The July 19ers - The rollercoaster continues, scream if you wanna go faster

[Frazzlerock]

We can do this ladies.

We can take on anything

Morning everyone, finally back from holiday & catching up through. It was a really well needed break but I am so happy to be home. Living with my DM & DSis for a week was such hard work. DH & I had a nice time together & after his thrush cleared up, managed to dtd quite a bit (although after O) but hopefully we'll keep up the momentum now into next cycle. I've been driving myself mad looking at old threads where people have managed to fall pg at O+1 though 😫

@Kinsters & @DartmoorDoughnut both are looking tentatively positive, so keeping everything crossed for you both! I can definitely see shadows on all of them 🤞🏼🤞🏼

@tigsyboo hope you're ok after your scare & the house buying is coming on well xx

@BettySwoll0cks sounds like you're manic at the mo! I don't know how you'll have time to fit BDing in 🤪 hope you have a lovely weekend with your DS though.

@Frazzlerock hope you are ok xxxx

@edidxb must be awful going back to work feeling like that. I guess you're unlikely to want to tell them too given the history?

@edidxb it eased good thank you! Nom nom nom.

@Rose68 I love afternoon tea too. Have a voucher still to use from a Christmas present I got so will boon that soon too.

Was lovely meeting my friend and catching up. Was told about her friends in their 40's who've got pregnant naturally and had healthy children so there's hope.

@Kinsters and @DartmoorDoughnut fx for strong lines in the coming week!

I've worked out that DH and I will be away for next FW. Hurrah! I'll be making sure we dtd every day morning and night.

@Tigsy my brown discharge last time started while straining due to constipation too. ☹️

@Ratherbe welcome back and yay to loads of dtd!

@Indreamland it certainly is possible to have children into your 40’s, I have certainly learnt that in the last year. But I think I talked DH into trying just that little bit too late ☹️

TMI.... but my costa caffeine coffee worked a treat!! 💩

@rather glad you have a good hol!!

Those with squint ears... try downloading a negative app... I have one called negative effects- it shows any lines better....
I'll be honest I tried both of them and saw nothing at the mo but it does work.... so maybe keep trying... this was one of mine from the first time....

Yay for pooping Tigsy! Coffee always works a treat.

I've edited my photo into oblivion and the line is more obvious though still very light. I'll probably wait and try a FRER at 11dpo on Wednesday when DH is back from work (if his work doesn't mess him around again).

I'll give the negative app a go as well!

Just popping my head in and noticed some worry. Please don't worry. I just can't handle stuff at the moment and not coping whatsoever,
I don't want to rock all the good news and positivity here, so I might stay away until I get to be back in the happy TTC world again. (It may never happen or it could happen tomorrow, I don't know)
My heart is broken into bits once again, and this ongoing emotional pain is getting too much and is making me very ill.
I suppose am lucky that I got to be happy for 7/8 months and experience the joy of TTC and even experience growing my little boy for 9 weeks.

I am thrilled that so many of you are living the dream of a BFP. You all deserve so much happiness.

Love you all and I hope to be back with the Frazzle you met before this shit happened again.

Xxx

Glad you’ve managed to go Tigsy

Sounds like a good time away @ratherbeshowjumping fingers crossed!

I’ve done the negative bit, can only see a sliver of a line and think that means it’s a negative, will test again in the lead up to AF and keep on hoping!

Oh shit sorry for the crosspost @Frazzlerock xx

Frazzle I hope you have some real life support from your family and friends. Maybe seeing your GP would be a good idea if you haven't already done that?

Where are you going away to InDreamland?

I'm genuinely thinking of freezing some of DH's sperm next cycle cause he'll be away! I guess it would be damaged in the freezing process (although when I worked with stem cells in university if I remember correctly we just stuck them in the freezer and they were fine). I can't see the harm in trying at least except that it makes me look very weird.

Thanks for saying "hi" @Frazzle. I am so sorry you are feeling so bad at the moment, and I do hope that things will get better for you again soon xxxx

@dartmoor - I think that looks very promising - I really hope the line develops for when you next test.
@kinsters - do you have lots of the IC tests so will you test again using one of those? Wednesday seems a long way away!
@twittle - do you have your scan tomorrow? I am thinking of you and I hope it all goes well.

Thanks everyone for your comments. I really have felt awful. Not actual vomiting but almost all day nausea. My DH to be fair to him has been amazing! He is usually rubbish when it comes to anything but he has walked the dog, carried things for me, not had expectations of me doing anything. I am very pleased. BUT he does seem to have developed a snoring habit in the last few weeks which is waking me up ALL night. I'm giving it a few more nights and then one of us is going to have to move to the spare room.
I am approx 8 weeks give or take a day or 2 as I am not fully sure on my timings. I am having a scan on Tuesday. I wanted to wait until I was reasonably far along so as to not cause the panic I had last time about measurements being behind etc. BUT now I just want to know as if it's not good news I can get on and do something about it......

