TTC FIRST BABY - Thread 12! [edited by MNHQ at OP's request]

[cupcakesandglitter]

Oh god, can't believe we're on number 12! Current list - sorry if I've missed anyone!!

FlapJackered 30 Cycle 8
Bettythecat 30 Cycle 5
cupcakesandglitter 23 Cycle 7
Jessikka 28 Cycle 1
starkid 29 Cycle 5
MrsAW2018 24 Cycle 8
AnnaMC214 32 Cycle 5
TTC34 34 Cycle 1
ttc12019 29 Cycle 1
19Bee2 27 Cycle 1
Ember25 34 Cycle 4
BlueArtemis 24 Cycle 7
stormtrooperjulian 31 Cycle 6
MrsH497 32 Cycle 2
Tinag18 36 Cycle 2
MrsR16 25 Cycle 6
Random2468 28 Cycle 2
Jessikka 28 Cycle 1
BostonFern 34 Cycle 1

TTC#1 Grads......
EltzBee Cycle 6
Delilah7 Cycle 3
SullyWifey Cycle 11
MrsEG Cycle 6
MrsLBear Cycle ?
GemmaJen Cycle ?
Crossfitgirl Cycle 8
Bettythecat Cycle 8
Fivexfive Cycle?
Dogmum24 Cycle?
Scottslass55 38 Cycle 4

@FlapJackered yes, my DH did way back in September. All was good except his acidity was a bit on the high end. I've been yelling at him to cut down on coffee. He says "oh its decaf", ugh it's still just as acidic especially if you down four cups a day. He's gotten better.

@cupcakesandglitter I'm sorry you're feeling down, this process takes emotional lumps out of you. Be kind to yourself and do something nice for yourself. It doesn't fix anything but it's important. It's always darkest before dawn - there's no reason it won't happen for you xxx

@FlapJackered that doesn't sound dramatic, I totally get it. I have a couple of pregnant people in my life and while I'm so, so happy for them I am so envious. Some days it's fine and other days I'm struggling .

So today is the day AF is technically due. Still not had much apart from some pink CM last night 🤷🏼‍♀️

@cupcakesandglitter so sorry your having a rubbish time. You'll get through it. Don't give up, have some you time and be kind to yourself. Like @FlapJackered said could just be something random, we all know how our bodies like to challenge us x

Hey ladies just checking in! Wow another thread! How is everyone doing?

@cupcakesandglitter wow that is one comprehensive list!! How did you collate all that?? Its really good to see actually as it shows how its totally different for everyone, the no of cycles it took for the grads just shows its not a quick thing (though it is for some lucky people).

@babysquid if you're worried just lie about how long you've been trying and get checked out sooner. 🤷‍♀️ Though I told a white lie to get seen sooner, had completely abnormal fertility bloods, got referred, but then conceived naturally anyway on cycle 8 (Literally the next cycle) about 7/8 months into trying. So just goes to show that up to the 1 year mark things could still be totally normal, and even up to 2 years, and even if things maybe don't look normal!

Don't know if that helps at all :-)

@daisiesandpeonies can't help but notice you are back! Nice to see you back on here again and hope all is well with you?

A little update on me, I will be 12 weeks tomorrow, I have my first scan on Monday, I'm SOOOO anxious about it. As per usual I did a crazy and looked on some MC threads, you know, to prepare me for the worst case scenario JUST in case. Well, stories about people finding out awful things at the 12 week scan didn't help. At least I feel like I'm going in with my eyes wide open and knowing things aren't always as expected, and hopefully it will all be fine and I'll be even more overjoyed if all is well.
Sorry for the little mini crazy, I tell ya, it doesn't stop at TTC, the journey just continues in a different form of crazy!!

Sending you all lots of posivite vibes for great sex and lots of it!!
Xxxxxxxx

@KatBeCool it is hard with the menfolk, we make so many sacrifices but I just suggest not cycling around ovulation time and that is asking WAY too much!

@DuchessofPemberley it's such a rollercoaster isn't it. ❤️

This just came in the post, I ordered it a while ago as I thought it could be a way for me to tell DH that I am pregnant when it happens as he is a major Rugby fan. I just hope our baby wears it and I don't end up having to give it away as a gift 😢.

