The Hut of Gl/doom part IV- it's still never going to happen- but ^in^ ^style^, yes

[duchesse]

After all that desert sand, we are in serious need of slightly damper place...

This one is a hamam, complete with essential oils and thick Turkish towelling bath sheets. Mosaics on the floors, marble pools. You get the picture. It still needs some decorating though.

We have had a few graduates (OK, quite a few), which is good, but time to dust off the old Hut for those of us who are still barren.

i explained myself down the thread anyway

I need putting down too, Ipatience. All I've done all day is mope around the house. We went to the pub before and I even cried there because there was a woman with a tiny baby boy AND I WANT ONE.....Dh cooked dinner, bought wine, waited on me hand and foot, and all I can do is obsess over what I havn't got.

Now is a good time to get that Champagne (although that is surely for celebrations...?) and I've got strawberries and chocolate too. Duchesse? Not very middle eastern I know, but I'm wrapped in a soft robe, with a delicious masseur rubbing my feet too.

(No,sorry, my,mistake, its just dh...

I think we can go for pragmatic Middle Eastern. With alcohol, yes.

I'm too miserable to even reply.

Doh.

lol, me too.

Well, here I am on day 28, just waiting for the inevitable period. What fun.

Impatience- you might be. Might take a few more days before a positive test though. Am crossing everything there is to cross for you.

i am so not dealing with this very well lately.

today i found out through a friend of a friend that said friend is pg again. she has dd of 2; but she has only been with present dp for 12 weeksish-she left last one.wtf?!?! do people not think??here i am trying, wanting, ready, and oh she falls pg just looking at him! i saw her about 6 weeks ago and she said she had just been docs to have implant out-i said why, you have only been together for about 6 weeks,she ummed and arred and avoided question, now she pg. i hate how this makes me feel. it shouldnt bother me.i want to cry.why does it affect me that someone i know is having a baby?isnt it up to her and none of my business?i know it is just her business, but i am so shit today.

Oy.my.god, scorpio... No wonder people end up with ex problems, if they can make such enormously life-changing decisions so very quickly. Poor kids... I always used to be amazed at the number of 11-13 year old I taught whose surname changed from one day to the next, sometimes several times a year, depending on who their mum was bonking at the time. It certainly does not make for cohesive family groups...

its shit isnt it? the bloke she is with i know, he is a 100% lovely bloke, but he has never had his own child before.....deciding to have a child in 6 weeks is nuts imo.they're not even living together yet...she has just got a house. i just get so pissed off that here ia mwaiting with everything 'right'. sorry for my language too, im so rubbish today [cry]

Scorpio, bring the language on: ds is at parroting stage so I am a suppressed swearer!

Even though we KNOW we shouldn't be jealous, it is very hard when someone just gets something so easily you're trying for so very hard. And even though we KNOW it's undesirable to be judgmental it is very hard not to be when someone seems to be being irresponsible (read: putting the cards in favour of a bad outcome..?). Put the two together and it's painful.

TTC after 6 weeks does seem a bit dim. What a kick in the teeth.

oh scorpio, im sorry. its shit isnt it?!

Hello Hutmates,
Here's is another self centered me me me post - but if you can't be like this in The Hut - where can you?!

Shit. Damn. Bollocks.

OK (I'm doing IVF for any new comers) - thanks for the good vibes on the eggs - 2 turned into 5 by the time of egg collection - which made us pretty optimistic.
Two fertilised. YAY!
Then ....
Today we went in for embryo transfer - by now they should be 6-8 cells... or even 4. But NO... they had stuck at 2 cells. Hell.

They are back with me - I have cried and cried. The propects are bad. Really bad.
Thanks for reading - I really needed to write about it. Any positove vibes deeply appreciated.
Love
Choc xx

Oh Chocdays, that's really crap. Sorry to hear that. Are we allowed to hope that they are just late developers, or is it really curtains for them?

My friend had triple success at her third time of IVF, she has triplets!! I wish so bad I was at the point of getting IVF but dh says not until established in the new job quickly heading for 39 years old and scared of never being able to have another! I know how impatience feels, we went on holiday and I cried there was a baby next to us on the flight, then twins at the airport, pregnant women every where I hate them, why can't it be me? Why is it so easy for some people and not for others, it really does suck and I'm also so tired of being down and crying all the time and having dreams of babies and waking up depressed. Your not alone, we all feel this way, it's really tough baby dust to all and myself too;)

I guess until it I get the blood test result on 22nd June there is still a glimmer of hope (let's face it I have been able to muster up hope EVERY month for the last 3 years despite the evidence)
All good wishes, positive vibes, prayers and reiki gratefully received.
Thanks Duchesse, Wishing and anyone else willing to hope aling with me.
Cxx

Oh Chocolatedays, poor you. As you say, you are an expert at holding on to slivers of hope, so cling on in there: It might just work. Just 10 days to go. No sweat

You have my good wishes, and know that you can come here any moan, shout, rant, be utterly self absorbed and/or objectionable as much as you like. We are team chocolatedays, support team xxx

Chocolatedays

Please tolerate a quick rant from me. I am pissed off. I had a lighter than normal period, and my temps stayed high until finally, today, CD-bloody-6, they finally decided to drop. GRRRRRRRRR. It's bad enough not getting pregnant, without the whole f'ing tease. B f b to it, f body. RAAAAAAAAAAAAGGHHH

thanks

oh thats fine to rant

so are you back to cd1 now or staying at cd fg 6?? im cd10 today and dont give a SHIT anymore. i may just find a new man and get pg in 6 weeks. fancy it??

how long are your cyles?

lol scorpio, we should just go out and get wasted, f*ck a stranger etc... guarenteed pg!

impatience, shit, sorry.

Obviously what you need to do is sign up to a life-long relationship with a person you've only just met. Worked with your friend ...

I'm sticking at CD6. I can't fool myself that that wasn't my period any more. I don't know why my temp was still up. Perhaps because it has been so blooming hot lately? That would be an embarrassingly stupid reason. Ho hum. at least I won't be spewing for morning sickness in my exams next week.

Pah, like I care. I'd rather being spewing than barren.

b*

yeah ome on lissie....you too impatience!

i swear that if i ever get pg again i will cherish every retch!

Impatience - were you ill or something??what exams are you doing?ive finished mine now, thank god.i too would rather be SO ill than barren too.....

think i have come down with a cold today; on top of the fact we have NO money at the mo' and that dps job has f**d up and now he is doing little bits for the next month [arrgghh],im not pg, etc etc. i love my life for myself....

lissie-great news on hsg btw...just need to get all duffed up now!

tbh scorpio, now that the initial euphoria has died down im not holding my breath. keep thinking there must be a reason that the specialist wants to prescribe clomid. and 100mg too, most women start off on 50mg