smack those rats, sniff those drugs; we dont care how, but we will get our babies and we are BROOKING NO ARGUMENT

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Oh bollocksing bollocks Loops. FFS you really deserve a sticky BFP already. I'm really sorry, but I hope that you can enjoy the TTC break and get up to some tricks that you wouldn't be able to do if you were diffed.

Do you think you might be diffed Trumps?

What are your long weekend plans? I'm prepping for a BBQ we're having on Sunday - really looking forward to catching up with some friends and having some glasses of wine in the sunshine (there WILL be sunshine ).

Am on cd14 I think today - no pant snot yet, but it took a while to ov after the last IVF so I'm not too worried. Hopefully ov will wait until we're on holiday so we can have some nice relaxed holiday shagging.

Right, must go - have got a cake in the oven and it's beeping at me.

The f-ing app has gone! Took me awhile to figure that out
Sorry loopy

AFM I've had mid cycle bleeding for the first time ever. Wtf. Ov was super early so we had to miss the fet this month and rely on the old rat smacking. AF due early next week then hope for our next fet

Morning brookers, sorry been locked out for ages due to dadsecgate!
Off to catch up now, brooking for some positive news in here soon, we are due a blimming BFP!

All well here, little far starts nursery tomorrow but has started saying she does not want to go, hmmmmm

Good luck to minifar! She'll be OK. Kip has been having an unsettled time at nursery recently, though is OK most of the day she cries at drop off :(

AF arrived today bang on time. FFS why can't I get pregnant!!!! Will do fet this month if I can fit it in before hols on the 27th. Last emby...

Greetings from a pissing with rain sunny Spain! Hope you're all okay.

Keep fuck AF I say. Bodies are shit. Once again I ov'd by surprise while Mr Imps was away for work. It happens without fail every time he goes away.

Still, it means holiday drinking is bang on the menu

Hello everyone. Again, it has been too long since I posted because OH MY GOD WHAT IS GOING ON WITH THIS SITE?! Ffs, I keep getting locked out and then the website keeps crashing - all when I'm bursting to talk!

I wasn't diffed, Imps. I thought I possibly was because my boobs were in absolute agony and I was incredibly bloated. I got quite excited POAS, but it was -ve and AF arrived soon thereafter, so I have no idea what all that bodily over sensitivity was about.

Another day, another cycle. I'm on CD7 and I feel sure that I'm not going to prevent a pg this month. Shag Week will be between 18-25th Sept. All the worries I have seem to be getting quieter (still there, though) but I just don't seem to be able to stop thinking about another baby, so I'd better give it a go.

I realised yesterday that someone I'm genuinely afraid of is really wanting another baby and it not happening. I won't know unless we take the chance and I suppose that if it doesn't happen, I'll at least know we tried and it wasn't meant to be, rather than always imagining the child we never had, iykwim.

*something, not someone.

I'm chomping at the bit to talk! Where is everyone? Probably all locked out?

I'm here, I'm here just hunkering through the middle of this pregnancy. BT are you mol? Am totally confused!

I'm here too! Going for my fet again this month, cd7 today so starting surge testing tomorrow. Not feeling hopeful, more like we have to do this before a fresh cycle, but you never know I guess

BT I think you're right. Its scary but better to have tried than to have always wondered

Hello lovelies! Back from holibobs now BOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. At least the sun is shining though (the smallest consolation, like, ever). Had such a super time with Mr Imps and am feeling refreshed and revived and ready to go back on holiday.

Trumps glad you're not going to try to prevent a pregnancy this month! It is daunting thinking about whether or not TTC will work...but it's never NOT worked for you before, it just took some time. And even if it doesn't, sadness about that may be easier to come to terms with than regret for not having tried. You really have nothing to lose by jumping on that TTC bandwagon! And of course, now you're a Brooker, a BFP is guaranteed, it's just a matter of when.

Oooh exciting about the FET Keep. THIS little chap or chappess will stay around, you mark my words.

Honks how's the pregnancy going? Any more scans?

AFM, I wonder if I might be up for a faint BFP again this month (I won't call it a BFP or a pregnancy - heaven forbid that it should actually turn into one of those). Am feeling very much like I did with my previous two faint BFPs... very sensitive nipples, some lovely stretchy cramps, a full feeling in the womb-ly area, insomnia and very faint lightheadness from time to time. And I think I could have had an implantation bleed - 2 days of dark brown gunge when wiping which would have been on 6or7 and 7or8 DPO. POAFRER this morning which was a BFN, but am only 9 or 10 DPO so early days. It could all be imaginary of course - wouldn't be the first time - and my hopes obviously aren't up. But it's nice to have some really juicy symptoms to obsess over.

