The July 19ers - The rollercoaster continues, scream if you wanna go faster

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We can do this ladies.

We can take on anything

InDreamland so sorry, CD1 is the worst .

Tigsy yes, I definitely noticed the mosquitos loved me when I was pregnant. Even with deet on they'd get me just walking down the street which is quite unusual as it hasn't happened before or since. I'll put it into fertility friends as a "specific" but try not to get my hopes up lol. Hopefully you find a house you both love soon! How long do you have until you're six weeks?

InDreamland I am so sorry, I know you wanted this before your birthday but I hope you still have a lovely birthday

Tigsy oh so thats good news that there are places you like out there! Market here (Essex/Suffolk border) seems to have dried up, coupe neighbours have given up trying to move now.

Kin ah would be an interesting sign though wouldnt it!

Sorry I have been rather absent, threw myself into a total family day yesterday at the beach. Was so lovely to just get out and stop worrying about Monday.

@kinsters that does sound promising with the bites.......
@tigsy - I love house viewing and "shopping" for one! Are you after something bigger or in a different area Hopefully you don't have to look too long.
@frazzle - has there been any further leads for your DP for a job?
@indreamland - sorry the spotting has started. Back to the drawing board for this month. Are you taking supplements at all?

@pegase - how are you feeling today? Are you off work for the rest of the week now? When do you have to go back?
@twittle - a day at the beach sounds amazing! But I suppose it keeps your mind off things - are you still spotting?

Feeling not too bad thanks everyone. Keeping pain at bay with codeine but does hurt a bit when it wears off. Don't seem to have much bleeding at all- don't know if that is still to come or the ERPC does such a good job that there isn't much.

Emotionally a bit early to tell but do feel relieved to have body reset rather than have a failed pregnancy hanging over me.

Just resting at home today and watching junk TV!

Sorry AF has arrived @InDreamland

Well my doc appointment was a total waste of time. The first thing she said was that I should have made a double appointment cause there wasn’t sufficient time to run through the forms. I think I called them rather than booking online last time and didn’t even realise they had booked me for a double. I broke down in the room, actually shaking, cause I was so anxious and frustrated by it all. To which she just said ‘that’ll be your hormones’. I almost told her to F off there and then. It’s there total lack of empathy and understanding making me cry, not my bloody hormones!!! She said don’t bother coming back till 8 weeks and if any pain or bleeding in the mean time to call the EPU directly. I’m so angry and frustrated, it sure can’t be helping me retain my baby at the moment.
Seems I have no choice but book a private scan cause the doc is just totally useless and unsympathetic.

Pegase glad to hear you arent too bad considering everything. Regarding the bleeding post ERPC, I was so super light and only bled for 3-4 days afterwards too. Just remember despite light bleeding there is still a chance of haemorrhage so take care of yourself and rest.

edidxb yeah still spotting but it is getting less and less so taking that as a good sign? I remember when I started spotting before the ERPC, after a couple days it had started getting heavier and was full bleeding on day of ERPC so I am hoping it is really just my cervix. MW just said to wait till Monday and see.

Sorry about AF @InDreamland.
Know how you feel re resetting the body clock again @Pegase. Hope you’re feeling better again soon xx
Oh, and what is it with sisters lately! Oh boy.

I am so so so sorry and I honestly think it is worth you putting in a complaint to the practice Buggles - it is not okay your feelings were dismissed as hormones!

@Indreamland I’m so sorry about AF, it is just so shit.

@Buggles1 I really can’t believe your doctor spoke to you like that, it is really not okay. I would be furious! How many weeks are you now? I think it’s quite normal for the nhs not to offer a reassurance scan before 8 weeks following a mc, unless there is a reason, bleeding etc. How many weeks are you? I would go for a private scan now, but also make sure you do get that 8 week nhs scan as well.

@Pegase I had really light bleeding after my erpc too x

@Twittlebee sorry you have to wait until Monday, that’s just so shit. But it does sound positive about the bleeding being less. Keeping everything crossed for you x

I’m only 6 weeks but I was hoping to get the blue folder and the admin out of the way and get some sort of reassurance that I may be able to have an early scan at 8-9 weeks given the previous issues and my severe anxiety. I got none of that... just clear off and come back at 8-9 weeks for initial appointment to get blue folder. It felt like she was just implying I was wasting her time.

Buggles 6 weeks was when I had my booking app so clearly you shouldnt have been seen as wasting time!

Rose thank you x

Oh @Buggles - it baffles me that there is such inconsistencies in service that you get. It's the same everywhere - same here too. It's down to the person, what mood they are in and how nice they are feeling on that day. Do you have an appointment for 8 weeks or do you have to make one closer to the time?

@Twittle - I am so pleased things seem to have subsided a bit - let's just try and get through to Monday now x

@Pegase I am so pleased you are resting and feeling OK. Crap TV is the way forward. I am now home from work and it's Thursday afternoon and the weekend!! So will choose something good to watch in a moment. I need to try and stay awake and not fall asleep.

I have had some EWCM this afternoon which is quite odd - not had anything like that so far in pregnancy. It was super thick too. I have googled it and half the answers say it's normal and fine and the other half say it's a mucus plug and it's the start of a miscarriage. So I am leaning towards the positive answers and hope it's just one of those things. My boobs aren't as sore the last few days though......although I still feel pretty nauseous and tired.

