TTC after MC #5

[Bristolian1]

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This thread pretty much does what it says on the tin...
Shall we start with some stats?
I'm 32, TTC since last Jan, 2x MMC last year and on second cycle of trying again.

Morning ladies, welcome to all the newcomers and so sorry you find yourselves here.
MrsC well done on making it through your first day back. I hope today gets easier
Onefoot sorry you're feeling so anxious. I would probably consider telling my work, but some aspects of my job are pretty unsafe in pregnancy so I'm extra sensitive.
I had my first flashing smiley today!! CD17! Stupid long cycles I was starting to think it was never going to come! Now have to work out how to dtd as an on late shift tonight

oneday being pregnant after mc can be hard, but we can all get through. Don't be alone with your worries. Night time is always the worst for me. Dh snoring practically instantly and then being left alone in the dark with your worries. The worrying and knicker checking will get better with time. I always tell work now. My boss anyway. He knows the score and quite honestly my anxiety has grown exponentially following last year that I expect I will struggle working full stop the next time, until perhaps the end is in sight.

mrsC hopefully day 2 is over now (or soon) x

Welcome probably are you symptom spotting? Do you think you might get a bfp this week? Fingers and toes crossed for you

Ladies, apologies in advance for the self centered post - having a bit of a wobble today. I thought I had been doing so well being positive etc but with period due Fri/Sat and facing the prospect of not being pregnant I'm feeling pretty low. I should be 23wks by now - I think focussing on ttc and the prospect of a BFP has kept me going and stopped me from dwelling on what happened too much. The thought of a negative test is just too much right now - I do have a few symptoms but we all know our bodies like to trick us. Not feeling very positive right now

Hope everyone else is having better days

Romeo

I always feel like it's the end of the world the day AF arrives. Do whatever can get you through - get drunk, eat cake, cry. However, the next day I normally am able to pick myself up and just dive into another cycle, although I do feel sorry of myself for a few days.

But of course it won't happen to you because you'll get your BFP I'm keeping everything crossed for you!

For some reason I'm convinced it's not our month Being pessimistic or trying to protect myself maybe?

Mrsdiddlydoo - I've been doing some minor symptom spotting but caved and did a First Response test this morning and it was negative so onward into another month I guess. Will be getting my ovulation monitor and thermometer out next cycle and start trying to work out what's going on with my body properly. I'm too much of a control freak to just leave everything to chance, although I guess experience should have taught me that I don't really have any control at all.

Romeo - not self indulgent at all. Even though I know my baby is gone a part of my brain still counts the weeks - I would be 24 weeks now. Still finding it hard seeing bumps and babies everywhere. Hope tomorrow is a better day for you.

Thanks ladies I am a massive over thinker,my boss is now on holiday,but I will tell him when he gets back.
I never sleep and I know my dh is a big worry wart so I don't really want to tell him how scared I am, because then there will be two people not sleeping two people worrying and probably an argument which I can do without right now.

Gosh I'm not really painting him in a good light am I, I'm sure really he is the same and doesn't want to tell me because he knows I will worry .

And you know what I know that all worrying does is make me tired it's not going to affect the out come is it .

Thanks ladies. carrot, you're right - when AF shows up I will probably just get on with it and start thinking about the next cycle - it's this waiting that's the worst part. Oh well, I will know one way or another very soon.
one foot, would it be worth seeing your GP - they may refer you for a reassurance scan (although if you're anything like me that will just give you something else to worry about). Try and keep busy over the next few weeks

can anyone offer any advice? I'm CD19 and got brown spotting. AF not due for another 10 days

Implantation bleed?

Some ladies get mid cycle spotting melon. Can be around ov. I would try not to worry too much. Did you get a positive opk this month?

Too early....surely? I thought they happened a week after ovulation (mind you I never got a positive opk this month)

It can happen around ov and be mid cycle. Probably just a hormone thing! I never seem to get positive opks these days.

Morning all. Glad it wasn't too awful mrsc
Welcome and to everyone joining us.
I'm CD13 and STILL opk neg and no obvious ov symptoms We're dtd like bunnies just in case though.

Morning ladies, hugs and to all those joining us.

carrot af not due till Monday. I am just manically symptom spotting. Apart from the hangover on Saturday after one glass of wine I have
-constant boob prodding (not sure if sore apart from because I am prodding)
-feel sick as this morning (maybe because the dog was ill in the night and I had to clean it up)
-absolutely exhausted (probably because I have worked about a hundred hours already this week)
-funny taste in mouth, abit like vanilla (not sure what this is)

• slight pain in tummy (prob af getting ready to arrive)

so all in all, I can turn any symptom into a symptom and I think I am going mad!!
Hope everyone is ok today.

all the queens your post made me smile as I am being driven slowly mad by similar symptoms to yours. This morning I was woken up at 5am by really strong cramps/back ache - strong enough to make me think AF had arrived. I spent about 10 minutes getting really upset because I decided I had a LP defect (11 or 12dpo today) and then decided to get up. It hadn't and still hasn't started and cramps have gone, still got a touch of back ache but have had that on and off for a couple of days. Reckon AF is around the corner but hoping it will come Fri/Sat as expected so at least the mc won't have ruined my LP (usually 13 days). Gah this is hard work!

Romeo handhold for you.......It is horrendous. At the moment I am worrying myself sick about getting a bfp. Crazy because if I do I will then worry sick about another mc. I never, ever thought this would all be so hard. I am thinking that if I get a bfp ever again, I might take a week or two off and just rest. At least then I can rule stress out as a factor in mc, as my job is a total nightmare. Need to get the bfp first though eh!!

allthequeens it is so difficult to imagine a successful pregnancy after mc. With both DD and DS I don't think I let myself really believe it might happen until a few weeks before my due date and even then I wasn't happy until they were in my arms. But there is no reason to think that your next pregnancy won't result in a baby.

Having a crappy day and need a moan. It's 2 months today that I delivered my baby. DP isn't home til Friday and I need a hug, no friends to call. To top it all off DS4 is in hospital (long term condition) which means repeated walking past the maternity unit. Really struggling to hold it together in front of the world today.

Oh Probably what an incredibly difficult situation. I think you are being really brave holding it together at all

Melon, how long post mc you are? I have to say that after one of my first mcs I got spotting after ov until AF hit. It remained like that for a couple of years, finally being cleared up by another eprc procedure. i do not know what happened or why,cbut obv. my uterus remaine dunhappy about sth.

Romeo,chope you do get the bfp!
How are you feeling, onefoot?

Romeo and allthequeens - know what you mean--think after mc you convince yourself that you're broken somehow, that things just don't work in there but you gotta be kind to yourself, and once you get that bfp you'll know how to feel think when it happens for us all it will alway be with trepidation! Caved in and POAS when I got home from work - bfn but AF not due til sat/sun so was too early in testing...just wanted to check...in case lol. Hope everyone's holding up okay!!!

probably sorry I replied to you earlier but just seen it didn't post. Can you call DP for a chat, might help a bit until he can get home. Hope your DS is ok x

Ahh probably so sorry you're having such a horrible day. Anyway to chat with your dp, Even just to talk through the bad day? Big hugs and hope you and your ds feel better soon x