@Happyhappy37 thank you.
It’s so nice to hear positive words. It’s all too easy to become consumed by negativity sometimes and ttc can feel like a really lonely journey to be on.
When I fell pregnant last year, we told my brother and his wife, and my dad, as well as my 2 closest friends. It was nice to have their support when things went wrong, but since then I’ve not spoken to anyone but my partner about ttc. I’m sure they guess we’re still trying but I won’t be telling them if we’re kicking enough to conceive again.
My sil actually fell pregnant at the same time as I did last year, our due dates were 4 days apart, so it’s hard to see her still pregnant and thinking that’s where I should be.
Then one of the close friends I’d told about my pregnancy and mc, announced her pregnancy and she’s currently 18 weeks so it just starts to sting a bit and I hate feeling bitterness towards people I care about.
I try to tell myself that I’ve fallen pregnant twice so my body can still do it, but then I do question why it couldn’t hang onto the pregnancies twice in a row. When my 3 children were all conceived within 3 cycles, and I’ve never mc before.
My periods have become much lighter lately, they’ve always been 4 days long, but I used to bleed properly on each day, now I only get a day or 2 of usual flow, and 2 of very light flow or spotting. So I do worry I could be perhaps entering the perimenopause stage.
I take folic acid every day, and vit d.
I’m overweight for my height though and I wonder if that might be affecting things so I am trying to lose a couple of stones.
It’s just such a rollercoaster of emotions, each cycle I go from being hopeful, to excited, to then feeling low and depresssd when I know I’ve not conceived, to then impatient for af to arrive so we can start again. And then the whole process begins again. It can definitely feel draining.
As a couple we always enjoyed a lot of sex, and often had it every day out of choice, now even every other day can sometimes feel like a chore!
This cycle, once af has been and gone, I think we might try smep and see how that goes. I use opk’s so hopefully can time it right!
Thank you so much though, it would be lovely to see this turn into a lucky thread where we all get our bfp’s!!