TTC after pregnancy loss - lucky thread 13

[TheGrumpySquirrel]

Hi guys I couldn't see a new thread so hope you don't mind me starting it off @BertieBotts ?

@coastalchick I really really hope you have a lovely holiday. I think that you have the right outlook.
I'm a little overweight too, and I worry a lot about it (I'm 5'2, size 14-16) but I'd definitely enjoy an all-inclusive to the max!!

Still showing negative opks @NoCatsHere too (waves at cycle buddy!) thinking I may ovulate over the weekend... still making DH dtd even though he's shattered (very physical job). He says he feels like he's being milked

Thank you so much yellow! Ha, I think men do feel like that when we are "on it"!

So, I've got really tingly nipples which was one of first signs I was pregnant last time. Surely I can't be, he only had it in me for a short while and didn't finish. I don't want to worry about taking antihistamines (as I react really really badly to mosquito bites) or drinking on hols. Gah, this process (and it really does feel like a process to me) is ghastly (love that word - very Anne of green gables!)

Have a lovely holiday and birthday @coastalchick xxx

I had a full on meltdown at work, my first since the kids started back 2 weeks ago. It was in the staff room when a colleague (and friend) asked how I was. Today (the heartbeat appointment) was always going to be hard, and with the heavy bleeding I just felt so down and empty. I miss my baby so much.

I haven't shared this with anyone else, but this is our bean with a healthy heartbeat at 8 weeks before its tiny body gave up.

Flat that is beautiful. I have mine framed (but not on display). ♥️

I've shared it with a few close friends though and I think it helps to acknowledge it x

That is a lovely picture @flatwhite, it's so clear for 8 weeks. A lovely keepsake. At what point did your pregnancy end? We have a picture from our 6.5 week scan where we saw the heartbeat (a week before the miscarriage) but it's not very distinct. I'm not sure what to do with it now to be honest x

Lovely pic Flatwhite, so lovely you have something to remember it by. I've decided once I've got the baby making business out the way I'm going to get a tattoo to remember mine by, I know I'll never forget them and it'd be nice to mark them in a (small, discrete) way.

EVERYONE around me seems to be pregnant at the moment and it's stressing me out, I can't help thinking it's not going to work out for me again and then I'll have all these reminders as they start having their babies. I don't know how to calm myself down, I've already cried (quietly, and not enough that anyone noticed) at my desk today when someone else at work announced they're 12 weeks pregnant!

Hi everyone, I wondered where you had all gone!

Congratulations @halloumisandwich fantastic news!

I'm just over 3 weeks after my surgery now, although it feels like such a long time ago! Anyway despite getting a BFN quite soon after, I've continued to have sore breasts, which over the last week or so have got more and more. Has anyone else continued to have this? In a way I am massively symptom spotting because we have been trying again since I got the BFN, but the fact that they never went back to normal in the first place is a bit of a concern!

Now I definitely feel like something is happening one way or another, I've been getting twinges and aches in my womb which I tend to get soon before AF, and which I also got last time before my BFP so my brain is all over the place with wondering! and it's hard to know when AF is really due after the ERPC, but 4 weeks won't be until next Tuesday. My cycles always used to be more like 26 days so I wonder if AF is going to announce itself soon!

Hugs halloumi ❤️

MMC at 12 week scan @Fillybee. Baby had died 1 week after the scan but clung on, so I had no MC symptoms. I just feel so sad all the time, and it was nearly a month ago.

@flatwhite A month ago is not very long at all, it's no surprise you still feel very sad indeed. It's cruel that you found out at 12 weeks, when you were probably excitedly expecting a lovely scan and peek at your baby, it must have been such a shock, which only adds to the horrendousness of it all. Give yourself some more time.

My SIL is currently 8 days overdue. She and I shared a due date until I had my first miscarriage. It was ok when I was pregnant again (due in December) and then even after that one miscarried too I was ok when pregnant again, but now having miscarried a third time so I'm not even going to be a little bit pregnant when her baby is born. I think I might cry when I meet her baby but don't want everyone to think I'm putting a dampener on things or that I'm not happy for them

Oh Filly ❤️ It sounds as if you've done amazingly coping with everything with your sil up to now. Perhaps let them know that you might cry when you meet the baby, I'm sure they'd understand that while you're happy for them, it's a reminder of what you don't yet have

Oh coastal that sounds confusing. Can you test? I think the attitude to your holiday sounds great though, I actually enjoyed my month off last month not analysing every twinge and relaxing about booze etc.

flat glad you felt you could share your photo on here.

halloumi I got a tattoo after my second mc and it felt really good to get a reminder for me. Not only to be in charge of my body too. It's not baby related at all but I know why it's there and that makes me feel happy when I see it.

