CD1 ttc after loss carry on thread #2

[Ladyinpink1]

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@CluelessInLondon Glad i'm not alone in feeling I have set this imaginary goal ... if you can muster the energy I think you should def try again tonight, you will be glad you did 🙂 or even in the morning if you can x

@Bugdem123 Sorry it's a negative today, hoping it's just too early for you. Yes I know what you mean, it can feel frustrating, and I try not to think about the age too much either, I will be 36 when i give birth... if I fall pregnant very soon that is, and although it's still not old, it's way past the original plan. x

@samilicious sorry you are past that cycle mark as well. When I have ovulation pains it comes with a positive opk and then I normally ovulate the day after so I think that tonight or tomorrow morning are still good for you dtd 👍 x

@CluelessInLondon @Ladyinpink1 thanks ladies!
I deserve a medal for that 😂 DH having stomach issues last few months so trying weird and wonderful remedies. Came in and had a mouth full of cloves 🤢 before seeing me. Not the most romantic moment ever

Morning guys. BFN for me today at 10DPO on both Wondfo and Easy@home tests. Pretty sure I'm out this cycle, I just don't "feel" pregnant. Have had a big cry (thankfully wfh today!) and trying to focus on the positives - another month to lose some weight and get back to being more active.

@CluelessInLondon @samilicious hope you both managed to DTD. Even with the cloves 😅

@Ladyinpink1 ah the plan! Mine has basically been shredded at this point. I can't believe how naive I was - I really thought if we waited until the perfect time it would all go smoothly. If I could do it all again, I would have tried so much earlier when things weren't perfect timing wise, but of course who's to say I wouldn't still be in this situation now.

@samilicious That sounds distinctly unsexy! 😅Fingers crossed that in a couple of weeks' time it turns out to have been worth it!

@Bugdem123 Sorry it's a BFN again - although you never know, 10DPO is still quite early so you're not officially out until AF shows up. I know what you mean about the age thing too - even though logically we all know it can take a little while to get pregnant I'm not sure it really gets factored into the thinking until you actually start TTC. I had just turned 37 when we started trying, the baby I lost would have been due just after turning 38 - now I'm barrelling towards that 38th birthday and am no further on than I was when we started. It feels like there are a lot of milestones that come and go and there's always "I hope I'm pregnant by..." or "I hope I've had a baby by..." and it's frustrating not being able to do much to influence it. No idea if any of that made any sense! But the long and short of it is that you're not alone in being really aware of how the time is passing.

We decided to have a rest last night - both really needed some sleep! But managed to DTD again this morning so we've given ourselves the best chance we can - even with the early ovulation totally throwing me off track, we managed to DTD Sunday morning, Monday/Tuesday nights and this morning. Definitely need a rest for a few days now though. 😂 I'm in a bit of a weird sitaution now of not really being sure when AF is due - with earlier ovulation I don't know whether AF will show earlier or if I might have the same cycle length as usual. So my period could be due anytime between Monday and Friday in the week I'm on holiday - I've already decided to just live in blissful ignorance and not think about it unless it still hasn't arrived by the time I get home from my trip on the Saturday, as I won't really know if it's late or not until then!

@CluelessInLondon my understanding is that variation in cycle length is usually driven by the first half of your cycle (how long the egg takes to mature) and that luteal phase is normally a standard time for most women. So my LP is always 14 days whereas I could ovulate anywhere between CD13 and CD19... Hope that makes sense. Therefore I'd anticipate your AF would probs be a few days early this month (or preferably not show at all!!). X

@SnookyPook But then my last two cycles have been different lengths even though I ovulated on CD18 both months - my last cycle was 29 days and the one before was 31, so there must be a bit of variation possible or they would have both been the same length!

Decided to do some Googling...apparently the luteal phase can vary cycle by cycle for the same woman (even if her cycle is a regular length) - so just another thing to throw a bit more unpredictability into this whole TTC minefield!

@CluelessInLondon oh bloomin' heck 😂 none of it is straightforward is it?! I was sure I'd heard luteal phase was normally a standard length for each woman. Ah well.. just more uncertainty to throw into the mix!

@SnookyPook Keeps us on our toes, doesn't it?! How are you feeling? Hope everything is going okay - when is your next scan coming up?

@CluelessInLondon I'm ok thanks although just starting to feel a bit more anxious again. Next scan is next Weds when I should be 10wks. I've no reason to fear the worst other than having had a MMC before and not being able to trust that lack of anything obvious being wrong is not necessarily good news. It's so annoying! Most of the time I'm doing quite well at just focusing on the positives and trying to assume all is fine unless I find out otherwise. But of course there is that element of fear and not being able to trust. All the stats about miscarriage risk dropping etc just feel a bit 'meh, well, it's happened to me before'. So ups and downs. One day at a time. This first trimester feels like it's been about 5 years long already! But I'm also extremely grateful to be where I am. 💕

Hope everyone is doing ok! I finally had a call with a GP who is going to run some blood tests and look at my thyroid given that my cycles have been so irregular and my periods are still light. My luteal phase is also only 11/12 days which is short.

The frustrating thing is that I have to wait until my next cycle to have the first blood test on day 0 and the second as soon as I've ovulated. I've got no idea how I'm going to plan all of that with such irregular cycles! I feel like I'm heading into a couple of cycles that are bound to be unsuccessful if there is an underlying issue and with April (when I was due) approaching I just want to be pregnant again so desperately!

Part of me wants it to be the answer so it can be treated, but part of me doesn't want there to be any issues at all, although I can't help but thinking something isn't quite right still.

I'm back to OPK'ing, which with a long cycle just builds my anxiety levels. I'm really hoping for a shorter cycle this month!

