All about us ~ MC'ing or MC'ed or TTC after MC or just loves cakes!

[katendmom]

Ok, girls, our last thread did get crazy long so I am starting this one. If you don't like the name - well... too bad You'll get used to it over time .

ILTC, hi there sista! I feel like we're SO alike. Can you believe that my bleeding started again today? I was quite . And out of all places it started in a zoo when we were watching little sheep at the "petting zoo" section with DS and DH. Grrreat!~ Hope you're feeling better and this mess if over soon for all of us .

Rosybelle, hi there~ [sends a wave] Com'on over - sorry you're here but it's easier to get through things together. If you read my previous posts you know what I have to say - ERPC (or D&C) all the way. Good luck!

Scully, hi... you sound like me... actually my DH who is very much doubting TCC'ing again. And that's just after one MC! Well... we did have a stillborn DD1 but went on to have a beautiful DS. What would have happened if we got scared back then and didn't do it. Ooops, promised not to talk about it until mid-Oct. That's when my MC blood/ tissue results are back from the lab to tell us what was wrong with the baby. We agreed we wouldn't make any decisions until we find out.

Cricri, I know you won't be chechking this thread until later but hope your weekend in Holland is fab!

Hugs and smooches to all!

OMG, FINALLY! AF has decided to show! At this point, knew I wasn't pregnant, just wanted AF to show (first one since m/c) so that we can really start ttc. Feeling good about this next month, as if we got lucky this month, we would have a July baby...and I've got 2 July babies already (albeit 20 years apart!). So now I can have a glass of wine (hooray!!!) and a cake (ok a little mince pie) or chocolate, and relax for a few days. Gotta mentally prepare for making my Christmas cake next weekend! See, all this food talk is dangerous.....makes me hungry!

Hey triggles, I finally got my AF two days ago. (first since m/c) and it's horrible bad. I've been bundled up in the flat going back and forth to the toilet. I can barely get up for a cup of tea. At least, as you said, we can get on with TTC in a few days. Till then I shall enjoy the wine and chocolates. I knew it was going to be bad, but I went a block from the house last night to meet friends and could only stay an hour as I'd soaked my jeans. sorry tmi. Oh well , here's to the Halloween preggers club!

if i got pg on the 21st of this month i'd be due on dd1s b-day

TJuice, I know exactly how you feel - I felt the same way after my MC cos I wasn't even that bothered about getting pregnant and was even quite disappointed when I fell PG first month of trying! Then at 13 weeks I MC'd and for months it just felt like life was not worth living. I felt like I could never be happy again without being PG even though I had spent 30 years of my life being happy without being PG!

However, I did take great comfort in spending money that I wouldn't have been able to spend otherwise (because I would have been buying baby things and giving up work), getting drunk, going to concerts and generally just having a ball with DH. People with DCs can't do those things! And it was nice to generally abuse my body for a while and only think of myself and not my children.

Take care, I know it doesn't feel like it now, but you will feel better soon!

Tjuice - when i discovered I was pg for the 2nd time, I was actually quite upset, as hadn't planned on having any more. But I'm so upset to have lost it, and now the idea of maybe only having 1 seems hard to contemplate.

Once you know a baby is on the way, I guess you just get so involved with the idea of how life is going to be, you're absorbed in how your body is changing and what's going to happen... I remember spending my lunchbreaks at work checking out all the baby development websites etc etc... so it's no wonder that when something goes wrong it leaves such an empty feeling, because 1 minute you're embarking on some adventure, the next... nothing.

Only thing to do is just concentrate on doing all the things you love best, especially things that would be hard to do if you were pg or had a baby, and I'm sure that you will get that baby one day.

GF3 - hope everything is ok, and that there's no more scary red stuff.

thanks, ladies.
its so nice to know that i'm not the only one who has felt like this. appreciate the support.

our first-af-post-mc experiences are so different! mine was so light. maybe because they scraped the hell out of it before . . .
anyway, i guess it counts so i am on CD18 -where is everyone else in their cycle?

Oh god, I know exactly how you feel. I'd got to 39 without feeling remotely broody, then thought 'better have a go'. Got pregnant easily, then lost it at six weeks. Then lost three more, all after 10 weeks, so had got excited about all of them. And the only cure for the grief was to get pregnant. Only to lose it again. This last one, in March, was particularly hard, and life seemed utterly pointless for a long time. I even wondered about ending it all.

Now there are good days, and bad. Though I was totally knocked back into suicide mode by my sister getting pregnant. With her third, perfect, child. I just have to remember that I have a fantastic partner, a full life and that I was perfectly happy for 38 years of it before this baby business came along. it's a bit like pandora's box, though, isn't it. Once it's been opened, it can't be closed again. Very hard to go back to pre-pregnancy ways of thinking...

No AF yet, could be 1 day late or it could be my crap cycle since MC!
I am aware of my BFN on Tuesday.
I am feeling very strange but not sure if that is because I am hanging on by the last small thread of sanity.
I feel that if I am not pregnant this time I am going to find it really hard to cope. I know I will but this feeling of helplessness and failure is begining to feel like an unwelcome house guest who just doesnt want to leave.
I dont want to test either because if it is BFN then what will I do?

Hey ronshar - am keeping all things crossed for you. I would say try and relax but I know how hard that is xxx

Hi Ronshar, thinking of you. I know it's tough but hang in there - you will be just fine. Could you maybe arrange a weekend away or something to give you something else to focus on?

