpink1 totally with you! I was like that from the estrogen craziness this month. Convinced. Ooooh really rooting for you this cycle! Quietly optimistic. This is the worst bit about testing and being more engaged with trying to isn't it - feel all worked up again for the first time during the TWW in a while 😅

@13lucy awesome! Holiday in between sounds lovely, lots to keep you busy and mind off worrying 😊

@HerbaceousPerennial gahhh stupid hormones! Totally with you on board games. Much better for bonding than Netflix I say! I've ordered some easy@home but will try one step next on yours and Lady's recommendations 😊 I'm feeling much better thanks but snappy, starving and Sahara pants so just waiting for AF to show herself in a few days 🙄 expected a few months for the vits and healthy habits to affect things but still a bit disappointed won't lie

@Wise0wl rubbish you're bleeding again but hopefully another scan with help ease your mind in the whole ♥️ my friend has had it the whole time too and she's 16w and didn't have it at all in her last preg

@ThelastRolo20 never knew that, very interesting! Hope you're doing ok ♥️ and waiting over the next few weeks isn't playing on your mind too much xx

I really hope they can help you get some answers when you are next in @Wise0wl x

Thanks for the crazy validation @ThelastRolo20 it's probably not anything but would be so lovely if it ended up that it was. Hope you are well x

Lol hello friend, how many cats do you own now? 🤣 @samilicious I am going up to bed now to research this and find @ThelastRolo20 's article.
I wish I felt nothing because cycles where you feel things and then it's bfn hit you far harder I think. How many dpo are you now? And when will you test? Very hopeful for you with all of those symptoms so similar to previous pregnancies x

@Ladyinpink1 oh god don't talk to me about cats - DD is cat mad and everyone thinks we're cruel for not getting one! On the crazy levels - full Professor Trelawney from Harry Potter where TTC is concerned RN 😂 I'll be reading the tea leaves next. Reading a book about being in tune with your intuition. I think I'm out this month - Sahara pants, mood swings and ravenous. Given up and smashed a Chinese and few glasses of wine as a 'wallow' treat (thanks @HerbaceousPerennial). Got those tests coming tomorrow so might do one with FMU wed just to put me out of my misery. Flo says 9DPO but not sure - CD23. Enjoy your reading and good night! X

@Ladyinpink1 thank you, got a scan booked in for Sunday so fingers crossed. Feeling alright I think, just over analysing everything! Conscious not to post too much on here as I know how triggering it was for me when TTC!

I was still testing negative at 8/9 DPO so don't give up hope too soon! Funnily though I thought f**k it and started running again and then BFP at 14 dpo.

Thanks @13lucy - did you have any other signs that made you think you might have caught? my CM is non existent but can't remember previous times if it's been any different at this point. Sorry all the gross things from me atm 😂

@samilicious I was drier than the Sahara desert the day before I got my positive 😅

@samilicious literally didn't think I was, especially as I tested negative a few days prior. Had more 'symptoms' on BFN cycles! Only did a test as my temp was still high and luteal phase longer than normal. Then boobs got bigger and more sore. Didn't really notice anything with CM. I guess my advice is that you aren't out until temp drop/period arrives 😂

@samilicious burst out laughing at good ole professor trelawney! Glad you had a good wallow, honestly I quite enjoy it even though I’m doing it for misery based reasons. But of course it’s not over until Aunt Flo sings! Or whatever it is she does when she visits 😂 I’m still feeling hopeful for you. Fingers crossed for test tomorrow if you decide to go for it. Snappy and starving is my consistent state of being the last few weeks, just smashed a family bag of Doritos. But did have a pineapple starter so not all bad (thought of you as I gnawed through the cores @Ladyinpink1)

@Ladyinpink1 I keep telling DH how lucky he is! He doesn’t always seem wholly convinced 😂 I’m not that easy to live with at the moment to be fair. DS is ok thanks, he’ll probably need another op though which I’m gutted about, was really hoping we’d be done after just the one. Fingers crossed it should be less major than the last one though, consultant wants to see him again once everything’s a bit more healed to make a decision. Really hoping your 3dpo intuition is right, mine is rubbish and my only reliable sign for pregnancy is the mad thirst about 10dpo, but then I never know when I’ve ovulated either up until the thirst kicks in! Doesn’t stop me symptom spotting though

@samilicious I couldn't find the study professor 😉 but as to the not much cervical mucus, acording to my little cycle diary, my last pregnancy that's what I had, have written down "not much cm since ovulation" which is making me think maybe this isn't the month for me as actually I still have normal amounts of cm atm also my other symptom before bfp was vivid dreams plus disturbed sleep if that's any help.
Has your cm been less since ovulation? I still feel like all of these things are good signs and I'm so hopeful for you. Please update us when you do test and if you do in the morning I'm so invested now lol x

I'm sure Sunday can't come around fast enough for you @13lucy for me personally it's nice to be updated and see how you feel and are getting on, it also gives me hope to know when things are going well after a loss, it's pictures of positive pregnancy tests I find hard, but I suppose we all have different triggers etc. Is your scan with the epu or private? x

Lol, oh yes the good auld pineapple, well done, nice and healthy. I haven't done it this cycle, I thought about it but decided not too, still having dark chocolate atm as that's meant to help. I did have salad with my dinner though so be proud of me 😇 @HerbaceousPerennial
Awk I'm sorry about your son, that is tough to have to go for another op, tugs a different sort of heart string whe your child is in pain. Glad that it's not quite as major.
Ha ha yes he is privileged for sure, just tell him you can't be perfect all the time, you have to be imperfect for a bit now and then so that the others in your life don't feel too intimidated 😊.
Awk it's probably nothing at all and more the fact that I'm so desperate now to be pregnant I'm reading into every tiny thing x

@Ladyinpink1 yeah I think I'm out this cycle - BFN yesterday on a cheap expired one and BFN today with early detection CB and 10DPO roughly. Tested positive at this point before, but it was on CD26 whereas I'm on CD24 now. Probably just clinging on to last bit of hope 😅
My PMS is absolutely wild this time. Mood swings like nobody's business, was screaming shouting at one point last night which I never ever do, it was like I was possessed over something that doesn't usually bother me. Been like that since Sunday and doesn't usually last this long, usually a crabby day or two before and sad when AF comes but nothing crazy. Must be these new vitamins doing something. How are you doing?

@13lucy @ThelastRolo20 thank you for the CM insight!

@HerbaceousPerennial love that - fine dining - pineapple starter with Dorito main 👌🏻 oh it's fun being a woman isn't it! So sorry your DS needs another op. My DD had a very small op last year when the fruit bowl knocked off the side and smashed on her toe. She had to have 5 tone pieces removed. That was bad enough and so minor. So horrible seeing them go into that room. Big hugs ♥️