TTC After Pregnancy Loss Thread 22.

[HidCat]

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A thread for all those who have suffered the loss of a much wanted baby. Affectionately know as the penguin huddle.

We'll start with a roll call as there have been so many new members lately and so many success stories that I think we've all lost track.

HidCat
Age 35
TTC #2
DS 5
MC at 11wks in January
Cycle 3 post MC, trying since August 2017

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@PumpkinPatch000 so so sorry to see you back here. So unfair that it's happened to you twice. Sending you lots of love and positive thoughts.

@Boboelephant I'm gutted for you :-( cheese and fizz is a great idea - be kind to yourself

@PumpkinPatch000 that's the most awful experience, didn't know you from before but so sorry you find yourself back on this thread

@Lovemysparkle happy wedding day - enjoy every second x

@HidCat so glad you're feeling positive 🤞🏻for you and enjoy JKS!

@Boboelephant I'm so sorry Hun. Hope you're ok.

@PumpkinPatch000 I am so, so sorry you're having to go through this again. I don't even know what to say. Lots of love to you. 🐧🐧🐧 Give yourself time to grieve.

@Boboelephant I'm totally gutted for you babe! AF is such a bitch! To tease you like that!! Massive hugs your way.

@PumpkinPatch000 I'm so sorry. Like the others have all said it's just heartbreaking. And to have seen a heartbeat at 6 weeks. Such a tragedy. Words can't fix it, but my thoughts are with you. Xx

@Lovemysparkle gappy wedding day, take time to drink it in, its goes by in a blur!

@PumpkinPatch000 im devastated for you, its just unfair and cruel. I could say a thousand words but they probably wouldn't help that much right now. Thinking of you and sending hugs. Xx

@Boboelephant AF nasty old bitch. Yet another month down but down feel down, doesn't mean it wont happen! By Christmas you could be fat and glowing!!
Keep going, we are all behind you. Sending you hugs. Xx

@Lovemysparkle I hope you're having an amazing day!!

@DaisyMay25 Same here, TTC is taking over my life too. I'm constantly thinking about it! I wish I wasn't though as it's so unhealthy. Trying to keep busy whilst I'm in the TWW.

@Newbie21 I'm so sorry for your loss. Welcome to the group. I hope you find some comfort here.

@HidCat Glad you're feeling optimistic. It does help when you're in the right frame of mind. I totally understand why you want to be pregnant by August. My due date was September and I too hope to be pregnant by then. To be honest, I really hope to get a positive next week to help me deal with my sister having her baby who is due in two weeks time. I'm so scared I'm going to hold my nephew and cry. I'm going to love him so so much but worried my feelings will make me look bad.

@Boboelephant I'm so so sorry. It's been such a rollercoaster and an emotional week for you. I hope your DH is looking after you and understands how you're feeling right now. As @KnitKitty said, allow yourself time to feel shitty and drown your sorrows but then you have to keep going, even though it feels like you can't right now.

@TedLife Sorry to hear you have cystitis - hope that clears up quickly for you. Fx for you now you're in the TWW! I'm testing on Tuesday with a FRER but I am tempted to test with an IC on Monday... although, previously, on the day I had a positive digital CB the IC was negative so I'm not sure there's much logic to using one of those anyway but I'll probably still do it.

@PumpkinPatch000 I recognise your name but I'm not sure from what board. I really don't know what to say other than I'm so sorry for the pain you're in right now, it's absolutely heartbreaking. I've only had one MMC but I understand what it's like to see that little heart beating. Life is so cruel and unfair and leaves you asking so many questions. I hope you've got an amazing OH and family and friends who are supporting you again. We are all here for you too. 🐧❤️

@pumpkinpatch000 I am so so sorry. It is devastating news. I know how it feels to leave this thread and have to come back and start over but we are here for you. 🐧🐧🐧

I'm so so sorry @PumpkinPatch000 I hope you're taking care of yourself

@pumpkinpatch000 🐧🐧🐧 huddle hugs and sorry you are going through it all again.

Double awful news @pumpkinpatch000 and @boboelephant, so so so sorry to read these updates & thinking of you both xx

@PumpkinPatch000 oh no, so sorry for yet another loss, it's a cruel cruel world! Sends no you lots of hugs xx
Welcome @Newbie21 , I'm cycle day 20 following first period since MC . Had lots of bloating today and felt a test he of nausea yesterday?!?! Also lots of CN yesterday and today so fx, good luck you you xx
@TedLife good luck to you, and welcome to the TWW wait, it's seems to last forever!!! X
@Lilimum4 sorry your AF showed up! It's a biatch!!! It's probably just your body getting back on track so has come early , have you tried the digital OPK 's as they are the best for ovulation especially if your AF is all over the place! X
@Boboelephant I am so sorry for you, sends no you loads and loads of hugs!!! You deserve a great big group hug 🤗 AF is so cruel to you x please stay strong xxx
@Lovemysparkle Have a fabulous day and enjoy every minute, it goes by so fast! Xx
@DaisyMay25 Hang on in there girl! Boobs killing has always been a first sign for me!!!! Fx for you xx
@KnitKitty Fx that your cycle resets so that you know where you stand , sending you positive vibes !! X

And to all others, sending you big hugs and baby 🍼 👶 dust...