Hey yellow all the LOLS at the milking comment! Your oh is a trouper and I'm so impressed.

Ok so this was my IC this morning. A clear positive. Yesterday I had a static smiley on my clear blue ov stick. So am I likely to ov after the end of the peak of the surge or the beginning does anyone know? Due to illness we haven't yet managed to actually dtd. Do you think it's still possible to catch the egg if we manage tonight? I didn't even manage the 'mildly sexy' last night coastal! it doesn't help hat the OH is ill too, think I will have to just go for forcing myself upon him later. romance is not dead over here I don't want to miss even the slimest of chances!!

I could be wrong @NoCatsHere but I thought you ovulated 24-48 hours after your surge, so you're not too late!

Get on it so to speak! good luck!

Mine are still a negative, ugh. Wish I was a 'like clockwork' person.

And yes, he's a trooper all right! He puts up with me after all!

Quick OPK question.

If you use IC's, what's everyone's line progression like? Are they very faint for days then a positive all of a sudden? Or do they gradually deepen then go to a positive?

I thought on Sunday I had a deeper line but have since got quite faint ones (I can see the lines, just not as dark, I think it was picking up hormones from the end of AF).
I did opks in January for my first pregnancy I just can't blooming remember!

yellow thankyou for your support! I will channel your energy and get on it tonight!
I find my cheap opk varied a lot which is why I'm using clear blue for a bit so I'm not second guessing the line. I had what you describe sometimes they seemed to get darker and darker and other times they jumped around from feint to dark and back again. Maybe it's worth cracking open a clear blue on a day that you think is positive so you can compare? I do seem to be pretty regular in when I ov so maybe that helps? Sorry not to be able to be more helpful!!!

Good luck cats!
Sending husband off to buy a packet of frer's for weekend testing! Have to say don't feel very pregnant but who knows!
Going to do an internet cheapy in the morning....... fingers crossed for me ladies :)

Goodness knows what my body is up to. Started and stopped and restarted period last week. Nothing for 3 days then bleeding again today. On the plus side finally have a negative pregnancy test 5.5 weeks post erpc and also a negative opk (never used them previously). Oh well. It's not like I should be having a 20 week scan next week or anything :( I'm so sad about it all and colleague has just announced her pregnancy. I just can't fake happy interest anymore.

Sorry to hear that bean - fwiw, periods commonly go odd after an erpc- hopefully by next month you'll be more back to normal. I have my period but it's barely there (and I know flat does too and hers is heavy - our bodies react in different ways to the procedure).

So sorry about the colleague too. Seeing people who must have gotten pregnant at a similar time to me is a knife to my heart at the moment. Are you close to her? ❤️

Not really but it's a small dept and I've only just started.

Hi ladies, I rang the doctor after work. Got out the bath, and blood was running down my legs. It was in puddles on the floor, and had splattered onto our white kitchen bin. I called through to my DH, and we were then cleaning blood with kitchen roll off the bathroom floor. This is the worst period I've ever had. Thankfully because I'm not in agony or passing huge clots, it's not worrisome, but the doctor said to keep an eye on it, but that I must get seen to over the weekend if I feel unwell. She's ringing me on Tuesday to see how I am.

Evening all, hope that we are all doing ok.

I'm definitely in hopeful twat mode...CD24 and it's that feeling of "maybe, what if...?"

Also my temp usually drops a bit on CD24 and then goes on a downward trend until a proper dip just before AF, but looking better this month.

This is why I like temping
I know that ovulation was CD15 due to temp shift on CD16 and persistent high temps since then.

Even tho I got a ragingly positive OPK on the evening of CD15...I guess I may have ovulated already before I tested. Who knows, I don't really trust OPKs anymore

Anyhow, that's about as exciting as it gets in my life TTC. If my temp drops tomorrow morning then deep down I'll know AF is on her way!

Out of interest, which days post ovulation do you all tend to test on?

I don't really test as a rule, only when AF is late- which it hasn't really ever been in the past 14 months

I do wonder at times if I've had any chemical pregnancies over this time esp when my period was massively heavy and a few days late- like September last year when I really thought I might be pregnant.

Before coming on the conception boards last July I literally had no idea what a CP was!

Sending lots of positive vibes to you all!

How awful flat hope you feel better soon & AF fucks off!!

Turquoise I've really been thinking about temping recently. I think I'll wait & see this month & get a thermometer next month...

I tend to test 3 weeks after I think I've ovulated (going by opks). I'm so irregular I make myself wait so I'm not disappointed.

Keeping my fingers crossed for bfps from any of you testing at the weekend!!

I'm waving off my pregnant colleague tomorrow. Her due date is 4 days off of my original dd. It's been very hard staying happy when I keep thinking it could've been me.