Is it a line? Time for some wine? Yep, it's TTC after miscarriage thread number nine.

[BertieBotts]

Hello ladies

Hope you don't mind my little poem...

Fingers crossed for some sticky beans this time.

(Newbies welcome too!)

I'm also getting bfn but no af yet.. em I'd love that time machine also

I made the mistake last night of getting quite drunk, which I've successfully avoided since the mc as I didn't trust myself to control my emotions. Should have trusted all my instincts. Now feeling sad and have a headache. Cue lots of me telling my oh I wanted my baby back and him reassuring me by saying we will get a new one. 😢 But I want my old one back!

So hard to comprehend that 4 weeks ago we'd only just found out about all of this hell.

On the plus side, my hpt this morning was finally perfectly paper white. So hopefully af will come soon so I can get back on the horse so to speak.

Can I use the time machine too. I'd like to just know everything is going to be ok eventually.

Thanks tiffin, sorry you're stuck in crappy limbo, sucks.

I nearly chundered in the Chinese supermarket I popped in to at lunch, my super sensitive nose is back. But I had exactly the same last cycle when af turned up in full force! It's come and gone since I was pregnant last year. It's like the most useless inconvenient super power.

Hi all, sorry for all those with AF & in limbo. It sucks royally.

I'm having a crap couple of days. Started a new job & was looking forward to the distraction but EVERYONE is pregnant. One lady is exactly how pregnant I would've been had I not mc.
I can't handle this, I feel like I don't want to be here.

And on the other hand I have cramps, my joints hurt & I have a banging headache, just like last time in my tww. But I can't be, I feel like my body is screwing with me.

I want to find a cave & live there.

No but it's often slow to get going.

Look, see, these tests are so crap that even some stranger on the internet is convinced by them. But I don't think I'm pregnant at all. If no proper bleeding by tomorrow I'll buy a fancy one at the supermarket, but really.

www.countdowntopregnancy.com/pregnancy-test-gallery/all-user-images537117

Keeping my fingers crossed for you all who are getting ready to test/waiting for AF. It's funny so many people's cycles are the same!

I am just waiting for AF to stop. Tonight my LO threw up all over me (twice), that was fun. Hoping the weekend is better! Hope you all have a good one - 3 day weekend, woop woop!

Two people now! It's making me curious. I also am having a very long cycle. I wonder if flying delayed my ovulation? It is possible but seems a bit far fetched TBH.

Yellow I'm sorry about the situation in the new job. That really sucks, and not at all what you need.

Cramps and nausea started. So desperately hope this is AF and not my body screwing. I just want to get on with things now. Sat on the bus with tears steaming down my face. Life fail!

Hope everyone has good plans for the weekend to distract from waiting/pain/general life shit!

Wow, lots happening on here while I've been busy these last few days!

halloumi I'm sorry AF messed with your head like that; Fx that this month is your month! And for Bertie and Smurf, too, I hope it sorts itself soon (a BFP would of course be lovely, but failing that an end to waiting at least!)

Miami I'm following you on 2 boards now and feel so anxious on your behalf; cling to that HCG and know that I also am a nervous wreck as I have no flipping pg symptoms yet!!! I'm sure my boobs were sore and having a freakish growth spurt by 5+2 last time, but nothing yet. Gah, I refuse to keep testing to check how dark the line is, it's an imprecise science and messes mightily with your head!

Anne at what point will you be testing? I know all those symptoms happened last month for you, which is frustrating, but maybe this month... Fx for you!

Amy

Shortly after I found out about my MMC last summer, I ordered some cheap ovulation sticks off Amazon- think they were OneStep or something.

I had never used OPKs previously (2 pregnancies) but I wanted to make sure we had a "good start" to conceiving in case it took a few months (!) as opposed to straight after stopping the pill before.

They did seem to work for me, getting what I thought was a positive around CD14/15 although I was never quite sure as it is quite open to interpretation.

Anyhow, absolutely bugger all happened apart from positive OPKs and back at the start of this year, I was feeling desperate so I ordered a Clearblue dual hormone kit from Amazon. v expensive- 20 sticks for about £28, came with stick holder which gives you the reading.

I liked the CB tests as you either got a negative (clear screen), high fertility (flashing smiley) or peak fertility (static smiley). always got a static smiley on CD14 or 15 which correlated with the cheap OPKs.

Would love to say the they CB kit changed everything and I fell pregnancy straight away, but sadly not!

From January to March this year I used the sticks until they ran out, we continued DTD as we always did- every other day during fertile week, work schedules allowing. Didn't order any more when they ran out- there was no point.
Also, I chucked the holder/reader in the bin last week in a fit a rage

sorry such a longwinded reply...that's my experience of OPKs!
I would recommend them, but maybe splash out on a more sophisticated one for the first few months, so that you can be sure of your fertile days for a few months.

