The Hut of Gl/doom part IV- it's still never going to happen- but ^in^ ^style^, yes

[duchesse]

After all that desert sand, we are in serious need of slightly damper place...

This one is a hamam, complete with essential oils and thick Turkish towelling bath sheets. Mosaics on the floors, marble pools. You get the picture. It still needs some decorating though.

We have had a few graduates (OK, quite a few), which is good, but time to dust off the old Hut for those of us who are still barren.

well, hello there! like what youve done with the place!

how are you doing?

Crap. Hauling myself stolidly towards my period. Again. For the 45th time since stopping contraception (plus 3 months being pregnant) Can't be bothered to temp. Don't even want to shag any more. Am pretty much about to throw in the towel. No pun intended.

oh shit! im sorry. is there nothing the docs can do?

How are you anyway?

I have to say that I am glad about the Hut dwellers who have made it, but there's no doubt that the successes make one feel even more left on the shelf. And I know that they will occasionally poke their heads round the door and cheer us on in a non-chirpy way.

Docs not interested in the slightest. Bloody Devon. Staffed by MCP fifty year old physicians.

Shall make appointment next week to have my thyroid sorted out; shall see nice registrar GP who is v hard-working and v knowledgeable. I shall demand they do something. Have not felt right for years, and am very pissed off they are refusing to treat me. According to any research I've read, the only way is down for my thyroid, so why not treat me now, while I am still young enough to get pregnant?
Probably because as soon as I'm on thyroxine, 1) I'd get free prescriptions* and 2) for ever more, as you never get off thyroxine.

*Actually I don't think I should get free prescriptions for everything. I think it's absurd. For the thyroxine yes, but for aspirin or antibiotics should I need them? Ridiculous.

ikwym, you have to constantly push them and convince them that youre not just some hysterical woman who wants a baby NOW.

glad im not teh only one whos happy and a bit sad about the graduates tho.

Hello, I'm still barren too. Do we get masseuses in here? Bring on the essential oils: Not like I'm going to need to avoid them.

Hello, Ladies. Please can I come in and look aound...? Today is cd 1 for me, and I have to say I'm feeling completely crap. I don't think it is ever going to happen and I am doomed to be the infertile one that there is in every family and group of friends. My cycle is averaging out as only 23 days after the miscarriage, with the odd one a couple of days longer. I think I ovulate around day 10 or 11, as I had pains around then, and cm a bit pink. So, I don't think it is lp problem, but am scared there has been some damage done after the erpc, or just that I've left it too long.I feel such a complete failure,and dh just repeats "It'll happen soon" like a bloody parrot. An this was my last chance before my due date too - 1st July. I'm thinking about staring acupuncture next week too, but just keep sitting here and drying, feeling very sorry for myself. I know lots of you have had it much harder than me, so hope you don't throw me out of here. I've brought Turkish delight and raki........?

hi kensgirl. life is truly shit isnt it. you just know that if you were 16 and out shagging strangers every night you'd have at least 4 kids by now [grr]

Yes, exactly,Lissie!I'm not saying i deserve kids more tahn the next person, or that I would be a better mum, but i can offer so muh

i keep saying it, but the irony is that we spend our late teens and early twenties trying NOT to get pregnant. if i hear about one more aquaintance whos "knocked up" and doesnt know who the dad is, its all a bit of a surprise and they dont know if they want it, im going to scream!

Absolutely ladies. Thanks for the Turkish Delights, Kensgirl. Welcome!

I'm doing some A Levels in a couple of weeks for job reasons. Do you think sitting here revising and doing mock papers will kid my body that actually I'm 18 again, and make me all superfertile again?

Probably not. Probably I was never even remotely fertile.

Pah.

Guess what's in my Biology syllabus: Fertility, conception, the whole blooming hormone cycles, even a BBT chart! Just rub it in why don't you.

Evening all - I felt brave (or bored!) and had a rumage elsewhere on MN and found this - a true classic
Cxx

Sorry Lissie, the computer crashes half way through that post, but I do know just waht you mean. Hi Impatience, Sods law about the exam eh? At least you wil probably score 110%. Hope the Turkish delight is tasty, personally I'm finding the raki more useful today.What else can I bring....

i had babies in my teens and wanted to get pg! now im early 20's and want one now too its not easy, even at that age.

sorry, scorpio, didnt mean to be insensitive. its just that i know 4 people who are under 18, pg and didnt want them. two of whom dont know who the dad is. am just feeling v bitter and sorry for myself today.

hello scorpio, sorry to see you here.. cd 1 for me

A never-ending glass of champagne would be nice, Kensgirl! Gotta revise all bloomin' weekend. Now I'm such an old A Level-er I'd better do it in style

impatience - i have just finished revising [wahoo!] i did my exam on thursday - in Social Policy. good luck with yours!

Lissie - thats ok, i just need to make the point sometimes that teenage parents are not ALL bad. i was pg as soon as i left school at 16, again at 19.my babies were and are my world. i understand though when you are faced with a high number of girls who are pg and not so sure about it, it must be heartbreaking, especially in our situation. i still dont understand why girls dont know about condoms, or not sleep with so many people unprotected! IMO anyway, not wanting to start a debate.

Kensgirl - bloody periods! im cd6 and mine has just finished today.

So, my cycles have been 41 days and then 43 days last 2 times - when roughly do i ov and when shall i shag like mad??

Nice weekend for you then Scorpio if you've done your exam! Here's another age-related assumption then: Surely in your early 20s you don't need to try to shag like rabbits Or does parenthood cripple you whatever age?

I am turning into a seriously miserable bitch. Have had a few pregnancy announcements recently, and have found them all tough. Now someone has just announced their engagement, and I've taken it the same way . Turns out I'm just bitter about anyone else's happiness . Dp predicted a pg friend is pg with twins and I became furious at the prospect: It's not enough she conceived number 1 and number 2 while I've been trying, that now she's going to stab me in the eyeballs by being uber successful at it. Someone just put me down now [mangy dog emoticon]

Seriously, without being too dramatic, I am struggling at the moment: A real trough of a few days. Have been incredibly short-tempered with ds and crying all over the place. Nice friend (albeit homophobic and with 'perfect' pregnant wife...) just called me out for a drink. Don't think I could bear either bursting into tears or shouting at him down our local. If I weren't bleeding and wracked with period pains I'd suspect I was pregnant. And then sob for the stupidity of the idea.

Crikey, bet you're all really pleased I've come back...

oh impatience, you really are going through it arent you? its not fucking fair is it!

i know i have a son. and i know that there ae lots of women who dont have that but it doesnt mean that it doesnt hurt.

lissie; of ourse it hurts.

impatience - nah, we manage

i didnt mean to offend you scorpio, have i?

no, silly! i totally understand

[phew]