Right, need to go to a birthday party now. Last year said child in question hated her present from us, so here's hoping for more luck this year

Brooking for you, lovely Imps x

Hinks, yes it is me, Molotov ... I might change my name back, or to something similar. I just had a bit of a weird convo on another thread a little while back and I suspect that someone might have known who I was IRL.

How is your pg going? My friend is 32w with her third baby and hasn't been feeling too well - very tired a heavy. Hope you are okay

I'm back as Molotov!

Only better

Oh dear me, I saw DMIL today and she can bring such a downer on things. Don't get me wrong: she is generally lovely, very supportive and a very loving DGM to our DDs ... but she is terribly judgemental and oddly, quite adverse to pregnancy and breast feeding (as I found out when bf dd2).

Anyway, Dd2 (3yo) has been asking me for a few weeks for a "real baby". She is a child who loves playing with baby dolls, and two friends of mine have recently had new babies (they're 8m and 2mo). Dd2 is very fond of those babies and understandably wants a real one of her own to cuddle.

Dd2 asked me in front of DMIL today "Mummy, I want a real baby" and DMIL rolled her eyes and bluntly said "No, we don't!"

I just don't understand why she'd react like that. It makes me feel like she thinks I couldn't cope with any more.

Maybe I need to ask her why she's so opposed, as this isn't the first time this has happened. It's hard: it's not like I need her permission or anything. Just that the hard 'no way!' is hard to hear.

Oooooh that would really rattle me Mol. It's not her place to comment on how many children you have, and an opinion like that is not a kind one to share.

You can ask her - but do you really want to hear her inevitably unkind response? I realise you're not me, but I certainly wouldn't and in fact would exclude her from any third child-related chat in future and would probably try for a third just to spite her

But that said, I don't have the closest relationship with my mum and wouldn't share anything like that with her to begin with!

Hold on, just re-read and saw it's your MIL, not M - my response stays the same though!

Grrrr and the "we"? Who does she think she's speaking for? Does she think she's speaking for you too?? Grrr.

Sorry I've been missing for ages. I can't believe I missed geek's visit.

loopy keep and imps sorry about the bfns, I'll shake my fists at the fertility gods.

So we've had our meeting with the new clinic, and have signed up for 3 more goes (3 for the price of 2) I wasn't quite so sure but if it works first time we won't really care that we've paid too much! And we're really lucky that its not actually that expensive here.

I've had a AMH test and got a result of 1.4 but with different units to what is usual in the uk, on that scale it was 10 which seems to be quite ok for someone as old as me! We're hopefully going to be part of a study into PGS - checking the embryoes have the right numbe of chromosones before they are put back. We just need to get 5 decent embryoes on day 2 so that they can continue to blastocyst and then do the testing (if we're not in the control group). But even if we don't have enough good embryoes they will all be in an embryoscope from the beginning, which can't be a bad thing.

AF arrived today so I start downregging in 18 days :-)

OMG Far I can't believe your consultation appt has come around already! It seemed waaaaaaay into the future when you booked it!

I love the commitment of BTGOF! You won't give two hoots about the wasted cash when this round works. Do they do short protocol as well as long over there? Although you've always had a decent amount of eggs haven't you?

Any more MIL-based run ins today Mol?

Morning lovelies! Nice morning here for now

Keep any surge-based news from you?

imps any news on your juicy symptoms?

beedle that's great news. Your old clinic never took you to blast, did they? I think you can use your second and third goes for a sibling after no 1 works! Do those goes include FETs?

No surge yet. Gotta get it by Monday at the latest as we are going away next Sunday... We'll be smacking the rat anyway

Moll your mil sounds like a bitch. I think your mum has also made comments though. Try and ignore them all and do what's right for your family

Hmmmmmm. The symptoms are still there. Am either 13, 12 or 11DPO today - most likely 12DPO I think which means that AF is due today. Had no pre-AF spotting. Continued having dark brown gunge when wiping until Mon morning (which was most likely 10 DPO) so had that spotting between 5-10 DPO.

Did a FRER this morning - there could be something there but can't decide. But if dark brown gunge was linked to implantation, maybe the fact that I still had it on Monday means that any emby wasn't fully implanted until then, which I assume means that any HCG levels would still be low.

So, in conclusion, I have fuck all idea whether or not I am going to get a BFP this cycle. Have not ruled it out though.

That sounds promising!! I'm my extensive experience a bfn is very clear