Fuck you TTC

[painintheholeSIL]

Today should be day one of my period. No sign. We've been ttc dc2 since summer 2018. I don't have any tests in the house. I'm trying not to symptom spot, I haven't told anyone in real life that we're trying.
Our son is almost 4. I'm desperate to give him a sibling. I adore him. He's amazing.

But I am aching to have another baby. People keep asking when we're going to and we just laugh off the questions. They hurt. Every one of them hurts. I suppose I'm just looking for people who understand.

Every single thread I look at in relation to this ends up full of BFPs and I'm just not in the space where I can read those and not feel devastated.

So Fuck you to TTC.
Fuck you to months off slightly delayed periods
Fuck you to every fucker that asks me every time they see me if I have any news
Fuck you to the whole fucking lot of it.

Anyone care to add theirs?

Hi Ladies.

I have to admit I like this tread as it matches how I am feeling perfectly. F you to people asking, to DP saying 'it will happen' and closing the conversation so I can't talk about it and F you to the loss of a sex life that now revolves around the TTC window and doesn't make you feel sexy or wanted at all

@PainintheholeSIL 💐 it sucks

I agree. I love this thread as no one tried to fix anything. We just all agree that it’s rubbish.
Thinking of all my fuck TTC people

Glad to see this back!

Fuck you to having to sort out all the baby collections for the team members who are having kids

Fuck you to someone announcing they are having a lockdown baby on a team call and then my boss saying, 'you're up next Zoomies - I bet you can't beat that'. She had no idea how right she was!

Fuck you to being told that there is nothing my GP can do even though I am on cycle five after my ERPC and am no longer having periods. Period pains, yes but no period. The ultrasound didn't show anything so I just have to wait. 'Perhaps you are just stressed' I wasn't fucking stressed!!! No hycosy until I bleed, so I am completely stuck.

@zoomies1 - Yikes it sounds like you have had a proper day/time of it. I'm sorry that you are having to go through this. I'm thinking of taking a month off so I can try and be 'me' again. I will be able to have a drink, pate, caffeine, and use the hot tub.

Fuck my period for arriving today. Day 29. Last month was 31. 35 the month before, 31, 33,32,29 before that. Fuck my cycle. @Foodie2020 I ate 2 full tubs of pate this week... bright side?

@painintheholeSIL pate is a defo bright side... can't believe that you can't even have the vegan pate because of the amount of Vit A still in it when pregnant. I'm sorry your AF has arrived, do something you couldn't have otherwise to cheer yourself up!! Wine works for me- but only in moderation otherwise, I move over to the teary/sad side and it becomes worse, lol.

@Foodie2020 thank you. It's mad isn't it? I love the stuff too. I'm trying not to dwell on it this month. I was awake half the night with cramps though so hard not to feel sad. But, I did the shopping this evening. Bought a ridiculous amount of junk, and I'm going to eat my sadness tonight.🙈

@Foodie2020 thank you. It's mad isn't it? I love the stuff too. I'm trying not to dwell on it this month. I was awake half the night with cramps though so hard not to feel sad. But, I did the shopping this evening. Bought a ridiculous amount of junk, and I'm going to eat my sadness tonight.🙈

I'm just reviving this to say fuck you to being told I should "just relax and stop trying" 9 cycles in, 5 months after my 2nd chemical pregnancy.

@CurbsideProphet fucking assholes some people are

Fuck you to my fucking father fur asking me yesterday if I want to have more children because "the one you have is so lovely and I'd like to see him grow up with a sibling" fucking fuck off you ginormous prick.

Fuck you to my period arriving tonight. We agreed a cut off of when we'd stop so we're trying one more month and that's it - if we don't conceive DD will be an only child. I'm beyond sad at the prospect and reality is sinking in fast. Because there's no medical reason it's not worked so far I always assumed it would just take time and that time is nearly up.

Can I join?

