TTC after pregnancy loss - Thread 34 - huddle up and bring on the BFP's

[BunnytheBlueWhale]

Welcome to the 🐧 huddle. This a safe place to give and receive support for everyone who has experienced the loss(es) of a pregnancy or baby. Pregnancy and child loss is one of the most difficult things we can experience and it can also be the most lonely time too. I hope you find this thread to be of some comfort.

I have found so much comfort from the lovely ladies on this thread and I’m hoping for lots of BFPs in 2020!

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@MissSparkles81 Well done you!! How many days of flashing smileys did you get before today? I'm very intrigued at your attempt at artificial insemination fingers crossed for you!

@brownbear18 I didn't get any flashing smilies. I had a negative yesterday and same on opk's. It's weird how quick it happened. Xx

@brownbear18 I was very grateful for my nurse supplies in my car this morning thats for sure 😂

@MissSparkles81 Fx it's worked for you hun x

I'm currently sat in the doctors waiting. Still spotting today so thinking something is very wrong. Just hope the doc listens to me

@MissSparkles81 Good for you! It’s a good job this forum is anonymous for all of us. I often think that while I’m sharing how many times DH and I had sex in a week and talking about my cm 😂🙈

@Mumlili9 I hope you have a good doc who does listen

@MissSparkles81 well done on the artificial insemination. It's nice that we can share so much here, in a lovely safe space. When we fell pregnant with DD last year I was using clearblue OPKs and had no flashing smilies at all, just got my static smilie and that was it but it worked.

@Mumlili9 hope you got on ok today.

Thanks ladies ... hoping to try again normally tomorrow night but will be topping up on supplies from work tomorrow.

@mumlili9 how did you get on today?

@MissSparkles81 great news. Hopefully now he knows that’s an option, actually dtd won’t seem so stressful. Can I ask what you used? DH is open to the idea... but I’m a bit lost as to what we need. Would a calpol syringe work?! I’ve loads of those! Or do I need to order a kit, since I’m not a medic of any sort!

What about those syringe things you get with Preseed? Never really understood what those were for

Ah, I do also have some of those! I’d totally forgotten, as I’m with you, never really got the point. Thank you x

@Shefliesonherownwings @BunnytheBlueWhale @MissSparkles81 I have done the insemination with a syringe I bought on amazon. I never thought I would ever have a place to talk about it!!

Yeah I have loads of those actually if anyone wants them I can post them to you! Not sure what use they are for insinuation but might be worth a go!

I assumed maybe you’re suppose to use Preseed more internally maybe but I just used it like a lube 😬😂🙈

Hope everyone is ok

TGIF!

We can talk about anything here @Morganmom 😂

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@Mumlili9 I'm keeping all fingers and toes crossed for you. I hope the doctor was helpful - is there an early pregnancy unit near you that you can self-refer to?

I'm out this month as AF arrived on Wednesday. That was also the day that would have been DD1's first birthday. DH and I both had the day off work and just spent a quiet day together. Some friends went to a pub nearby to drink a toast to DD1 but in the end DH and I were not up to going, but the thought that they were celebrating her and her name was out there was really comforting.

I am trying not to be too upset about AF arriving this month. I am telling myself that if (by some miracle) we conceive next cycle then I would be recording 29th Jan as the date of last menstrual period and so I would get to have DD1's birthday as part of a new pregnancy. I know it probably sounds a bit mad, but I think that sometimes my grief makes me a bit mad anyway.

Hope you’re ok @JuniperandRose My DD’s first birthday is coming up in 2 weeks and think we will just have a quiet day together too. It’s hard to know what to do. I liked to think I’d be pregnant by her birthday too bit this year has gone by so quickly.

I hope you’re ok @Mumlili9

thankyou @BunnytheBlueWhale. I'll be thinking of you for your DD's birthday and sending you good thoughts. I think there is some pressure to do something, but really just having a quiet day can be a good option too.

@BunnytheBlueWhale
@juniperandrose I just want to say to both of you how sorry I am for everything you have gone thru. I am so grateful for this forum because it’s really brought me so much relief. I wish I could take away the pain that we’ve had to feel! I kept saying to myself last night if only I were pregnant it would make my grief easier, maybe I wouldn’t have to feel so much. I know it not true. I was reading in my bible last night and it said if you have hope then you have to have patience and wait for the unseen. and I thought wow this is for me to hear right now. I’m just going to have to wait to my next cycle and have hope it’s BFP!

@JuniperAndRose Thanks. I think you’re right.

@Morganmom Thank you. I think we’ve all had some tough times recently and it does help to be able to talk to people who understand some of what you’ve been through. What you read makes perfect sense. I definitely have hope for this year. I’m in the 2WW and would love something positive to happen soon but if it takes me a year to get pregnant then that should be soon enough if it results in a healthy baby Fingers crossed for us 🤞 xx

@tmc14 I got some oral syringes from work and little pots. I would be more than happy to post some out to you if you pm me your address.

Ive been doing a bit of reading and most forums say that you can wash the supplies out and reuse them but I have also read that apparently sperm can damage the sperm so I will be throwing them away after use. Today is my ovulation day so I am going to try again tonight with this method x

I feel like such a mean person tonight. I am in a WhatsApp group with some ladies I got chatting to on another forum and one the ladies has just got a faint positive and another is about to give birth.

I am genuinely happy for them both but at the same time I just can't bear it 😔

@JuniperAndRose sending you (and hubby) the biggest hug lovely 🥰

@Morganmom how did you find doing the insemination? Any tips? X

That doesn’t make you mean @MissSparkles81 Weve probably all had difficulty hearing others’ pregnancy / baby news x

Just noticed a typo - I meant water can damage sperm.

Thanks @BunnytheBlueWhale ❤

Well ladies according to my dates in 5 weeks. But the docs and hospital are saying ectopic pregnancy due to my hcg numbers. Thursday it was 38 and Friday 73 so I've got to go again Monday and see what that blood test brings. So I update when I know more. If its an ectopic I'm either going to loose a tube or get the medical alternative, either way I'm out of the game for at least 4 months now. They said its to early to scan to see which tube or where it is. The other alternative is its a blighted ovum which I'd rather have because it means I'm not losing a baby just an empty sac. It never rains but it pours

@Mumlili8 I'm so, so sorry. 😢 when I had this last time, it was just an empty sac growing very slowly so I'm hoping for this option for you (the lesser of the evils)... it was an easy and natural miscarriage in the end (as "easy" a miscarriage can get..). I'm thinking of you ❤️

@JuniperAndRose @bunnythebluewhale im thinking of you and your little ones 💐 ❤️ it must be really difficult. Rooting for rainbow babies soon 🌈