TTC first baby 1 year + thread 2

[Mrs71]

@KatBeCool @FlapJackered @Broodyaf @bunhead34 @RosettaR @MotherOfShihTzus @starkid @Lina365

I thought I'd start a new thread as the other one is full. Sorry if I've missed anyone out.

Never mind todays is definitely positive, I'm a day behind you @katbecool. Let's chuck an opk picture on here, not had one in a while

I had my hysteroscopy on Thursday, it was smooth and the polyp was found and removed, and nothing else untoward was found. The general anaesthetic has knocked me back a bit though!

I will most likely start ivf with my next cycle, but will be on long protocol so that means egg collection in February. @FlapJackered I am 100% with you on playing an expensive lottery, that's exactly what this feels like.

Not sure if we will be able to try this month as I'm not meant to dtd until the bleeding has stopped, and I'll probably ovulate in 3-4 days. So that might be it for trying naturally before ivf, which is sad.

@RosettaR - glad to hear your operation went well and nothing else found during it. Good luck with the IVF xx

@starkid that looks positive! One day behind is close enough.

Just got the results for my bloods... TSH is now 3.1. So they doubled my medicine. How??!! It was great just two months ago. Just as I thinking earlier today, what can possibly get worse. My stupid body, of course.

@KatBeCool what did the docs say about it?

@starkid she didn't really say anything. Just doubled the dose. That's pretty much all you do.

@RosettaR great to hear you're doing well after the op!

Hi everyone! Just been catching up on the thread @starkid @KatBeCool cd 16 for me today too! I got my letter through the post for my appointment with gynaecologist. I don't have a date yet they're going to contact me with a date but least they referral has gone through. I not really sure what to expect next.

@RosettaR glad the operation went well. Good luck with the ivf. Are you still doing accunpuncture?

@FlapJackered sorry af arrived for you! You never know you could get your BFP in your next cycle.

Oh gawd, I just burst into tears at a friend's wedding. All my friends who were due around the same time as I was were there with their babies and I just got totally overwhelmed and burst into tears. I am so embarrassed. 🤦🏼‍♀️ I just want this crap to be over with now. I am so fed up for feeling sorry for myself and for not being able to be fully happy for other people. It sucks.

@KatBeCool sorry to hear the TSH was high again, that happened to me. At least they are on it with the medication.

@RosettaR that sounds really positive! Great they managed to remove the polyp.

@KatBeCool That's annoying about your tsh. I hate how ttc forces us to look at our bodies under a microscope like this. Tsh of 3.1 wouldn't even get remarked on if you weren't ttc, it would be well within the normal range.

@Mrs71 yes I'm still doing acupuncture. I'm not sure if it actually does anything but I will keep trying! Something made my follicle count improve so I am just going to keep on with everything I'm doing! Are you still enjoying it?

@FlapJackered I'm so sorry you're feeling like that. Don't be hard on yourself, it sounds like a really tough situation to deal with and I'm sure many of us would have reacted the same way. Can you talk to any of them about it?

@FlapJackered I am definitely finding it hard to be happy for other people with their new babies. Especially family as we interact more frequently. I want to hold all their babies and yet at the same time I feel incredible pain on the inside.

Sorry to hear you've been upset @FlapJackered. It's good that you can vent here. We understand 100%.
@RosettaR glad your operation was on. Let us know how you get on with the next steps.

@KatBeCool I definitely find the same. I don't have too many babies in my family but when I hear another person at work is going on maternity leave, or someone else brings their baby in, all I really feel is upset at how unfair life is. I know that's horrible but it's how I feel. I try to tell myself that you don't know what they might have been through to get to that point, you can't assume it's been easy for them, but still.

I got a positive opk this morning, a few days late. And I have stopped bleeding, so it looks like we will get one last month ttc naturally before ivf.

Just realised my positive opk means af is now due on Christmas day. You really couldn't make this stuff up!

@katbecool what dose are you on?

@FlapJackered - vent away, I'm sure most of us feel the same, I definitely do. I'm avoiding hanging out with DH's friends as one is heavily pregnant (first month trying etc, you know...) and it makes me depressed.

Where is everyone in their cycles currently then?
I'm 4dpo I think, so the annoying time when past the fertile period but not long enough for the hope from symptom spotting...

Just found out today that after 10 weeks on 25mg of levothyroxine my TSH is still 11 😭😭 seems so high! I'm gutted

@queenqueenqueen now I'm on 50mg. I'm surprised they haven't upped your dose. My Dr retested me after only 6 weeks once I had the prescribed initially to make sure it works, and retesting again in a month.

Yeah I've been upped to 50mg today, annoying it wasn't sooner
What are your levels now?

Thanks everyone ❤️, I feel very lucky to have you ladies here or I think I would feel so alone with it all.
@RosettaR mostly they are really supportive and know that we are struggling, which really helps.

Good luck for this last cycle! It's the same for me and due to ovulate next week. Fingers crossed we both get pregnant and we get to spend our money on something much more fun!!
Have you got your meds yet?
@KatBeCool I know what you mean about holding babies. I feel this stab in my stomach wondering if it will ever be my baby.

@starkid I am cd11 so due to ovulate next week. Last one before ivf so I have got to make it count! Good luck for the long tww! 🤞🏻

We are off to our last consultation before the ivf tomorrow 😬 They are going to teach us how to do the injections and book us in.

@queenqueenqueen I just started 50 a few days ago so don't know my levels yet. Did they say when they will retest?

@FlapJackered what bothers me the most is the new mothers are so smug, like in that YouTube video. "oh babies don't do this, oh this hasn't developed yet". Thanks, but I wasn't even talking to you.

@FlapJackered good luck with the consultation today! Are you on short protocol? Do you know when you are expecting egg collection? I will be long protocol and egg collection should be sometime in the week of 17 Feb if everything goes to plan. My fingers are very much crossed though for us both this cycle, it would be wonderful to get a last minute miracle!

Oh finally got my next consultant appointment through for mid February...

So now the clinic have said we need to have the hepatitis and hiv test results before the start of my next period, i.e. before Christmas. So now we have to pay to have those done privately next week, or else delay ivf until March. It's so frustrating because if I'd known we could have had them for free at the gp in November. I'm also now really worried something else is going to trip us up later on. There are so many things, I feel like I need to hire a full time project manager to coordinate!

@starkid I'm so sorry you have to wait until February. Hopefully it will all come round quicker than we think.

@RosettaR that is really annoying they didn't warn you about the tests. We had to have them yesterday too. I know the feeling that something is going to stop it all from happening, I think it is natural to feel like that after all the road blocks we have come across on the way here.
I am on short protocol, it is all done on my natural cycle so I should have egg collection mid January. 😬 Everything is ready to go! I should get all my drugs in the post next week. Terrified but excited! I just hope I do the injections right.

@starkid as Rosetta said I am sure it will come around quickly. I swear the whole ttc process will make us so good at being patient!

Quiet on here this week, how is everyone doing? Where is everyone in their cycles?

10dpo for me, due Thursday. Very dangerous time of the month as symptom spotting mania kicks in! (Nothing much this cycle though except white watery cm, which is probably nothing...)