Anne
Really sorry to hear that you have been feeling so rough these last few days, I have my fingers crossed for you when it comes to testing.

sending a virtual hug your way! xx

I'm out for this month :-(
I'm trying to cling to the positives and at least this should mean my cycle seems to be back to normal after the mc... This is second af after erpc 26 day cycle which is about what it was before hand....
Still Sucks though :-/

I'm so sorry smurf. Definitely sucks.

Sorry smurf. Definitely sucks, but good to hear your cycles sound they like are back to normal again

Sorry to hear that Smurf.

I used the cheap opks and got a slightly more sophiscared packet from Tesco (think it was 7 for £10). So I haven't had af since erpc and currently CD20 but I did opk Thursday and it was positive and then yesterday negative. Unfort I got cystitis on Wednesday and started antibiotics. It's a 3 day course which I finished yesterday. Typical! Thinking about dtd today anyway as symptoms completely gone. I only had cystitis once before which was in Feb after getting pregnant. But I got a different antibiotic this time and it's seems better! Not sure what to do.

Well I think we're out for this month - cd29 today and bfn - although still no af - but am only 4 weeks from erpc so not sure when should expect that to arrive?
I think I feel a little relieved as emotionally I think a bfp would have sent me into a blind panic - I feel I need another month to focus on mental recovery and make sure in am physically and emotionally strong before we hit ttc head on!

Sorry conker. Hopefully af turns up quickly for you do you can refocus. I definitely have symptoms that mine is close. I'm CD27 assuming smm cd1. Cycles before we're 26 days. It's such a crazy emotional rollercoaster, isn't it? I go from being desperate to be immediately pregnant, from thinking I'm not sure I will ever cope with a bfp! Hope you have something nice planned for the weekend to take your mind off things.

I feel exactly the same @unicorn! We haven't had a great start to the weekend as ds and dd went and got themselves stuck in the gyms disabled lift after swimming!!!!!! So embarrassing as ta glass and everyone could see them!!!! Fortunately they are out now but feel v disgruntled that they got a huge telling off for even being in there in the first place let alone breaking it!!!!!

Oh no!! Disaster!

We are planning to go to a local beer festival later, which will hopefully be fun but I'm still a bit bitter about being allowed to drink!

Smurf sorry to hear that, it's good that you know your cycles though.

Still no AF for me. Pre mc my cycles were a bit longer, maybe 31/32 days. With my boobs feeling sore but bfns on the tests I'm expecting af soon. Cd 31 today assuming ERPC is cd1. A two pack of first response tests arrived this morning. I must not test again. Must not test again. Must not test again (keeps chanting to myself)

Hello,

I've not been on for a while. I've not been doing a very good job of following! I am so sorry for the disappointment so many are going through.

I'm now just over 3 weeks post mc. I decided to start a regime of better health (I have some back issues I want to get on top of) and dh needs to too! And reduce alcohol too so we have decided to wait a little while, at the least till after my period, but many after the next too. I'm also taking ubiquinol now too which at the least I do think has improved my usually very low energy levels! But may as well give that a chance to work too.

I have to say it's good to get a break from it! I own no test sticks at all! Liberating! some on order. I did do one yesterday and still had a faint positive though.

@Wibblewobble100, I hope you're ok. At your appointment did they explain when they'd put you on aspirin and why? We were told to do so before 12 weeks as my son had iugr but are confused about if can do so / what difference it makes if earlier. I know they'll do it at 12 weeks and I've read the research etc but wondered if it helps / they do that earlier for other reasons than pre eclampsia and iugr?

Ekphrasis
Sorry to see you're on here too.

What brand of Ubiquinol are you taking?
I first started taking it back in November- it was Pureclinica 300mg & paid £36 incl delivery for 6 months supply.

All finished the other day (at times I took more than 1 tablet a day- desperation!)

Just wondered whether to buy any more? It's a lot of money for something that has not seemed to make a jot of difference to TTC.

But then I want to take it if it even makes a tiny amount of difference.

TTC sends you a bit loopy!

CD1 for me, as expected. The positive thing is that cycle seems to be back to normal FINALLY at 25 days...
I started temping last week, and have a question- I sleep badly, and often wake for hours between 2-5, I've been taking it about 6, or later, just before I get up. I saw a drop on CD23 and it's still about the same, so I presume this is OK even though it's not after uninterrupted sleep?
I now have 2 apps-Ovia and FF, FF gives me fertile window from cd7-11 and ovia CD9-14 so I reckon we'll just try from then ... (and see with the temping when I ovulate)
It was CD 10 I caught when I had the miscarriage

Sorry AF seems to be getting everyone - it arrived on time for me yesterday so CD2 today and I know once she's gone I'll feel better about the month ahead. My Mum has predicted I'll fall pregnant this month and have a girl in February (she's been saying this for months) I really hope she's right. Not planning on doing anything differently although I have ordered some fertility crystals. Hope everyone is having an enjoyable weekend xx