Hope everyone has had a good Sunday. Glad you had a good time @ratherbe! It's always great to come home though.

@edidxb thanks, my fingers are firmly crossed! Sorry you’re feeling so rough, hope scan I’m tuesday goes well!

That's good that your DH is being so supportive edidxb. Sucks about the nausea though. Good luck for the scan on Tuesday

Twittle good luck for your scan today! Hopefully it's just your cervix bleeding.

I have loads of ICs and did one this morning which was a massive BFN but then I caved and did a FRER anyway and there's definitely a line on there!

@kinsters - there is a line!!! I can see a line!!!
Congratulations! How exciting!
Are you 9DPO today?

It is a line isn't it!?!? Now the worrying begins. Yes, 9dpo today so not even late yet. God I want this to be it so badly. I know we all want it so badly - if only that was enough to get and sustain a pregnancy.

@Kinsters deffo a line!!!!!! Wow!! Congrats!!

@Frazzlerock I'm sorry you feel so down.
I ageee that we will see you again and that your DH will get back on board xxx

@edidxb sorry you are having such symptoms... I'm not suffering like yet - I do however need to pee more in the last day or so.....

How far along are you now Tigsy?

I've had no symptoms (unsurprisingly) except usual luteal phase ones and being extra tasty to mosquitos. They were biting me at 5dpo...perhaps it could be a new kind of super early detection test?!

@Kinsters that is definitely a line! I’m still chasing shadows at 10dpo!

Congrats @Kinsters that's fab!

I think I'm going to stop ttc. My DS had me up every 30-90 minutes during the night last night, I basically haven't slept in 3years and I'm wondering why I can't have a healthy pregnancy? I must be insane. I hope I haven't conceived this month there's absolutely no way it wouldn't end in a miscarriage. Fuck this.

@Kinsters the mozzies were right! Tentative congrats! That's a great line for only 9dpo 😬

@edidxb sorry you're feeling awful but it sounds like your DH is being fab x

@Frazzlerock Thanks for sticking your head in, thinking of you xxx

Good luck today @TwittleBee 🤞🏼

Oh @BettySwoll0cks that must be such hard work 😕 ttc aside, you must be permanently feeling awful.

Congratulations @ Kinsters!

@Betty it’s so so hard when they don’t sleep, I got the t-shirt with DS1, thankfully it is now a distant memory, but it took years of hell. We eventually went to the doctor because there had to be a reason, he was referred, and diagnosed with joint hyper mobility which causes pain at night. We knew he was in pain at night because by then he was 4 and quite capable of telling us (screaming at us) that his legs hurt. x

Looks like a very faint line there @Kinsters. Fingers crossed.

Good luck today @Twittlebee, I’m sure everything will be fine.

There can’t be many of us left now! I don’t count cause I have pretty much given up. I’m not sure what I am still doing here really.

@Rose68 there's still a chance for you.

@Kinsters we are going to Venice for a few days after my birthday. Congrats on the line! Fx for a sticky bean!

@twittlebee good luck today. Hope everything is okay.

@frazzlerock

I need the break next week so much. It's not just the 2 mc's that make me feel so worthless and inadequate, I just feel so un-valued and taken for granted and used at work for a number of reasons, everything is getting me down and I just need to escape. Feel like running away from everything.

Good morning all, sorry for my absence - life has been pretty busy with mum's engagement, DS having his HV review today, decorating, getting ready for our holiday tomorrow etc!

Frazzle I am so so sorry how low you are right now and it is totally understandable to be that low - you have had such an emotional rollercoaster of a TTC journey over past few years and your DP really has not been as supportive or understanding as he should be. I relaly hope you have some real life support.

Kin cannot deny that line on the FRER! FX for you! Certainly do another one in couple days!!

Betty I think sleep really must be a massive factor in TTC - I didnt get a BFP (granted ended in CP) until the cycle DS slept through for us! I really hope you get some good sleep soon and some solution is found for your DS (FYI, my DS now only sleeps till 3.30am- 4am so we haven't quite cracked it yet either!)

edidxb so glad your DH has stepped up btw! SO good when they just do it without needing to be prompted!

Yeah so scan today - had more spotting yesterday and the worse cramps too, I was bent over with them and DH relaly did look rather concerned.

But DH also makes comments like "you sure you want another one" and "oh cant wait to have another one to have even less sleep..." - he says he is joking and he will love our next DC as much as DS but it hurts so much when he says stuff like this.