Strapping on our lady balls and going menkul because we HATE THIS SHIT!! The Berries: a lovely bunch of 30 something Ladybros TTC #1

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The small print:

The Berries have strict entrance criteria: TTC #1 for 12 months+, over 30, NO instadiffers, must have a special pimping pot and absolutely no mention of baby dust/dancing. Not that we're fussy!

Current Ladybros:

Minx 35 - TTC 2.5 years. Stage 4 endometriosis, both tubes blocked, 1 buried ovary, IVF #1 started Aug '15 at Mustache Towers, if all goes well results due mid-Sept.

Smidge 39, TTC since Jan '13. Unexplained. Some high NK cell immune treatment. IVF#1 Short protocol Jul'14 BFN; IVF#2 Nov'14 and IVF#3 Feb'15 both Long protocol BFNs; Natural FET Jun'15 - Another BFN. Trying to work out what to do next.

Happylass, 37, TTC since Aug 2012. 2 failed ICSI cycles, 1 failed FET and 1 abandoned cycle due to poor response. Hoping to start antagonist cycle mid September. HATE THIS SHIT!!

Beaky 35, ttc 3 yrs, 2x failed iui 1 long protocol ivf cancelled, 1 short protocol IVF BFN, very low amh etc etc. In 2ww for 2nd sp IVF.

Tigerdog, 35, ttc since Jan 2013. Unexplained. IVF #1 chemical pregnancy. Currently redoing tests in preparation for IVF #2.

barkingtreefrog 36, ttc since Dec 2011. clomid bfp summer 2013 then mc @7 weeks, iui bfp summer 2014 then mc @6 weeks. Factor V leiden thrombophilia diagnosed at the repeat mc clinic. IUI bfn Jan 2015, IVF bfn April/May 2015. FET bfn August 2015, remaining frozen embryo perished. Pursuing private tests and then long protocol ivf in Oct/Nov.

Lumen, 35, ttc since Nov 2011, unexplained, two IVF cycles in 2014, both bfns, waiting for lap&dye and results of numerous bloods, aiming for one last IVF cycle.

Kuma - 40. TTC 2.9 years. Low AMH high FSH - DH antisperm ABs. Failed IVF June 14 and March 15, cancelled cycle June 15. Last try September 15

Lucieloos, 36, TTC 18 months, low AMH & sperm motility. ICSI#1, April 2015, Czech, 2xblasts transferred, BFN. Icsi#2, cancelled before EC. Icsi#3, 2 mature and fertilised, both to blast and frozen. Icsi#4 in October, embryo banking.

Rain, 34, ttc since March 2012. unexplained. Mystery bfp oct 13, MMC Nov 13. IVF#1 Aug 2015

Sesame, 40, ttc with no dp, on this road for 2 years, multiple failed IVFs, 3 ETs, 1 bfp then mc, poor responder with v low AMH, but still looking for the golden egg.

nolly, 33, TTC 3 years, 1 confirmed MC, 2 more suspected. still in limbo

Spare, 34, TTC 3 years, IVF#1 short protocol + ICSI August 14 BFP but pregnancy loss at 20+ weeks, 3 failed FET, IVF #2 short protocol + PICSI August 15

Funkymonk 33. Ttc since October 2012. Mc June 2013, Mmc dec 2013, mc June 2014. Factor v Leiden thrombophilia. Abandoned IVF Jan 2015 due to thin lining. Abandoned FET Aug 2015 due to thin lining. 4 embies on ice. Cycling again November time I think.

Clem, currently on 3rd Clomid Cycle

Pip - quite simply the Best In Show.

rain and other Pupo berries, hang on in there. A big day for you tomorrow rain. Will be thinking of you this evening, hope you get some sleep.

Hello ladybros.

Spare have a little hand to hold, this is so hard but I'm keeping my fingers crossed.

Hope everyone else is ok today.

Rain how are you feeling?

Minx I bet neck ache is a sign

I've had some spotting this morning and again there this afternoon. This is so shit. I so hope it's not early af.

Beaky, that smacks on implantation spotting to me!
How are you feeling?

I would love for it to be but I feel very af like. It would be really early for af and I'm on bloody loads of progesterone. It's died off again now but is still lingering

Are you ok Rain? I'm thinking of you for tomorrow, very best of berry luck for pimping, I'll be checking in with everything crossed.

Good luck for tomorrow rain! Will be waiting for your news.

Sesame, sorry your follicle disappeared, that is rubbish! Hope they can tweak your protocol next time for a better outcome.

Hi to everyone else and good luck to all the other PUPO ladies!

Hang on in there beaky! It could be implantation. When I got my bfp I had a few specks of something when I wiped and that was around 10/11dpo. Have all my fingers and toes crossed for you.

minx I think all those things can be pregnsncy symptoms....

Aw, masses of love to you all today ladybros.

Good luck tomorrow rain, have been thinking of you loads.

Big squeezey hugs for beaky and spare. Hang in there ladies. You too minx. Enjoy the opera!!

beaky I hope it's implantation bleeding. I'm keeping everything crossed.

spare the last week of my 2ww was like that. Horrible vivid dreams. I hope it's a sign that something good is happening!

So sorry your cycle was cancelled sesame. It's hard to remain optimistic sometimes. You do have time to think through your next steps, try not to put yourself under too much pressure. Hope you're holding up ok.

I loved the image of you getting in the car and 'all your embryos being on board' beaky! Hysterical! I once accidentally pulled my headphones out on a packed train when I was listening to a fertility track and it blared out. The shame!

kerrie hope you're doing ok. No experience of donor sperm but sounds like progress after the talk with dh.

Naff all to report here and on phone so struggling to do comprehensive update. Just tired and a bit lackluster at the mo.