Thinking of you ronshar. It's torture when you are due/late isn't it.

herb - its totally a pandora's box . . .
five mcs though, must be so painful for you. i really hope it works out for you.

ronshar getting away is a great idea. maybe you should just wait a while anyway. testing is certainly doing my head in right now. i have my fingies crossed fo you xx

Hi everyone

sorry to hear some of you are sad today but can I just add a few words to give you a ray of hope.

I had my 12wk scan today - have been told i'm acutally 13 +3, saw little one jumping and I mean jumping about on the screen. I never thought I'd get this far again after my mc, its taken 18 mths ttc and as an older mum to be (im 38) we werent sure whether it would acutally happen again.

Please all hang in there.

chocolate fudge cake and ice cream sounds sooo good right now, anyone want share.

good vibes and positive thoughts

ladies I'm so sorry to hear how down some of you are. Ronshar I've very sorry to hear your due date is now, it's such a hard time.

I had a scan today and saw the little baby with a heartbeat! I've also been prescribed Progesterone for the next six weeks which suprised me as I've never miscarried in early pregnancy but I am willing to take anything to give my little lump a good chance!

Fantastic news Positive, and Goingfor3! Delighted all is well.

Speaking personally, hearing good news like this is one of the reasons I keep coming back to MN. Glimmers of hope for all of us.

Nice one.

can i just take the time to say.....and i think im speaking for all of us, most of us, and just us in general when i say..........

I WANT A BABY!!!!!!!! and i want it NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!

phew feel better now

Feeling pretty broken tonight
It's a week since I started bleeding.
I can't believe this time last week I still had my baby inside me and hope.
It doesn't help that I feel my dh has moved on already. I'm so jealous I still have the physical reminders, but he can go to work and shut it all out.

I tried to find a photo album for my little angel but none seem right.

T juice
I can't begin to understand how painful this must be for those without children but for my dd I'd just curl up.

Hello

Really quick post because i am at a friends having dinner. I have begged to use the internet because mine is broken and i feel so cut off!!! I hope you are all ok. I am on CD 9 so obsessive baby making will start again soon.

I am waiting for the internet company to send me a new modem but with the postal strike it will probably be another week - arrrggghhh - i am actually having to speak to real life people

Hi to TJuice and cricri - thanks for thinking of me xxxxx

ronshar I don?t have any pearls of wisdom to offer? we all know too well that ?relax? ?don?t worry? ?everything will be fine? might not work at times? so I am just wishing that you find out the truth really-really soon!

aquababe, hun, it is a very, very emotional time? for both of you. Your DH might not be showing his emotions? for guys it is easier to bottle everything inside. ?If I don?t talk about it, if I don?t show ? it is not happening, it is not real.? Just try to remember that your DD, and your lost lo and your next baby (if you decide for that) are all results of your love with DH. Don?t shut down. He might not be doing what you want him to? but he might just not know how. ~keeping you in my thoughts~

Rosy how are you holding on before Monday? Thinking of your baby girl and you ? everything will go heavenly well. Let us know right away, ok?

GF3 you must think I?m hormonal but I cried when I read your post. I am SO happy for you, honestly, from the bottom of my heart!!! YEAH. I am also very glad that you?ve gotten progesterone. If you read my posts from the last couple of days ? you?d see that my doc is a big believer in that.

positive {{{huge teddy bear hugs}}} Hurrah to our little womb dancer~ Keep it up, girl, keep it up!

~BIG WAVE TO PREGGIE MAMAS!~

Oh and one quick note ? if you?re trying to understand your DH/ DP - stop You will never be able to?

after all the conversations we?ve been having with my DH? and how we decided to wait until blood results, blah, blah? we haven?t done the ?it? for a couple of days? just didn?t feel like it? but it gave me time to get used to the idea that we?re on hold. So all good, right? Well last night our DS actually slept through the whole night!!! YIPEE! My bumble bee! BUT we?re so used to be up like a 10000 times a night ? we of course woke up at like 4:30 in the morning? so after some tossing and turning? well you know

Do you know where I am going with this? YES My DH totally did you know what! Totally TTC?ed? so WHO can understand these men?!?!?! I rest my case.

I CANNOT BELIEVE THAT I HAVE WHAT LOOKS LIKE AN ONLINE DIARY OF MY BEDROOM LIFE ON MN!!!

That was meant to be [b lush]

oh oh i'll put mine up

day 1
ILTS rubs against dp, dp goes to sleep, ILTS starts tossing and turning in a strop....

day 2
ILTS dances naked infront of dp whilst he searches ebay, dp tells ILTS to fcuk off......

day 3
ILTS decides not to do anything tonight as rejection hurts, dp falls asleep, ILTS still tosses and turns in a strop at dps lack of advances......

day 4
ILTS wakes up to be plesantly surprised that dp has a battered sausage(hehehe) but all dp says to her is "will you get off i need a piss" so ILTS jumps out of bed after calling dp a wanker gets dressed and storms off....

day 5
ILTS finally gets some and goes to sleep a happy bunny...

day 6-7
see day 1-2

its so sad because its true lol anyone got some spare viagra??

oh yeah and my dp isnt TTC only i am he just shags without protection.....

Hey ILTS one day out of seven ain't bad surely?

well........erm.........no i suppose not........ lol i enjoy dancing neked