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@MrsGS76 hi I've got some ready for this month I'm gonna give it everything this month I've got the bbt and app, digi opks and progesterone cream, preseed in the draw and DH has been made aware that he's in for a very busy 12 days and then I plan to do the pineapple when its time. ( I think I might be a little obsessed). I've done the bbt and ff the last two days but I don't think I'm getting it right because I am in the habit of stretching when I wake up but your not ment to do that lol

PumpkinPatch000 I am so, so sorry that this has happened again. Hugs. Climb right into the huddle, we're here for you. Are you getting the support you need from friends/family/healthcare staff? Please let out your feelings here if you need to, we all understand how you must be feeling and it's so unfair and awful that this has happened twice now. xxx

RedRobin7 You could use an IC on Monday just to ease the POAS need. Good luck for Tuesday, I have my fingers crossed for you.

I think we're over-due a few BFPs ladies. We need some happy news. Who is testing soon?

@Boboelephant hugs hun I'm sorry about AF she really is a ***
@PumpkinPatch000 I'm so sorry to hear your news sending you healing thoughts and a massive hug

Well started period today 4days early ! I'm just confused with my body in general at the moment ! It all just sucks ! Big hugs to everyone one else who needs one as well

What is with all us ladies getting AF early this time

Ladies I’m so sorry to hear all this sad news. @bobo this really sucks - I hope you’re doing something nice for yourself this weekend - you seem like a very strong person so please keep that strength going to carry on despite this crappiness. @pumpkin im so very sorry you find yourself here again. As others have said, words can’t change anything but we are all here for you. Hugs to you all xxx

Oh pumpkin so sorry to hear that. Look after yourself x

@Boboelephant I’m sorry to read your update, I can’t wait to see you get your BFP hopefully soon! Hope you’re enjoying some wine and a treat tonight. Sending hugs, I just hope next month brings you better news 💕

@PumpkinPatch000 I’m so sorry you find yourself back here, how awful for you. I don’t have any words that could make you feel better right now but just want to let you know we’re all here for you and thinking of you. I hope you’re okay. Sending love hun 💕

@boboelephant sorry to hear the witch turned up, especially after you threw everything at TTC this month. Be kind to yourself hun xx

@PumpkinPatch000 so so sorry to hear your news, that's all of our worst nightmare and I'm so sad to hear it's happened to you again. Straight into the middle of the huddle for you.

Best friend told me she's pregnant last night,

Is it ridiculous to think I'm out now as we couldn't both be in? Af due tomorrow and I'm going crackers.

@Pumpkinpatch000 I am so sorry to read you've had to go through this twice. Big hugs. I really hope you're ok. Most women who have 2 mc's still go on to have a successful pregnancy. So try and keep positive.

I am symptom spotting which I know I shouldn't. It's a week since I think I ovulated. So one more well till I test (unless af comes) I am trying to think positive. I'm just hoping that I get that BFP next week. But if I get af atleast I can start tracking my cycles.

Still feel a bit wobbly today. It doesn't help that it is Fathers day today and would be my Dad's birthday on Tuesday.

Thanks for all the kind words everyone!! I went to a party last night and took your advice and enjoyed some fizz and my head is a bit fuzzy today! But I had fun and didn't think about my evil af so that was great!
So sorry af has come early for both of you @Limum4 and @Lovewinemorethanhusband. Onto next month for us!! 🤞🤞🤞
I feel there definitely has to be some bfps this month so good luck to all the ladies testing in the next few days! @Murderino, @RedRobin7 and @YellowDaffodils86 are you guys feeling positive?
My temp still hasn't gone below the coverline so of course a small part of me is still hoping that I'm one of those pregnant women who bleeds! Haha such an idiot. 🤦‍♀️

@PumpkinPatch000 I am so sorry to read this - it's just awful- especially after seeing a heartbeat. 😔 it is the worst. Sending lots of hugs 🐧❤️

@Boboelephant glad you went out and enjoyed yourself - you have such a strong spirit! And don't ever lose that hope! It will happen 💕

@Murderino when will you test?? Did you already? Sorry not managing to keep up with everyone !

@Lovemysparkle I hope you had the most wonderful magical day yesterday! Congratulations!!!

So my FF just pushed my ovulation date out so now i am dpo3 again! 🙄
I also now think we didn't dtd in the right times - even tho we were trying to JKS we stopped at the most crucial moments! Haha and my temps look like they've already dropped? Hmm...
Oh well time will tell! (Testing one week from today)

@Boboelephant Glad you had a good time last night! It was just what you needed.

My signs of a cold have disappeared so not sure what that was. Yesterday I did feel very achey with slight cramps but I wonder if it was just in my head. I've never had that before so far away from AF so I'm getting my hopes up. I tested this morning with an IC but of course it was too early and didn't show anything. I've got one more of those left which I'll use tomorrow. Saving my two FRERs for Tuesday and one more if needed later on!

We found out yesterday that our local Guide Dog training centre is looking for volunteers to look after a dog in the evenings and on the weekends. Trying to convince my DH we should do this as it will be a welcome distraction for us both. I've always wanted a dog and this way it's not at home on its own all day and it's only temporary for as long as the dog is in training! I also think it'll help me every time I get a BFN or if I have another MC. I know dogs are so loving and proven to reduce stress!