Tmi alert! Well there's some more red blood again, it's not enough to need to use anything but it is definitely there and bright red. I don't know whether to ring the clinic tomorrow or not. I've got a few pains too. Sesame it's definitely more than a few specks, thanks though, and I suppose you never know.

Lol Tiger I felt bad enough when it was only dh who heard! Hope you're doing ok. Friday tomorrow!

Rain my pompoms are on the go and I'm crossing everything.

Gosh everyone I've not been a very up to date berry and have just read this weeks posts in a state of anxiety, there is so much going on with everyone. So sorry for the bfn kerrie but as the others said, I'm glad your dh opened up to you. An alternative plan definitely helps pull you out of the doldrums. I don't know much about donors, except the success rates tend to be better, so if you're both open to the idea then it's definitely worth investigating.

PUPO ladies I'm on the edge of my seat and have everything crossed for Otd.

Loving the embryo welcome and implantation cd! (There I am again, referring to old technology. Whoever asked about the getting a video out thing - it was actually a DVD, but I suspect that's still a bit old hat these days! There are machines in all the supermarkets where you can use tough screen see that's modern to choose a DVD and pay $3.50 to rent it for a night. It pops out like a vending machine)

I'm still grumpy and short tempered. I think I should get a better job. This current contracting is annoying in that they don't respect the days I'm supposed to be working/not and I'm not getting enough work to warrant sitting around waiting for emails etc. And it's lonely. I'd rather be in an office. Of course that means updating my cv and when I looked at it yesterday I got fed up coz I feel as if I've completely ruined my career over the past 4 years. I had such a good job back in England not still bitter at having to give it up to snare MrSmidge at all, honest and ever since then it's been crappy work, big gaps (waiting for visa/hoping to get pregnant/doing IVF etc) and now we're due to head back to England in March (yippee!) so I won't be able to get anything good between now and then.

Bah humbug. Like we don't all know I just want a baby dammit and I HATE THIS SHIT.

Oh, AND stupid annoying secretary is really pissing me off again. . I emailed on Monday to ask her to ask AliG to call me to confirm on protocol. Tuesday I went in to remind her. Thursday I called by phone again. Still nowhere. She hasn't even asked AliG yet coz she hasn't had time to sit with her and go through all her 'hundreds' of emails etc. Grrr. I said I was concerned as i don't want it to delay my cycle start - does she not understand that IVF women are on a deadline with menstrual cycles being key???

Fuckity fuckity bollocks.

Touch-screen! Not tough screen

BFN . Hate this shit

Rain I'm so sorry. It is just too unfair and shitty

So so sorry rain xxx

So sorry rain. I really hate this shit. Look after yourself and do what you need to help you through this.

beaky I hope it's nothing to worry about - spotting seems to happen with bfps as much as any other scenario - I'm cheerleading away madly for you in this corner.

smidge that secretary sounds bloody annoying. It's all so bloody frustrating. Gerr on your behalf. But yay to coming back to England!

Friday, at least. Can't wait to get home!

Oh no! I'm so so sorry rain!

Ah no Rain, so sorry lovely massive hug your way.

Thanks Tiger I really don't know what to make of it.

Smidge make a complaint about her! She must be the cause of upset for so many women at that clinic. They really need to look at a better way of doing things.

Really hoping the rest of our lovely PUPO ladies have more luck, still enough of you for a cluster! beaky any blood is stressful but like spare said, the timing is pretty perfect for implantation. Keeping everything crossed for you!!!

smidge fuck that stupid woman. Why does the medical profession always seem to attract admin people with power complexes?

Have taken a duvet day, DH couldn't get out of work but has been given the tasks of booking sone time off so we can plan a holiday and bringing me home a nice bottle of wine.
I'm reading through Agate's guide to learning from failed IVF and putting together things to talk to the fc about.
I feel like I probably wasn't stimmed aggressively enough, eggs collected v follies present and the fragmentation we had both tie in with that. Or, I have shitty defective eggs, but I'm going to go with the former for now. Anyone got any advice for me on what to be asking for protocol wise next time given our experience this time with LP? You lot are generally more informed than Dr Google!!

rain what shitty news, I'm so sorry. sending you a big hug. xx

Hello ladies, is there room for a new one? I hope I'm not too old at (just turned) 40. Ok if I join you in hating this shit? You seem like a very knowledgable and friendly lot (and quite sweary too, which I like).

We have been trying for our first baby since January 2012, totally unexplained (but now I guess it's probably ancient-ness), no BFP ever, 2 failed nhs ivfs and one failed private ivf. We paid for a two cycle package, so we have one go left and we don't yet know what the plan is if that fails too.

I know you don't know me yet, but I am so sorry for your BFN today, Rain. It's truly shit and I know how much it hurts.

rain I'm so sorry for you BFN. My heart goes out to you.

hi daisy, welcome to this lovely group . hope your stay here is short.

Rain I think that's a good plan. Do you know your amh/afc? You could ask to try short antagonist protocol which might work better or as you've said higher stims on another lp round. Re egg quality you could try coq10 and dhea for the next few months if you're a supplement fan. I do think that has made a difference for me but just to say that dhea is mainly for low ovarian reserve - I don't think it's always necessary if you're ok on that point. Coq10 doesn't have any bad feedback from what I can see though. Massive hug, enjoy your wine later and definitely get your lovely holiday booked.

Still spotting this morning although brownish now. I don't think it's implantation because it's coming and going and it's been bright red too. although it's not heavy you don't have to squint to see it. Anyway will wait and see how it goes today.

Elise welcome, we only discriminate against the under 30's so come on in sorry to hear you've had no joy so far. What has your clinic said? Have they given any good advice?

I need new glasses, sure I ready daisy when I first looked at that...what do you want to be called?