I’ve booked in for two appointments in a row at 8 weeks... helpfully their online booking system won’t let you make a double appointment in one go! I just didn’t want to have to wait that long. Will see what the private scan options are in our area this evening. Fed up of it all. Mentally and physically I would have been better off not seeing the doc at all this morning.

@Buggles1 I'm sorry to hear you're having such a crap time with the GP
Here it so depends who you get.
A week ago I was dismissed and yesterday with diff gp I was told she would refer me to epu after 6 weeks for reassurance scan. Completing conflicting

@edidxb I'm not sure about mucas plug but keeping fingers crossed for you

@Pegase sending you love xx

edidxb I get that throughout my pregnancies, that strange thick jelly like discharge. I put it down to the mucus plug forming when we are this early and then with DS I did lose my plug almost weekly (its like size of your palm!) But you have to watch it because if it starts to smell, change to green/grey colour and increases then it actually could be BV!

Actually... now I am thinking this spotting is due to my cervix as past week I have been on BV gel treatment... (always bloomin get BV throughout pregnancies too!)

Hope you dont mind me picking your brains but weirdly feel more at ease discussing my life's troubles with you all than my real-life friends;

I dont know if I am being over sensitive right now.... Mum just informed me that she will be potentially choosing our wedding anniversary for her wedding day! Whilst that wouldn't annoy me alone, what annoys me is that she is choosing the year in which we have already said we are saving up to renew our vows in front of our family and friends (as we eloped) meaning that either 1) it is a race to who sends wedding invites out or 2) I will have to bow down to her and change our date.

She has also said she would rather us not get married in the same year too... which is why I think she is saying she will be taking the same date as us (fyi this date has no importance to her but for us it has always been our anniversary!) as she will know we will have to get renew the vows the following year to keep the date we want.

She also had to throw in a snide comment about how she doubts we will have money saved up by 2021 anyway for a wedding renew.

Thanks ladies, I'm just so broken. I don't know how much longer I can keep having disappointment and heartache. Summer 2013 we started trying. @edidxb I am on supplements - Feroglobin (iron, folic acid and B12), Vit D and coQ10.

@Twittlebee I would be really annoyed and upset. Sounds a little spiteful.

@Twittlebee I can’t believe your Mum would do that to you! Can you talk to her? Bloody hell I would be seriously pissed off! Does she really want to jeapordise her relationship with you?

@Indreamland what about swapping coQ10 for ubiquinol? Has DH arranged that SA yet? I know you said you wouldn’t do ivf, but what about something else? Iui maybe? If it is DH’s swimmers that are at least part of the problem maybe it would help?

Twittle that's just weird. Why does she want to get married on your anniversary anyway?

InDreamland that's such a long time to be trying and it must be so disheartening. I don't have anything helpful to say really. Has your DH's attitude to the whole thing improved at all?

6dpo and my temperature is still pretty consistent despite poor sleep. It's too early to infer anything but I like the look of stable temperatures.

Looking back at my previous cycles, when I'm not pregnant my temperature normally drops on day 7 or 8. Maybe it's just a coincidence but I'll be looking out for that on Saturday and Sunday. I try to stop myself looking for "patterns" in what's probably just random data but I think that's just human nature!

Eugh.... I feel rough today!!
Woke up at 2am dying for a drink and mega sore boobs (literally overnight!!) ended up on the sofa at 3am watching episodes of the inbetweeners which sent me back to sleep around 4. Now sitting at work cursing the Greggs decaf coffee shockingly not doing anything to perk me up!! 🤷🏼‍♀️

Did a clearblue weeks indicator this Morning and I'm 3+ (which ties in with me being 5+1 today).

Met the house buyers last night as they came roubd to show their parents. Woman has a lovely little bump - I just wanted to shout 'me too!!' But just too scared to say it out loud. 🤭

What a Q day....

I'm having a bit of a wobble.
Went to the loo and say my knickers were very slightly tinged with light brown. No more than my little finger nail and clearly mixed with clear (ie not just blood). Nothing on wiping but covered my finger in loo roll and stuck it up and it was brown tinged - I'm not talking dark... again if the toilet roll wasn't white I probably wouldn't have been able to tell.... but now I'm panicking.

My last 'panicky' journey started with similar blood tinged discharge when I strained for a poo at 5weeks... and that ended in MMC at 9 (6 if you don't count the 3wks of no growth until hb stopped)
I know the bleeding MIGHT have nothing to do with the MMC... and it wasn't a PROPER brown wipe.... but ducking hell my head is spinning 😩

@Tigsy, try not to panic, it can all still be fine. Hopefully it will have stopped tomorrow, and you have your other symptoms too now, which is definitely a good thing. The waiting game is so hard, is it another week until you can get a scan?

@Kinsters I’m keeping everything crossed for you, I really hope you don’t see a temperature drop tomorrow.

Yes rose another week
I'm only just over 5 weeks - so a perfectly normal scan with just sac seen could also be a worry if you get me.
I don't know how to feel my cervix (it all feels the bloody same to me). I just can't help but think it's happening all over again 😩