Still here and waiting for next weekend when af due - no idea what I feel after a bad week - caught a cold, mouth ulcers, car accident in brand new car (all ok except cars and pride!) no sleep the following night and couldn't regulate temp and loads of family bad news. So yes I've felt tired and run down and teary but who knows if that just the effect of a naff week! Then went out for dinner with friends last night and despite my drinking for 3 months had a small glass of wine! Draw on next weekend so I know either way! Hoping others have better weeks and more positive news!

@FlapJackered oh my god I love it. I can wait for the 6 nations to start next Friday 🏉❤️

@Crossfitgirl I don't think I can lie about the length of time, when I had my mc in sept I told her that it was C4, and I think she made a note. Lol C4=💥 not that kinda C4 obvs!!

I hold out good feelings for tomorrow though so I'll let you all know what the test says. 🤞🏻+

Still here and waiting for next weekend when af due - no idea what I feel after a bad week - caught a cold, mouth ulcers, car accident in brand new car (all ok except cars and pride!) no sleep the following night and couldn't regulate temp and loads of family bad news. So yes I've felt tired and run down and teary but who knows if that just the effect of a naff week! Then went out for dinner with friends last night and despite my drinking for 3 months had a small glass of wine! Draw on next weekend so I know either way! Hoping others have better weeks and more positive news!

@babysquid aw yeah I guess that's slightly different if they're already aware. Good luck for tomorrow 🤞🤞🤞 xxx

@flapjackered 😍😍😍 that is so so so cute. Xxx

Day 537 (it feels like!) and spotting is back but still no proper af.

I just tried to speak to my dh about it all and it was a complete disaster and has left me in tears He came out with some of the classics like that I need to "chill out" and that I'm "putting too much pressure on it". Confirming that I really can't talk to him about this stuff as he totally doesn't get it! He even tried to suggest I shouldn't be on MN like it's fueling my "obsession". How does he not get that if I didn't have everyone here to talk to I'd feel completely alone?

I'm sorry for ranting. It's just been a tough couple of days

@AnnaMC214 I can understand where your DH is coming from, when I came off mn for a while I felt much better, wasn't thinking about it as much, as wasn't overthinking everything. However, my DH is great to talk to, so I can't fully understand how you must be feeling. Have you told him how important is it to you to be able to talk to him about it? End of the day all he has to do is 'deposit', you and your body do everything else, so when somethings not going to plan, you're going to be thinking and maybe overthinking, but he needs to understand that. 😘🤗

@BabySquid yes I'm sure you're right and I know he wasn't trying to upset me with the things he was saying. I was just a bit disappointed as I tried to explain to him that it's a lot harder not to think about it when you're the one having to monitor everything all the time and I was hoping we could start to approach it more as a team. Who knows, maybe the talk will have helped even if it doesn't seem like it right now. xx

Thanks @Lozzlepop yeah definitely I don't think I'll temp again 😂

@KatBeCool nope I didn't, I had the one that was just a smidge lighter - but I carried on doing OPKs after just in case, but they were all clearly negative so I think that one was the nearest to positive - I'm actually not sure that I have ever ovulated; I've never seen it with temping, or OPKs. When I went to the doc by day 21 bloods showed I was about to ovulate, but then AF came a week later... never had any confirmation so I guess I thought temping would at least settle my panicking a bit!

@FlapJackered I'm not sure it's random because yesterday was my only temp above the 'cover line' (I've attached it below) - I'm going to keep temping until AF just to see what's going on... I guess the fact that I'm young is a positive timewise, but honestly I had a shitty childhood and grew up pretty fast - I've always wanted to have children, and it feels like I've been waiting for years to finally be in the position where I can. I've done everything I can to have everything in place for children, so when it's not happening it almost feels like a sick joke 😩 I don't think you're being dramatic at all - I'm sure you're happy for her, but it is horrible news really when you're TTC! If you can't cope then I think the flu is definitely a good excuse. That is the cutest thing ever though, I bet your DH is going to love it xx

Thanks @DuchessofPemberley @DayDreamer1707 - I'm so glad I have you all on here, I actually wouldn't cope without. @AnnaMC214 I know how you feel - TTC is so so lonely, and men just don't and won't ever understand how it feels (they only have one job after all) let your conversation sink in with him, he may start to realise now that immaculate conception isn't a thing!! X

@Crossfitgirl oh I can't take the credit, storm made it!! I've just been adding on the newbies. So happy for you, I hope everything goes well at your scan, please let us know xx

I wish AF would hurry up. Just had an absolute breakdown at home on my own because OH has spent the day with his friend and not me. 😂😂

Oh hormones. You are a wonderful thing

Oh no @thumper59 are you ok now? I cried in the car the other day because I wanted chocolate!
I had some spotting earlier today, so it looks like I can treat myself to a glass of wine tonight.