Fuck you to every month being full of disappointment and fuck you TTC to turning me into a miserable bitch. TTC for 2 years, not a hint of a line and now my friend has announced she’s pregnant after coming off the pill and not even having a single period! Pregnant within 6 weeks :(
I feel like I’ve officially given up- this news really brought me down :(

Fuck you ttc!!!! 🖕This shit is hard and I'm so fucking pissed off with it. Fuck you af 🖕for turning me into a miserable cow every month and causing me a stupid amount of pain. Just a big 🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕 to it all.

Fuck you to the fertility acupuncturist who told us that there's a baby waiting for us but it's looking down on us wondering where it will fit into our busy lives so we have to make time to show the baby we are ready for it and want it . Not just a lovely way of making me blame myself, but also very inaccurate. We're not some power couple who never have time.

That happened a while ago but has been bothering me again today as I've just had a laparoscopy so literally had someone cut me open to try to help us have a baby, I wonder if that's a clear enough sign to the baby or the universe or whatever the hell she was on about

@Veenah Jesus Christ such a thing to say to you.
I took the first step today to getting help. Went to see my GP. Had day 3 bloods done. Referral letter sent to a gynaecologist for a private consultation so hopefully won't have to wait long.
She ended the visit by saying "we need to get you a baby so let's get everything moving fast"
I wanted to cry with the relief of actually talking to her.

Fuck polycystic ovaries.
Fuck all this sadness.

@Veenah Wow, like you have to pencil in your baby into your busy schedule?! Fuck her.

Fuck another month of BFN’s
Fuck seemingly everyone around me being pregnant or with babies
Fuck life for not making it our turn yet

Just wanted to say thanks for this thread.

Had so many symptoms this month, did OPK's so knew when I was ovulating, dtd exactly when we should have in the days before and after ovulation, used pre-seed. I really thought it was our month. Got cramps and a tiny bit of spotting and thought it was implantation- now the spotting is heavier followed by a BFN (I am CD25) so I am obviously coming on early.

FUCK it all.......now I have to go to a meeting at work with several heavily pregnant women and I don't want to. I'd rather go back to bed and sleep and forget about this awful shit.

Fuck this bullshit. Currently laying on my sofa when I should be working on my laptop, with awful period pains. My back and lower stomach are killing me so I'm using a hot water bottle and dosed up on prescribed painkillers, which just aren't touching the sides, and I'm here in tears extremely pissed off. I came on today as predicted,14dpo and cd30.

I already have a dd who's 3, and in Jan 2019 I had a mc and I haven't been able to fall pregnant since. Earlier this year I had a scan which shows everything is healthy (although I have a small chocolate ovarian cyst on left ovary) and had a CD21 blood test which shows I'm ovulating. Plus I get ov pain (always on the right side) and I use opks. DH had sperm analysis in June which is clear.

I've got a video call with the gynaecologist at the hospital on Thursday and I'm going to push for a lab and tubes flushed or HyCosy. I'm going to be 40 in December and I'm just so fed up. Being in agony doesn't help and is a real kick in the fanny (that's what the pain feel like!)
I'm taking vitamin D, Coq10, Agnus Cactus and Folic Acid, so I'm at a loss.

Can I add a fuck you to my period which is 5 days late and a further fuck you to all the negative bastarding tests? 😩😂

FUCK. THIS. SHIT.

Fuck you DH's toxic ex wife who managed to have four with him without even blinking. Fuck you DH for not being as devastated as I am every time i get AF. Fuck you AF for arriving tonight when i really thought we'd finally done it. Fuck you depo injection. Fuck you well meaning family members who keep saying 'It will happen' Fuck you to the fucking glass I keep in the bathroom cabinet to do all my fucking shitty tests in. Fuck you MIL for saying I have four stepchildren so that should be enough. Fuck you moon cups. Fuck you tampax. Just everyone FUCK OFF AAGHHH

Everything has been super hard just now.

It’s my birthday and if it wasn’t bad enough, I had to listen to DPs friends go on and on about being pregnant twice.
I’m currently awaiting a fertility appointment

4 months since my last period

@Yutes we all know how you feel. I'm waiting on an appt too. Hopefully won't be too long.
Had my day 21 bloods done today. My day 3 showed progesterone was .74. The nurse couldn't really tell me what that meant though. Fuck that. Anyone here got any idea?