I've been told to take it from pre ov to af/bfp and I'm taking it on a full stomach conker. That must have been a massive shock getting the result, I don't blame you for needing some time to get your heads around it.
I know what you mean about the poorly baby who wouldn't have been able to develop well sadness vs relief it wasn't something you did dilemma. Take some time to come to terms with the new info x
Glad the letter was kind as well, I've been so touched by the tone of the communications we've had. Such respect and consideration, to both DH and me. Makes such a difference.
Welcome to the new joiners and my sympathy for your losses xxx
Bleeding still really heavy today but less chunky and not worrying anymore and I feel a million times better. But pale and weak but pain nearly gone and my mood is a load better. Had reflexology last night which is always so lovely and had an early night and an epic sleep.
I decided this morning that actually af is the least stressful time of my cycle (monstrous bleeding aside) wrt ttc. I know what I'm doing with af and it's a certainty. It's the week before that's the fucking worst. Just can't handle the uncertainty and possibilities/waiting for crashing disappointment. So the moment af arrives sucks. But after that it's not so bad, and at least the newt fw is around the corner.
Miami, I don't do praying, but I'm sending all of my thoughts and hopes and wishes to you, your pregnancy and your little bean. May he or she stay sticky. Please let this be your time to get to a take home baby.
Keep talking to us and get on to the EPU. Even without your previous losses they should be seeing you at this point with this level of bleeding, you need a scan.
Sending love x