Hi ladies how is everyone on here doing? Have we had any BFPs? I really hope so.
I had been doing so good in terms of chilled out the last couple of months, had a little holiday and been quite busy so lots to focus on and the last AF passed me by without much negative feeling. I feel like things have all come crashing down a bit the last few days in terms of being frustrated with TTC...
I had the scan that I'd been referred for on Friday, so I think that brought everything to the forefront. There was nothing abnormal on the scan which is good, but in some ways it got me even more frustrated. I've been trying to focus on this diet around eating progesterone foods as it feels like this gives me some control or something to focus on that I can influence, but obviously I'm blind to how much it is actually doing anything!!!
A couple of friends have announced pregnancies over the weekend and I think it's just sent me back down. I know it's ok to have these down days and I have had a really good run of barely thinking about things the last couple of months. But I've been so down and deflated today, just at home on my own working and I've not really done much, can't concentrate, can't even make my to do list because I just feel rubbish. I think part of the problem with home working and having nothing to busy me up! I'm going to go for a dog walk in a minute but I can't believe it's nearly 3pm and all I've done is wallow.
I'm CD 20, we did lots of DTD but nothing timed and no opks this month. I even did a CBD this morning so I could snap myself out of any symptom spotting but it was faulty and didn't show any result!
Now I'm swinging between feeling pregnancy symptoms and pre period feelings.
I don't know whether to buy a test so I can do it, see a bfn and manage my own disappointment this month. Or whether to just try and stop thinking about it again!
Sorry for the long post. It's like TTC anxiety has been a sleeping monster that's just rewoke with a vengeance.