@13lucy good you're finally getting some tests! The timing is a pain, I know our local hospital does do walk ins Monday to Friday you just have to wait longer, could be worth checking if that's an option for you too? I had struggles even trying to book the day 21 progesterone test until finally a receptionist told me I could go to the hospital and didn't have to have it done at the surgery 🙈

@moosey89 that's a good shout, thank you, I'll have to look into that! Just so frustrating when you want answers but have to wait for your cycle to work through!

Hi all, just jumping.

I am CD1 today... 1st day of bleeding with my chemical pregnancy. Hoping for some luck this cycle.

Sorry for your BFN @Bugdem123, totally with you there with the plan (and it’s SO hard when you’re an organised person and a planner by nature!)

Spotting here, 25 days since the MVA, so assuming it means the start of AF. Feeling ok about it, as I’m taking it to mean that everything is getting back to ‘normal’ so I can set my sights on this next cycle. Though it does feel like I’ve been spotting for a years now, through 10 weeks of pregnancy, a week after the MVA and grateful to have had 2 weeks off.

Hope you have lovely weekends planned ladies?

Hey guys, where is everyone at in their cycles now? I am cd9, get my peak normally cd14 so hopefully get dtd these next days leading up x

@samilicious lol at the cloves. Dtd for ttc just removes all romance doesn't it. x

I'm really sorry about the bfn @Bugdem123 123 when is af due? How are you doing? x

@CluelessInLondon I understand what you mean, it's frustrating feeling like time is passing by and not having any control over this. Yay that you got your bases covered well x

Not long until the scan on Wednesday then @SnookyPook it's hard to relax after past experiences, it will be another milestone to hit at 10 weeks, I hope all goes well for you and the time until Weds goes fast x

Glad you are getting tests @13lucy and so frustrating trying to work timings, especially when your cycles aren't always predictable. The whole process of ttc is just constant waiting isn't it. On the plus side, all of us should be super patient after this because we have all had way too much waiting to do x

@Fingerscrossed88 Sorry for your loss, hoping you get good news soon x

@Wise0wl I'm sorry about the spotting starting but know what you mean about a fresh new cycle. It was sunny today so we had a nice walk and some food, what about you? x

Hey @Ladyinpink1 CD1 here, and feeling ok - but also conscious for various reasons I feel like I have a lot riding on this next cycle (not least that my first loss was due in Feb), and I thought I’d be pregnant by the time I got to my due date.

TTC makes time pass so slowly and I hate the fact it feels like I’m sort of wishing away my life to get to the next stage of my cycle!

Your walk sounds lovely, I’m trying to get outside more this year 🙂

I don't know what CD I am right now, I just had my 4th miscarriage on Wednesday 💔 why why why...

Oh @polka22 I’m so, so sorry for your losses. Do you have support?

@Wise0wl thank you.. thankfully I have amazing family and DH is an incredible support

I‘m so glad, @polka22. This thread is amazingly supportive and I’ve found it so helpful to chat to other women in similar situations. I hope you can take some time to rest and grieve x

CD 17 for me, 2 DPO 😊
I'll probably feel crap and different when AF shows but right now I'm just planning a year of fun stuff and seeing what happens baby-wise along the way. I can never conceive when I'm stressed so feel like until I start having fun in life it won't happen anyway. 8 months gone waiting and hoping and not making plans so far, can't live life that way.

Hope your dtding at least starts with some romance this fertile window @Ladyinpink1

Sorry to hear you're getting BFNs @Bugdem123 :( I started the new year like that but lack of sleep has killed it off so need to get back on being healthy too!

@CluelessInLondon blissful ignore is perfect for your holiday - great approach. And hopefully some nice opportunities for lovely cocktails if AF does show. The chilled vibes might help a bean be stickier, you never know! Great effort this cycle either way

@SnookyPook fingers crossed for weds 🤞🏻

@13lucy hoping for a shorter cycle for you ♥️

@Wise0wl ugh sorry you're back to bleeding again :( can be so triggering can't it. Even if it means some form of normality resuming

So sorry for your losses and welcome @Fingerscrossed88 @polka22 xxx

@Wise0wl I'm in the same boat. Both my due dates are coming up in a couple of weeks time, it's so hard not being pregnant again yet 6 months later. I'm trying not to put too much pressure on this month as I know I'm over thinking it and my body doesn't realise that the due dates were next month, but it's tough.

@Wise0wl Hoping this fresh new cycle brings good news for you. I know what you mean, I do the same, I feel like I'm planning everything "if I'm pregnant then" and I do find it hard not to think of it all throughout everyday. I'm not really sure how to stop thinking of it. I do feel quite relaxed so far (but ask me again in my tww lol)
Are you planning on trying anything new this cycle? x

I'm so sorry for your loss @polka22 I'm sure it's all still very raw, it's good you have good support at home x

@samilicious That sounds like a good idea, what nice things have you planned so far? Yes we did have some romance yesterday actually, but whenever I get that peak opk it will all vanish i'm sure lol x

@moosey89 i'm sorry your due dates are in a few weeks, it's tough to come up to that stage anyway, especially when we are not pregnant. I think you are maybe a few weeks into your cycle now? Are you near your peak time then? I hope so much for you that you get good news in a few weeks time x

@Ladyinpink1 yeah mid cycle currently. I have got to a point where I can't actually imagine getting a BFP let alone having a bump...let alone a baby! It's just been so long since I first TTC and I'm tired of everything working in 2 week blocks (even though I try not to let it take over, you can't change the timing of AF or ovulation!). Thankfully I'm away with work when af is due so I'll have a distraction (I work at sports events so it's go go go and a really fun atmosphere to take my mind off it).