@BostonFern I am Thankyou! I'm just being very silly but feel better for a cry. Have you, a glass of wine won't hurt! But your not out till she arrives 😊 a lot of people I've seen on here recently have had some spotting around AF time and gone on to get BFPs so fingers xd for you x

@cupcakesandglitter it could be just this cycle, also you can have a fallback rise between 2-4 DPO. Keep temping. And keep trying, don't let this one cycle get you down.

@flapjackered that's so cute!

I've ordered my folic acid and vitamin D so will start taking those this week. I'm assuming it won't happen first cycle or two and have signed up for some sports events in the first half of the year, mostly swimming so I'm sure I'll be able to do that in the first half of pregnancy anyway? Other stuff I guess I'll just not book more than 3 months ahead, don't want to put my life on hold in case it doesn't happen for a long time if that makes sense?

I'm learning so much from this thread btw, if I do decide to go the temping / OPK route I feel like I know how most of it works now 😎

Thanks @cupcakesandglitter ❤️ It's just all got on top of me a bit lately. And how dare he suggest I give up the one thing that keeps me even vaguely sane!!

I'm sorry you're having a hard time right now too. I can completely understand why you'd want to take a break. Perhaps you could just stop doing the temping/opks etc for a bit? Or, as you've just started temping, you could maybe say that you'll just do the temping to try and get a better idea of your cycle? X

Thanks @thumper59 but she has definitely arrived! The plus side of her visiting (which I'd forgotten whilst I was on the pill) is whatever the change in hormones is seems to make me really productive. I've got all the marking I bought home with me done, and done several hours of cleaning. Silver linings and all that I suppose!

Also, a heads up that Amazon are doing 3 for 2 on vitamins. I'm going to order some now as OH and I are running low.

I'm exhausted, I'm nauseous, I'm bloated, I'm getting period style cramps for the third day running and my boobs are killing me. No AF, no BFN.

I googled phantom period, like phantom pregnancy, and it's actually a thing! I mean, I haven't missed my period yet so as per usual I'm seventy nine steps ahead of myself, but I need an explanation !!!

It feels very cruel to want to be pregnant, to have had an entire week of pregnancy symptoms, but to not be pregnant. All my optimism of earlier is gone. I'm 13dpo, it should have shown this morning if it was a lucky month.

I almost want AF to come so I have a definite answer one way or another and I can hit the gin in a big way, feel sorry for myself, and move the eff on.

It's hard to put it out of your head when you are nauseous and having cramps.

Out of my self centred bubble, @FlapJackered that is so cute! Adorable. And hugs to you @thumper59 , this is so effing hard.

I might actually have some gin now...

@Crossfitgirl I can't believe it's 12 weeks already! Good luck with the scan, I am sure it will be fine! Let us know how you get on.

@cupcakesandglitter looking at your chart I still think you ovulated on cd21. You have a definitely dip and then rise even if it did go down again. I would just keep temping and hopefully it will become more clear in the next few days. I completely get it about wanting to have children now. When you know you're ready it is so frustrating when it doesn't happen. ❤️

@DuchessofPemberley I'm sorry you're in limbo, it's so emotionally draining isn't it and so frustrating. I hope you get an answer either way soon. Xx

Hey guys, thought I’d check back in. Needed the week to deal with this craziness.

I got my bfp last Friday AM. Started bleeding Fri PM. Sunday I resumed myself to it being a chemical.

Monday bleeding stopped, as quickly as it started.

Well it’s now a week later ... and it appears that I may have a sticky bean that has hung on in there so far. Still getting a bfp and I’m becoming acquainted with various early symptoms. FX that squishy stays sticky 🤞 I’m still extremely anxious, and I’m not allowing myself to get ahead of myself because it could still all go very wrong ... App puts me at 4+6 today based on last AF.

Have a GP appointment on Wednesday. Am able to request a scan if I get to Feb 4th and I’m still getting a bfp.

I cannot thank you enough for all your love and support last weekend ❤️❤️❤️ Baby Dust to everyone ❤️❤️❤️

@cupcakesandglitter I wouldn’t even know where to begin with temping, thought OPKs were more my level 😂😂

I’m having some prosecco tonight to celebrate AF being over and looking forward to the next cycle 👌🏻